ok so i have adhd and i drink and sometime smoke weed but i never really got high.....annd i quit too...so one day i was hanging out with my freinds and i started freaking out..out of know where i was just feeling anxious and went home it was so bad i thought i was going skitzofrenia becuz for ppl with anxoioty or w.e think their going nuts well for me when im having panic attacks i think im going skitzofrenia as for some ppl their going nuts when having anxoioty me i think im going skitzo when i have anxiowrt...so i ask my mom and dad their a decticve and a tesacher if i have it n they keep saying no...i also think im a hyprcondraic cuz everytime i wuld resaeach a symptom like someone talking to u in your head telling u to kill them all then after i would say to my self KILL THEM ALL AHH and keep ojnn saying it and put up a show for myu self idk y though but ik its not someone else its me saying that.. and ik that was weird but tht is a symptom of anxoity and like things being too bright i havethat but i am the funniest kid in my school and have a good personailty im not like unsocial i dont see things that arnt there but like i would see things at the corner of my eye and think im going dulliosnal also idk what this is i gueess its like a floater or somethign cuz i asked my freindabout this n he said yeah..its like white and goes in w.e ever direction and its c through and it looks like an ornginsm i looked it up and yahoo it showd a pic of it but just to make suyre its not dullisonal and where ver i look it gores ..it goes away in 5 sec tho n its only when im outide im just scared i have skitxofrenia and i didnt have any of these thoughts beforte i heard about these symptoms and the frase "kill them all" likeif ur sitzo would u physically hear it cuz i dont physaically hear it i do it and ik its my concous or w.e i am also particeaptating in football and other sptots so im not un social and i have tons of freinds tooo also like i would think about so,ething random and like not even notice that i was thnking it then i would be like woops there i go again and go over what i said and aslo i have this habbit of doing everything 9 times like grinding my theeth 9 times and so on cuz of my adhd meds and my tic my mom alsked her nurse at her school that i thought i had it and the nurse was like NOOO WAY HE DOES NOT HAVE IT HES A WONDERFUL KID cuz she worked at a physc senter and she said its proub anxiety cuz i act nothing like the ppl who r skitzo n would i be worring about skitzofrrenia if i had it?? im just scared like i control my self and my concoius but its weird like i would think something like for example i would be like last year i never took showers..this year i changed so much..its like my mind is foucused now..and its getting me scared and ik its not someone thinking it for me but im scared my mind goes on "auto pilot sometimes" i would be day drreaming and get out of the car and right when i opend the door to my house i would vagly rember it hahah lmao just please try to awnsder all my questions also im a male n im scared i m gunna have it when im older no one in my family had it and i took like 6 skitzofrenia tests and i never scxored about a 5 witch is u defintaly dont have it becuz over 9 is u might have it and i have 5...and its like i talk to my self in my mind (not with another person) like and sometimes things feel fake and surrel (one of the sympotoms of anxiety) and im like what if im dulisonaling all of my freinds?!?!? and the thoyught just scares me and ik its not true but please try to anser my questions
THank you ;-)
THank you ;-)
Well, good news, bad news. The good news is that's the most fascinating insight into someone else's mind I've ever had. The bad news is, you're probably going to live a long life and prosper.
So I suggest we find a useful outlet for that incredible capacity that you have, and that your teachers clearly have not bothered to recognise, to express yourself. No, I am not being sarcastic. Look at all the other posts - barely three lines 'help, I had unprotected sex, am I pregnant?' - you write a treatise, a seriously long and cogent piece about the inner workings of your mind.
You also have enough presence of mind to investigate and understand schizo-phrenia, you know you've been 'diagnosed' with adhd (which you don't have by the way - what you have is an INCREDIBLY active and fertile mind and here is a hint - THEY DON'T KNOW HOW TO DEAL WITH A BRAIN THAT WORKS AS FAST AS YOURS DOES).
Look at the length of my posts vs the posts that others right. Does that give you a clue? I'm one of you that went to a different school, in a different country, in a different time. My brain works far faster than other people's, but they call me bright. Your brain works faster and they say you have adhd. Do you know what that means - let's spell it out - Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder - do you know what that means - F**KING BORED!!!!! START TEACHING ME OR GET OUT OF MY FACE!
The good news is, not only are you not alone, but you are not misunderstood - entirely - but from the sound of it, you may not get the support you need from your school or, bless them, your parents - though they seem determined to support you, which is wonderful.
I'll give you some research to do - and if you wish to stay in contact you can message me on this site, and I will do my utmost to provide advice and counsel as to how to get the world to recognise the vast potential of your brain.
In the meantime, you obviously have access to online, so start learning an entire new world of philosophy, and finding out who else is out there - the earth is changing, and the children being born today are far faster than their parents, it's the internet generation, indeed the latest generation - facebook, myspace - is beyond even the 'early' internet generation' - brains work faster, schools are (nearly) obsolete but haven't recognised it yet.
There is only one thing you need to do, which is to put your hand on your heart, and say to yourself 'here is my god, my trust, my insight, my inspiration - in my heart, I find myself, and in my head I explore the world' - and then learn to put those two centres to good use: stop learning about how you might be wrong, and start learning about how you might be right for the world.
If you can write the post above, you can be a leader in a world that needs leader, a speaker, a model, someone to follow, because you have already expressed a huge amount in one burst of frenetic activity.
I will also tell you a story: I got into drugs to calm my mind down. I was like you - my mind exploding with ideas, frustration, desire, anxiety, how can I, why can't I, what's the answer, why doesn't the world, we could ... etc. etc. etc, and I was recognised as gifted, smart, nice, but I was frustrated, burning up with all this imagination, ideas, desires - so when at 30 my girlfriend offered me some dope, I took it and for the first time found a blessed calm, my mind switched off.
But here's the kicker, twenty years later of cigarettes, no more dope - it's boring - just raw tobacco and aspirin - and I've switched off my brain and lost that magical mystical 'explosion' of energy and imagination, so now I can remember, sometimes, what it felt like, but the magic is gone.
Your magic is exploding inside your head - we need to find a way so that you can first appreciate that your magic is a raw and powerful energy that we want to channel for your benefit, and for the world's.
So, stay cool, stay in touch, and stay out of the hands of medics and people telling you there's something wrong with you.
Prove to them that you are far more than they can imagine, by putting that energy into learning, growing - think Tarzan, and how he was a genius trapped inside a body that had never had the benefit of education, because he was lost in the jungle - you are lost in the world of the slow, and we, the few who are already quick, need to remind you of your quickness, celebrate it, and get you safely educated back up to your speed, where you belong.
Welcome to the pack. Expand and explore your mind - learn about the new age, research cognitive awareness, write more and more and more - let writing become your passion, if it gives you an outlet - and above all trust in your heart.
You can reach me here if this is helpful, but above everything, have faith in yourself - the universe is in your heart, literally.
So I suggest we find a useful outlet for that incredible capacity that you have, and that your teachers clearly have not bothered to recognise, to express yourself. No, I am not being sarcastic. Look at all the other posts - barely three lines 'help, I had unprotected sex, am I pregnant?' - you write a treatise, a seriously long and cogent piece about the inner workings of your mind.
You also have enough presence of mind to investigate and understand schizo-phrenia, you know you've been 'diagnosed' with adhd (which you don't have by the way - what you have is an INCREDIBLY active and fertile mind and here is a hint - THEY DON'T KNOW HOW TO DEAL WITH A BRAIN THAT WORKS AS FAST AS YOURS DOES).
Look at the length of my posts vs the posts that others right. Does that give you a clue? I'm one of you that went to a different school, in a different country, in a different time. My brain works far faster than other people's, but they call me bright. Your brain works faster and they say you have adhd. Do you know what that means - let's spell it out - Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder - do you know what that means - F**KING BORED!!!!! START TEACHING ME OR GET OUT OF MY FACE!
The good news is, not only are you not alone, but you are not misunderstood - entirely - but from the sound of it, you may not get the support you need from your school or, bless them, your parents - though they seem determined to support you, which is wonderful.
I'll give you some research to do - and if you wish to stay in contact you can message me on this site, and I will do my utmost to provide advice and counsel as to how to get the world to recognise the vast potential of your brain.
In the meantime, you obviously have access to online, so start learning an entire new world of philosophy, and finding out who else is out there - the earth is changing, and the children being born today are far faster than their parents, it's the internet generation, indeed the latest generation - facebook, myspace - is beyond even the 'early' internet generation' - brains work faster, schools are (nearly) obsolete but haven't recognised it yet.
There is only one thing you need to do, which is to put your hand on your heart, and say to yourself 'here is my god, my trust, my insight, my inspiration - in my heart, I find myself, and in my head I explore the world' - and then learn to put those two centres to good use: stop learning about how you might be wrong, and start learning about how you might be right for the world.
If you can write the post above, you can be a leader in a world that needs leader, a speaker, a model, someone to follow, because you have already expressed a huge amount in one burst of frenetic activity.
I will also tell you a story: I got into drugs to calm my mind down. I was like you - my mind exploding with ideas, frustration, desire, anxiety, how can I, why can't I, what's the answer, why doesn't the world, we could ... etc. etc. etc, and I was recognised as gifted, smart, nice, but I was frustrated, burning up with all this imagination, ideas, desires - so when at 30 my girlfriend offered me some dope, I took it and for the first time found a blessed calm, my mind switched off.
But here's the kicker, twenty years later of cigarettes, no more dope - it's boring - just raw tobacco and aspirin - and I've switched off my brain and lost that magical mystical 'explosion' of energy and imagination, so now I can remember, sometimes, what it felt like, but the magic is gone.
Your magic is exploding inside your head - we need to find a way so that you can first appreciate that your magic is a raw and powerful energy that we want to channel for your benefit, and for the world's.
So, stay cool, stay in touch, and stay out of the hands of medics and people telling you there's something wrong with you.
Prove to them that you are far more than they can imagine, by putting that energy into learning, growing - think Tarzan, and how he was a genius trapped inside a body that had never had the benefit of education, because he was lost in the jungle - you are lost in the world of the slow, and we, the few who are already quick, need to remind you of your quickness, celebrate it, and get you safely educated back up to your speed, where you belong.
Welcome to the pack. Expand and explore your mind - learn about the new age, research cognitive awareness, write more and more and more - let writing become your passion, if it gives you an outlet - and above all trust in your heart.
You can reach me here if this is helpful, but above everything, have faith in yourself - the universe is in your heart, literally.
Hey, try not to think about the bad. maybe turning the negative thoughts into postive thoughts will help.
I have experienced what you have, I hear voices in my head sometimes. I also see floaters, weird transparent little specs of light aren't they?
Anyway I also don't think your crazy, your brain is just in hyper mode. Maybe mediatating will help you. You can transitttion from different mindsets then.
I wonder if you have too many theta waves in your brain. These are found in creative people and fast learners. I lack theta brainwaves, so I act without thinking. I use binaural music to cure this, maybe it'll help you too. Don't know much about it, but dude stay away from theta if you ever look it up. Music with theta waves in it, helps plp to focus. Other waves are alpha and beta, don't remeber those though. Maybe it can help you.
By the way be careful with plp who want to contact you on here. alota
crazies are in this world, you may be a boy but even that doesen't keep the weirdo's away.
I have experienced what you have, I hear voices in my head sometimes. I also see floaters, weird transparent little specs of light aren't they?
Anyway I also don't think your crazy, your brain is just in hyper mode. Maybe mediatating will help you. You can transitttion from different mindsets then.
I wonder if you have too many theta waves in your brain. These are found in creative people and fast learners. I lack theta brainwaves, so I act without thinking. I use binaural music to cure this, maybe it'll help you too. Don't know much about it, but dude stay away from theta if you ever look it up. Music with theta waves in it, helps plp to focus. Other waves are alpha and beta, don't remeber those though. Maybe it can help you.
By the way be careful with plp who want to contact you on here. alota
crazies are in this world, you may be a boy but even that doesen't keep the weirdo's away.