I am also recovering... I am 5'1 and 130lbs. My lowest weight during anorexia was 73lbs. I haven't had a period in 2 years. I have been recovering for 11mojths now. For the first 6 months in ate a lot, 2500-3000 calories.. Then I woke up one day, fat. My anorexia was starvation and extreme exercise. During the first 6 months I did not exercise. Then in December I joined a gym, I wanted to be a size 6 by my birthday, February 14th. I didn't lose, I actually gained, despite running 7 miles a day.All through February and March I didn't go the gym. Again I gained.I am overweight by 1 point of a centile. I've never been this heavy.I'm back at the gym, weightlifting and playing squash... Haven't ate junk food, been eating 900-1150 a day (1150 being my bmr for fat loss)Before anorexia I was: Waist:27Hips:33
During anorexia:Waist: 23Hips:!29
Now: Waist 29Hips: 36
I hate my current body.However I want to live, enjoy nights out, go the cinema. Anorexia destroyed my life. It still has, I quit my job because my UK size 10 trousers are too tight and I refuse to buy a UK size 12. My want to be skinny, anorexia wants me to be skinny but I won't allow me to destroy myself again. I wNt my friends back. After all what are a UK size 6 pants if I have nowhere to go in them or the energy to move in them??.. However I am not saying I don't want a size 6 to fit again I'm just saying diet and moderate exercise will get me there so I look fit, slim, tight and toned. Not skinny,sunken,withdrawn and alone. Anorexia is a lonely illness. She becomes your only friend and only person who understands you. That's because she wants you to die because then she has won. I won't allow her to win. Still no periods, my blood tests have came back ok and my weight keeps splurging everyday I fight the urge not to restrict again. Besides on the days I do restrict the next day I'm so bloated and weigh more? Anyone else experience this?? Xxx
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