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Alright well let me lay the setting out first.
I'm turning 19 in the next month, (this is gonna sound cocky as hell but its mostly for you all to understand the situation) I'm a good-looking, varsity athlete, i get 85%+ average in academics (when I decide to put a little effort in haha), and I have a large circle of friends. My family is in good shape, I am currently unemployed after finishing my summer job but that was a choice and I have never had any trouble finding jobs. I'm about to start school at a big university in North America and there will be PLENTY of girls there. I also made the varsity rugby team there, so there will be plenty of parties and events and games where I'll be meeting hundreds of new people!
Basically, my life is perrrrfect I love it. and I recently got an awesome puppy to make it even better haha!

The one problem for me is that I'm a virgin.
To everything. 
I've done everything to girls however except sex, but received nothing.
And this is not due to a lack of girls! At the beginning of this summer I broke up with a girl I was dating for about 5 months (which is huge for me lol I have relationship ADD, any other relationships I had had lasted 2 months tops). Point is, she wanted to have sex with me. Really badly! And so did I! Sooo we had established that she wasn't a virgin and that I was and that we wanted to do it etc etc, but when that friday came and we got naked, I was sooooooooo nervous. practically shaking. I don't know exactly why. To make a long story short, I couldn't get a boner! I could not get it up if my life depended on it. Then before we could really talk about it or anything her brother came home and I had to go to rugby practice.

After this I was all messed up in my head. I didn't know why I was nervous, but that didn't matter any more. Now I'm just too nervous that I am going to be nervous again. So why I had to break up with that girl is that I was (i admitted it to myself later on) scared of being alone with her again, scared that she would try something and that I would mess up again. It ruined our relationship because we simply couldn't take it to the next level. And I felt and still feel reaaally bad for wasting her time lol, it was not her fault; she's a total babe. at least 8/10! So I don't understand why I'm so nervous around girls! And now its to the point where I'm avoiding sexual encounters with girls.

I don't mind waiting til it somehow works out, because I know it will, and thats what everything else on the internet says. I believe them, it'll work out. I could wait. BUT, my lifestyle, the athlete and partier lifestyle, throws me into sexual situations ALL THE TIME. Just 3 nights ago I was at a party, and a girl was all over me. literally crawled into bed with me when I went to bed at my friends place, and I convinced her that I was just too tired. Now, rugby season is starting, there will be initiations, tons of parties to go to, and tons of team veterans throwing me under the bus, or literally under girls at parties haha. I love this lifestyle, and my friends, and my sports. But I'm losing my grip on things because

1) I'm having a lot less fun since a lot of my lifestyle seems to revolve around girls at the moment, and avoiding them is hard work (there's the cockiness again, but I'm serious). I'm running out of excuses.
2) IM turned on AS sh*t hahah! I just wanna have sex with the girls that want to have sex with me! Its so simple!

So yeah I'm completely at a loss for solutions. I feel like every girl is 10 years ahead of me, and like I said because of my lifestyle it might be a while before I find a girl that I can talk to and that will understand and somehow we can work it out. That would be amazing, and lucky, but I seriously don't have time to hope that I'll get lucky. I need a solution.

Also, that girl the other night joked that I might be gay. It was pretty funny haha, but thats what I get for making so many excuses. Since I know her from my circle of friends, and we all know that I'm a virgin, she knew as well. So basically she's just like 'wtf?' when I reject her. But I'm not gay that's for sure. I've considered it lol because like what the hell im freaking out. But just using my detective skills and based on the porn I watch and the girls I fall for and the ones I check out in public, im positive that I'm straight lol. So that's not the problem. I've read all over the internet, and what I have is obviously performance anxiety. Fits the description perfectly. All the solutions I found are soooo vague though, and basically just say that I have to get over it. I can't, or at least I can't find out how, and I really need to.

Help me please,
if someone figures this out, I'll owe them big time. And i'll act on that I'm not even kidding haha

Sorry for the long post and thanks for reading if ya did.
Thanks everyone!
R.
wow R what a pots lol...... but they are all right as are you... you have performance anxiety that much is clear.  so first off can i ask why, if you are this attractive and girls hang all over you. how did you last being a virgin this long? this is not anything to make fun of you about i have all the respect in the world for people who are still virgins out of highschool. basically sex is 90% mental and about 10% physical. that can be good and bad. if you have a strong mind then usually you can perform great however many people lack it. also dont be surprised if whenyou are able to keep an erection that you ejaculate withing seconds or minuts of penetration. this too is normla.  when tried haveing sex the first time did you do any type of foreplay? if so what did you do and how long did it last?
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Yeah it was long I'm sorry haha and I could still write about another page if I had to!



Well, first of all thank you for answering and now to address your first question. How have I lasted this long? This all goes back to about my first year of high school. I was never ugly at all, but I really did not invest any time into girls when I was a younger teen. It just wasn't my thing and I didn't really care at all. I was an athlete and a class clown (in my grad survey 5 years later I did in fact get elected class clown of the grade lol). I was in a social circle that was definitely considered 'cool' but I got there because of sports and because of how funny I was. Essentially i still have a lot of energy but I was just a funny hyper kid growing up, and my friends and the girls i was friends with loved me for that. I was that crazy guy that was good at sports and could make them laugh or have a crazy time at a party haha. But since I never invested time in 'getting' girls, they never looked at me that way at all. or maybe vice versa, but the point is that I only started meeting 'new' girls around grade 10 and 11 when I was 16-17. by then I actually cared about style and girls etc, so I made myself more noticeable and I did simply just grow up and become better looking, and girls started to notice. this was also the time when parties became more than just your social circle, so I would meet many new girls.



By then though I believe that I already had performance anxiety. I look back now and say to myself that I should have started caring long ago, because I feel like I've been left behind in a sense.



I'm obviously not ready to go out there and start having a bunch of sexual partners if you know what i mean. I need something more special for me I guess so that I can get around my anxiety and THEN start having sex with everyone lol. But now its like these girls that are trying to get with me aren't aware that I'm all insecure about it so they just openly come on to me, because for the large part of the type of social scene I'm in, people aren't nervous about these kinds of things.



So yeah that should explain why despite having a decent number of willing girls, it doesn't matter. In some ways I really wish they didn't wanna participate so much haha. It wasn't always like that and now that the girls are finally ready for me, I'm not ready for them if that makes sense.



And yeah, at this point if I ejaculate half a second after going in I couldn't care less lmao, I'm just trying to get the boner first :p



And no not really much foreplay. well actually a little we made out for about 10 minutes and I had my hand in her pants, then she asked if I wanted to have sex I said 'absolutely' lol, so we got naked, and then she tried to give me a bj and thats when it just did not happen haha



R
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ok so first off you have not been left behind by ANY aspect and now that you are a little "more mature" you can make smarter decisions... have you noticed the amount of posts on here from 13,14,15 year olds and wanting to have sex or haveing sex then freaking out because they are pregnate or think they might be pregnate. sex carries so many responsibilities and we need to get older to fully realize this..... so no loss there by not having sex early. i too was just not into girls like you and didnt care much about them when i was younger so you are not alone in that aspect either. now for performance. I cant say enough about foreplay. you need to get an erection before anything else. how better to do that then to do lots of foreplay. she will like the sex much more if she is good and wet and she can have multiple orgasms so most girls LOVE foreplay plus it makes it seem like you last longer that way. start off with something non threatning kissing petting fingering etc. then SLOWLY move to more sexual things.

next is there anything that you are insecure/worried about with your body/sex itself. penis size being circumcised or not circumsized, not being able to please her..... these all usually trigger sex anxiety

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I'm not that worried about being left behind. I feel like yes I have been left behind, but I don't think its that much of a problem. That's not the main issue for me. The biggest problem here is just like not being scared at parties and when meeting new girls and stuff. Like you say, foreplay is completely essential. I know it is, and its so much fun too! But my problem is that i can't even get to foreplay... I'm too scared now to even start doing anything sexual like kissing because it might lead to foreplay, and that might lead to sex. I need to somehow get a mind frame where i'm not scared of sex. Cause i know foreplay is good, but right now I just shy away from anything and everything sexual. I just go to a party and drink and hvae a good time with my buddies and I hit on girls and everything but I never make a move cause i'm too worried that it'll lead to sex, and that i won't get erect again. I'm stuck lol its so brutal. Like i said in my first post I started rugby season, and everythings going great, and already have like 3 or 4 girls that want to have sex with me but i keep rejecting them!! not cause I don't want to, they are hot. but f**k my life im too worried haha.

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hey rhyser, good to hear from you again. i hink we already determined that your issue is not physical mut mental. the fact that u are hessitant to do anything because you are afraid it will lead to sex and that you wont be able to get a boner already sets you up for failure. you are already worrying about something that hasnt even happened if you are worried then you wont be able to focus on sex and your erection will most likly go down. what if you dont go for sex only foreplay and a ha****b. have the girl jack you off till you ejaculate and likewise try fingering her to orgasm. that alone is pretty intense and satisfying.... once you have a good handel on this then move on to sex at a later date. the gole is to slowly build your self confidance up. does this make any sensen
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Hey bio, and thanks so much again for taking the time to answer these posts, i really appreciate this. What you're saying is 100% true and it makes perfect sense. To get to the sex part, I need to take baby steps. But my problem has now translated to being scared of anything sexual. So a ha****b or blowjob is just as scary as sex is for me at the moment because i still need to get a boner and I know  i'll get too nervous for that to happen. My problem is psychological and I just don't know where to even start so that I won't be scared any more. I know eventually it all comes down to actually just trying stuff out, but I can't even convince myself to try even the little things.

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your a wee bit of a penis and need to get a grip of urself like seriously!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

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hahahah trust me i know. wee is an understatement fack but thats the worst part its just for this. i've been skydiving i play competitive rugby im going to thailand this summer lol everything else is in order
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