i smoked once in a while in high school, never really got high.
smoked in college a bit, got sorta high.
this year around april-ish... started smoking a SHITLOAD.
got really high ALL the time.
everything was amazing, i had the BEST highs! i was so happy..
then in the summer, it all went downhill.
i started getting these weird feelings that every time i said something, i pissed someone off. every time i would talk, i felt like people started to hate me and think i was so weird.
then i started BUGGING OUT.
very close relatives of mine died in a horrific fiery car accident last year. i didn't deal with it too good, but i never got upset about it while i was high.. infact, it made me forget about it!
but in this past summer... all i would do was hallucinate about it, play it over and over in my head.. imagine other close relatives/friends dying in horrible ways... i'd hear their screams, i'd see it happening.. it was absolutely TERRIBLE... just torture.
then this all started happening even when i WASN'T high. i would be sober and think about it! every time someone leaves for work/school i go through every bad situation that could happen on the way there... while they're there.. on the way back.
i used to be the fun, confident life of the party... now i never talk or say anything because i feel like every little thing i do and say pisses people off or they think i'm weird.
i quit about 3 weeks ago. i've been feeling better, but not 100%.. maybe only 30%.
is this caused by the weed? or do i have PTSD from the accident happening? i can't figure it out...
smoked in college a bit, got sorta high.
this year around april-ish... started smoking a SHITLOAD.
got really high ALL the time.
everything was amazing, i had the BEST highs! i was so happy..
then in the summer, it all went downhill.
i started getting these weird feelings that every time i said something, i pissed someone off. every time i would talk, i felt like people started to hate me and think i was so weird.
then i started BUGGING OUT.
very close relatives of mine died in a horrific fiery car accident last year. i didn't deal with it too good, but i never got upset about it while i was high.. infact, it made me forget about it!
but in this past summer... all i would do was hallucinate about it, play it over and over in my head.. imagine other close relatives/friends dying in horrible ways... i'd hear their screams, i'd see it happening.. it was absolutely TERRIBLE... just torture.
then this all started happening even when i WASN'T high. i would be sober and think about it! every time someone leaves for work/school i go through every bad situation that could happen on the way there... while they're there.. on the way back.
i used to be the fun, confident life of the party... now i never talk or say anything because i feel like every little thing i do and say pisses people off or they think i'm weird.
i quit about 3 weeks ago. i've been feeling better, but not 100%.. maybe only 30%.
is this caused by the weed? or do i have PTSD from the accident happening? i can't figure it out...
Its happened to me! your not alone..when i was high i was doing this that i thought i was really doing but wasnt.like i was walking towards the door but then all of a sudden i was back where i started then in my head i was walking agaian and again then back again. i blacked out a lot too. how are u doing