Congrats on the job. That is great news, good things start to happen when you think positive. Day 7 and its way better than day 6. I feel like I'm over the hump and going to continue to push myself. My buddy stopped over a bit ago and of course he is a toker. I graciously denied and never had the will power to do so. I'm getting out of bed easier in the morning and feeling like I have way more energy.
hmm well im 21 ive been smoking weed since i was 13 and before that my parents n older siblings smoked, ive known what weed was since i was about 6 years old, Ive been to rehab twice and for some reason i always think i can go back to the weed and not touch the other drugs, well ive done that twice now and its not about the other drugs anymore it is weed that is the problem i am free of drugs and alcohol everything except weed for 7 months now but i feel weed is what gets me by my day to day life and if i didnt have weed my days would be impossible to get through. Maybe i use weed as a crutch and as soon as i quit the sudden urge for alcohol and other drugs may come back in, Idk. But i do know this I am going to quit and next time i do i will not start again i have quit blazing about 4 times once for a year and a half once for 3 months and twice for a month, the 4th being my most successfull attempt, i believe that its all about that one day, as soon as u quit that one day you suddenly get this surge of strength that it does not have as much ppower over you as previously thought everytime i get that first day after that is easy its just day one that gets me and not to mention i have already been diagnosed with ptsd, bi-polar, and anxiety and i do not know how quitting is going to effect these i may be a completely different person when i quit, i may go crazy who knows, i did lose my mind the last time i quit for about a week i was very unstable and violent so idk what this is gonna do to me but i figured i would document my journey and share where it takes me peace and love, btw im a daily smoker and smoke more than a 20bag a day thats just my financial limit i smoke more when i have more money to do so, and i dont smoke bunk its always kush
Dear Dad -
I have an addiction. I do want to quit. I do want to stop smoking pot but you obviously have no idea how difficult it is for me. My brain has been rewired and I have an addiction to marijuana. Just wanting to quit is not enough. Many people struggle with the desire to quit and try try try but often get pulled back into the smoking. You clearly have no idea how difficult my struggle is. There is a deep draw inside me, it's a very real and powerful force, it's not just about will power Dad! And from the last words you wrote here "we'll see" I'm feeling like you don't have much faith in me and not exactly feeling support. The Quantum person you quoted may have written the initial post here but where is he now? He's never been heard from again so I'm wondering where did he go with all his advice? Seemed like he really wanted to quit too and had a plan but he disappeared. Wonder if he felt supported by his family? I can sense you're disappointed and maybe even disgusted by me but like I said, you have no idea what it feels like to be me. You have no idea what harsh things I say to myself or think about myself or how I wonder why I cannot beat this evil plant. You just don't know the difficulties we 'potheads' 'burnouts' deal with.
So...
I am at work today. I have smoked the last of what i had last night, and now am thinking about what im going to do when i get home from work today. I have been smoking consistently everyday for about 6 years now and i have told myself "i am going to quit tomorrow" too many times. For me Pot seems to be a the way i cope with just living but i don't remember when living seemed so difficult.
In the last few years i have falling out with friends, family and simply not as creative or motivated. I always denied it was the pot, and always denied that it was an addiction, but i think it's clear to see now that it is affecting my mental health.
I talk negatively about myself.
I tell myself i am going to do things when i get home from work, then i have a bong and laze around doing nothing.
I spend alot of time in regret, thinking about time wasted and dreams not being pursued
I am really going to try today... not get on... not smoke. this forum really is great and a support group or chat should be set up.
Hey Everyone,
I smoke a tonne of weed and am an extremely functioning pothead, probably 2-3g's a day. I work, workout hard, socialize, no problem at all, everyone close to me thinks that weed is a good influence in my life and that i'm an exception to the rule. I literally have no visual ill effects from weed and am an advocate of sorts as I don't as a general rule care what people think of me, as long as I am happy with myself. My love for weed started when I was in university, I smoked a joint and instanly became ultra creative. I was able to see things clear, focus and deliver a great work product. I have started and sold businesses, made lots of money... you get the point.
What's the problem?? I just now, today, after alot of years concluded that i am truly addicted to it and it's such a shitty feeling, I hate that i'm not in 100% full control of my actions, I feel I absolutely need this substance. My creativity has dwindled the last few years and internally I feel the mental stimulation is slowly leaving.
Until New Years I am allowing myself a joint a night and thats it, trust me this is a mega feat for me and it scares the sh*t out of me (sad lol but true). 2013 I am not taking a single puff of Marijuana. 2014 I will decide if I want to introduce it back in my life, but for the entire year I WILL NOT SMOKE.
Good luck everyone, we aren't alone. Marijuana is an amazing substance, we all know it, the question is does it own you? It sure as hell owns me right now. 1 year to decide, I will not fail.
Im a little past 3 weeks. Feels good. Still miss smokin, but hey, it's whatever. Been eating pretty squarely now and starting to get more into working out. Prob even gonna start some weight gain shakes and whatnot since im underweight now due to years of lazy daze tokin after workin all day in an office...and getting so baked I didnt even feel like cookin a proper meal lol.
YAY 30s — I wondered! Just clearing my 2 week mark. Swear this is the longest longest 2 weeks of my life. Even had to double check the calendar as time now seems to be creepy by rather slowly. Could possibly be due to the weather and time change as well. Agree that it is whatever! Things are good for me, just trotting along. Sleep is getting better but I am not exactly 'rested' in my mind I believe things are just getting better and easier everyday. I am studying, working on websites, getting stuff done and it seems I just have LOTS of time whereas when I was smoking all day everyday I lost track of time all the time. Even went to a party last night without dragging my feet like I did in the pass. The herb was out and a free for all but totally casual not like a stoner bong fest or anything like that. It was definitely super kind bud but I was not enticed at all. That felt pretty amazing and not at all like punishment. Just doing my thing and ticking of the days! So glad we're still and gathering new folks along the way.
I'm like you in that weed motivates me. I love to work hard and the more stoned the harder i work. weed seems to also keep me from being an ahole. I'm also in great physical shape. however after smoking 24/7 for 25 years my lungs are starting to feel "hot" at night and in the mornings - so I went to the vaporizer. I burn through more weed now that ever and I've found that if i take the vaped weed, extract it with everclear and mix this into a drink i get super stoned and sleep like a baby. So why would i want to quit? well what I;ve found is that when i travel and don't have weed i go into immediate and debilitating withdraw symptoms. the worst of which is the sleeplessness and the vivid dreams that go with it. every vacation has become hell. so i plan to quit - I'm cuttting back for a month then cutting it out alltogether. What I'm looking for is some help with the sleeplessness. I quit for 6 months about 15 years ago and i was never able to get a good night's sleep even after 6 months. Are there any meds out there that can help? Does anyone have any personal experiance with this? Please help
I posted a few days ago about how i was going to quit. Unfortuanetly i caved only on day 2. Instead of buying my usual 7 grams for a week's worth of smoking, i bought only 3. So going to try cut down before i go cold turkey.
This is hard!
All you had to do was not buy any. Better luck next time!
30sucks is all about the tough love!
This sucks - GOOD LUCK. If you're thinking about it like you are I totally agree - might as well start now. Now. . . to stick to your decision!
From what I've been reading through my other support source I think I'm experiencing some side-effects or detoxing or something. I am able to get to sleep better each night & no more super Koo-koo dreams but I wake up feeling super sluggy tired and feel kind of like I've been beaten up. My arms ache. So strange. I'll be so happy when my quit is normal and I'm not counting the days, weeks, time passing. I totally have nutritional deficiencies and am waiting for some remedies to be made for me. I'm so looking forward to recouping my health.