Unprotected sex and still not pregnant O.o

I have had the same problem, never really been trying to become pregnant.. 

but have been a bit reckless in my years and after 6 years on the pill I went off it, and became pregnant at once, not planned and seeing as I was only 18 at that time, I was more or less forced to an abortion! it's been 2 years now where I haven't really bothered about contraception, still grieving and believing I wouldn't let myself into such a situation again, but realising I've had unprotected sex for about 1 year now, I am shocked I haven't gotten pregnant again and sometimes fear not being able to have another child after having let people decide for me to kill my own child. But at the same time, I am blessed and happy that the Lord sees me and helps me despite my reckless ways. And before you judge me for having unprotected sex, I am well aware of the consequences but being in grieving I was hoping for another child, yet fearing it for my circumstances had not changed! And I have come to the conclusion and realisation of my ways and I am now back on the pill. But ladies, we all fear a life without children, it is in our nature to nurture a child of our own! And being young when getting pregnant doesn't mean you wont be a good parent. I am not for it nor am I against it.. but it is important to see to the individuals health who is in that situation rather than focusing on their circumstances or what is socially acceptable.. Mothers, would you want to see your daughters being miserable for following your word on an abortion? Blaming you for what happend to their child? Have you ever considered if you were in that position when you were pregnant with your daughter(s), if someone tried to persuade you into an abortion, can u consider the pain you might cause your own child by telling them such a thing as getting rid of their own child? I know some may think that it is but a bunch of cells and nothing more..but try see it like this, if you were a gardener, or enjoy planting flowers in your garden, do u say it is but a seed? it has no life? it must have a life because of what it is planned to be, the purpose it has in your garden.. the same as with any child! it has a purpose and it is life itself.. it is not but a mere joining of cells.. it is a carefully designed life, ready to take part with its surroundings to become whatever it is designed to be, whether a rose, a tulip or a daffodil, all beautiful in its way, all purposefilled and radiant!

Think about it!