Hey everyone. I'm 14 years old boy and I think I might be bi, but I don't wanna be... sometimes. I don't know! I'm confused...
I'm a very... messed up person. I think... And. Well, here is how it goes:
When I was little i remember coming across gay porn and liking it... ok. Then when I was 13, I was really.... "excited", and I found guys online, and I met with then... and I'm sure you can guess what happened next. I liked the sex, but... I'm not sure.
I'm pretty sure I'm sexually bi... i'd to have sex with both... But I don't wanna be. And I thought I was just sexuall bi, until recently... I found that I liked this one guy... So, I thought I was bi and I didn't want to be! Him and I are now going out... And I feel a bit awkward but I know I have feelings for him. We had our first kiss and the magic flew, but I still feel weird. I don't wanna be this way. But... There's a reason why.
Ever since I can remember I was called gay and made fun of. I hated it. I would usually blow it off, but honestly, it just builds up, until I explode. I hated when people called me gay. And I still hate it now, even though it's not a usual thing that happens. This is why I have a problem with being bi. I oh so ever want to prove those people wrong. I hate people. And I wish people weren't so mean and crule.... Arggg...
So... I don't ever want to come out. Ever. My boyfriend (that feels weird saying) accepts that and he doesn't mind, and I told him that if it ever does, for him to tell me. But, I don't have the courage to come out... And I don't ever want to.
WHAT SHOULD I DO?! I'm soo confused...
I know this is bad... But. I feel, sometimes, that it's not worth it and I should just kill myself. I've never tried, but it's been a thought... Ugh... I'm not going to. I just... I don't wanna come out, but I wanna be comfortable with myself.
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I'm a very... messed up person. I think... And. Well, here is how it goes:
When I was little i remember coming across gay porn and liking it... ok. Then when I was 13, I was really.... "excited", and I found guys online, and I met with then... and I'm sure you can guess what happened next. I liked the sex, but... I'm not sure.
I'm pretty sure I'm sexually bi... i'd to have sex with both... But I don't wanna be. And I thought I was just sexuall bi, until recently... I found that I liked this one guy... So, I thought I was bi and I didn't want to be! Him and I are now going out... And I feel a bit awkward but I know I have feelings for him. We had our first kiss and the magic flew, but I still feel weird. I don't wanna be this way. But... There's a reason why.
Ever since I can remember I was called gay and made fun of. I hated it. I would usually blow it off, but honestly, it just builds up, until I explode. I hated when people called me gay. And I still hate it now, even though it's not a usual thing that happens. This is why I have a problem with being bi. I oh so ever want to prove those people wrong. I hate people. And I wish people weren't so mean and crule.... Arggg...
So... I don't ever want to come out. Ever. My boyfriend (that feels weird saying) accepts that and he doesn't mind, and I told him that if it ever does, for him to tell me. But, I don't have the courage to come out... And I don't ever want to.
WHAT SHOULD I DO?! I'm soo confused...
I know this is bad... But. I feel, sometimes, that it's not worth it and I should just kill myself. I've never tried, but it's been a thought... Ugh... I'm not going to. I just... I don't wanna come out, but I wanna be comfortable with myself.
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well... my deeply confused friend
the answer is simple yes, you are bi if people call you gay just laugh and say "you know it" they'll stop thinking your gay because u laugh at the idea
the answer is simple yes, you are bi if people call you gay just laugh and say "you know it" they'll stop thinking your gay because u laugh at the idea
I know almost exactly how you feel.
Well, I have never had a boyfriend or done anything with a guy, but the emotions the same.
I ABSOLUTELY DO NOT want to be gay/bi because of all of the criticizme ( i know I spelled that wrong)
But I already have people calling me gay, and I hate it soooo much and could kill them for it (don't take that seriously, I'm not going to)
Altough I still like a guy and want to have a boyfriend..
UGH!
Well I guess I like this girl too, so I am thinking I am bo but I don't wanna be!
I a glad that someone shares almost the same struggle with me.
If you want to hit me up on email/myspace go to
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Wishing you the best,
Aaron.
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Well, I have never had a boyfriend or done anything with a guy, but the emotions the same.
I ABSOLUTELY DO NOT want to be gay/bi because of all of the criticizme ( i know I spelled that wrong)
But I already have people calling me gay, and I hate it soooo much and could kill them for it (don't take that seriously, I'm not going to)
Altough I still like a guy and want to have a boyfriend..
UGH!
Well I guess I like this girl too, so I am thinking I am bo but I don't wanna be!
I a glad that someone shares almost the same struggle with me.
If you want to hit me up on email/myspace go to
******
Wishing you the best,
Aaron.
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You can be bi without advertising it if youre uncomfortable doing it. Just have fun with it when youre with the right people, or person. It can be a secret if you want it to be. Dont over-think it, just enjoy it. Nobody has to know except the ones that you want to know. Theres nothing wrong with it.
you shouldn't be afraid to be who you are, I'm not tryin to sound all preachy and stuff but, if you are bi, why would they even care? If hey have enough time to criticize you then why aren't they out looking for a nice boyfriend or girlfriend like the one you've prolly got now?
They aren't important enough to listen to. My mom always said 'they're only teasing you because they are jealous of you'
They aren't important enough to listen to. My mom always said 'they're only teasing you because they are jealous of you'
Yes, you don't have to tell anyone and you shouldn't care what people think. Those people are not your friends if they think anything bad about you. Also, you can't change how you feel and just have to accept it. It sound like your dating and you found someone nice. So, no need to feel depressed.