I had brain surgery at the end of 2009 and suffer from moderate to severe headaches 24 hours a day so OF COURSE the Dr. has kept me on 6 15mg Oxy's per day and 2 20mg ER Oxy's per day. I few weeks ago I descided to stop taking the extended release because I was not getting any relief. Frustrated I went to my doctor and he suggested that I get off opiods all together and see where my pain level truely was. I imediately felt very anxious and scared of the pain that was coming my way. He prescribed me Norco 4 times a day for 10 days and I suppose to go back and see him next week. That was this past Monday. I never went and picked up that prescription. I couldnt. Im so angry that this is what my life is now. I decided to finish the Oxy's I still have by taking a half in the morning and a half in the evening. Im on day 5 of that and it has been more mentally challenging then anything at all. My anxiety is through the roof and it feels like time is moving so slow. I picked up some Tylenol and allergy medicine because of the sneezing and running nose and take Clonipin at night to sleep. Sleeping has not been an issue as of yet. Im not sure if Im through the worst part or not??? Today I started getting bathroom issues =(. I thought that was odd so late in the week but I guess my body is getting rid of the toxins. I hope I can continue to get through this. I cant say that Im not scared but the fear of what my life would be staying on opioids makes me so angry that its pushing me through every day. I take it minute by minute, hour by hour and keep telling myself I can do it. My fear now is that my tumor could not be removed from my brain because of the size and they had to put a "window" in it so the possibilities of it coming back are about 70% which means another surgery. I can't go through this again. I would rather keep the tumor and let nature take it's course. I wouldnt wish this on my worst enemy. Im so grateful for this forum. Ive read it all week and you all motivate me!!! THANK YOU!