3 days ago i smoked weed for my second time in my life and im 18. I smoked a lot and was pretty high for about 3 hours. Today i still feel like im kind of high. im not sure what im really doing and what im not. even my tongue was tingling a little. i looked it up and i guess its called DEPERSONALIZATION? i only weigh about 130 pounds and am not sure if that has something to do with it? i want to feel normal again. how long does this take?
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Hi all,
I just want to tell you guys I know how you're feeling. And I hate to give you the bad news, but this depersonalization may never go away. I smoked weed for years with no problems and then one day, bam, out of nowhere I felt unreal, detached and everything looked different and sounded different. I felt like i was on a bad acid trip and just never came down. Still to this day I have depersonalization and I'm very antisocial. I used to have terrible panic attacks that would leave me seizing in the floor. I take klonopin for my anxiety now. I'm still not normal but it is better. I have dealt with this for 7 years nearly 8 now. I have come to the conclusion that it is not going away. Give it time you will get a little better. Things will become manageable.
best of luck
I just want to tell you guys I know how you're feeling. And I hate to give you the bad news, but this depersonalization may never go away. I smoked weed for years with no problems and then one day, bam, out of nowhere I felt unreal, detached and everything looked different and sounded different. I felt like i was on a bad acid trip and just never came down. Still to this day I have depersonalization and I'm very antisocial. I used to have terrible panic attacks that would leave me seizing in the floor. I take klonopin for my anxiety now. I'm still not normal but it is better. I have dealt with this for 7 years nearly 8 now. I have come to the conclusion that it is not going away. Give it time you will get a little better. Things will become manageable.
best of luck
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i found this website by typing in my story, and i don't know what to think anymore
it used to be that when i smoked weed it brought out my fun social side, not that i was anti social but i stopped caring about what ppl thought so much and i would always think its stupid or ppl being paranoid about weed when they said how it makes them paranoid and all that sh*t because that's not how it was
this is how i went on for a while, and for the summer i smoked every day for the most part with no problems
ive had to stop for a month here or a month there due to getting caught with it but it didnt do any damage to my career or school
a few months ago though, after getting off of a 2 month weed free period i figured id try it again with one of my old friends, but it turned me antisocial and made it extremely hard for me to talk. i mean that physically in the sense that it seemed like i had to force my voice out to even make noise, and in the sense that i felt like no one would relate to what i was thinking because all i think of is deep sh*t and when i try to talk about it i would forget what i was even thinking about and ramble soon after.
i think im done smoking because for example last night i went to a party with all new people and was extremely sociable until i smoked, i was hoping it would go back to like the old days when it helped but all it did was park me on the couch with my mind blown and the frequent new friend asking if i was alright to break me out of it for a second or two. i feel like i made a really bad impression and im terrified right now because i don't feel the same as i did before last night. i feel like i don't have as much of a personality and i was much more optimistic. but i also got real screwed up last night so im gunna give it time before i come to that conclusion. long ass story i know but i wanna know if there's more ppl like me out there
it used to be that when i smoked weed it brought out my fun social side, not that i was anti social but i stopped caring about what ppl thought so much and i would always think its stupid or ppl being paranoid about weed when they said how it makes them paranoid and all that sh*t because that's not how it was
this is how i went on for a while, and for the summer i smoked every day for the most part with no problems
ive had to stop for a month here or a month there due to getting caught with it but it didnt do any damage to my career or school
a few months ago though, after getting off of a 2 month weed free period i figured id try it again with one of my old friends, but it turned me antisocial and made it extremely hard for me to talk. i mean that physically in the sense that it seemed like i had to force my voice out to even make noise, and in the sense that i felt like no one would relate to what i was thinking because all i think of is deep sh*t and when i try to talk about it i would forget what i was even thinking about and ramble soon after.
i think im done smoking because for example last night i went to a party with all new people and was extremely sociable until i smoked, i was hoping it would go back to like the old days when it helped but all it did was park me on the couch with my mind blown and the frequent new friend asking if i was alright to break me out of it for a second or two. i feel like i made a really bad impression and im terrified right now because i don't feel the same as i did before last night. i feel like i don't have as much of a personality and i was much more optimistic. but i also got real screwed up last night so im gunna give it time before i come to that conclusion. long ass story i know but i wanna know if there's more ppl like me out there
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About two years ago i was arrested with an OZ in North Carolina
when i was in the holding cell i prayed to god and said i would do anything to get out of trouble and I even promised God that i would stop smoking. I ended up being let out that night and i was never charged with anything. I never even went to court.
After about a month I began to think that maybe I was just lucky and that God didn't want me to stop smoking because he put the plant on Earth for a reason. So for the past two years I have been smoking almost everyday again. For the first few months I was fine when I smoked but after awhile I started to twitch when i smoke and get very nervous and almost not even enjoy smoking.
I almost feel like God is making me feel this way when i smoke because i shouldn't be. But my views on weed bring me back. I believe weed is not bad and that there are some good things about it. I also think that the average smoker abuses marijauna and smokes too much. I dont think weed is meant to be smoked everyday. I think it is meant to be used occasionally for celebrations or weekends. But when you are smoking multiple blunts every day you are only hurting yourself and it can really have a bad affect on you. It prevents you from being the best person you can be when you abuse weed.
So recently i have just been smoking every once in awhile. I still get the twitching but i learned that it was it happens to a lot of people when they smoke and i dont feel nervous anymore. I feel a lot healthier now and more alert. I think a lot of these problems the people on this forum would end if they would just stop smoking so much weed and realize that you don't need to get high every day. It keeps your tolerance from rising so you always get super high and you dont feel like a lazy piece of sh*t anymore. Weed is a natural plant put here on this earth for a purpose. It is perfectly fine if used in moderation.
when i was in the holding cell i prayed to god and said i would do anything to get out of trouble and I even promised God that i would stop smoking. I ended up being let out that night and i was never charged with anything. I never even went to court.
After about a month I began to think that maybe I was just lucky and that God didn't want me to stop smoking because he put the plant on Earth for a reason. So for the past two years I have been smoking almost everyday again. For the first few months I was fine when I smoked but after awhile I started to twitch when i smoke and get very nervous and almost not even enjoy smoking.
I almost feel like God is making me feel this way when i smoke because i shouldn't be. But my views on weed bring me back. I believe weed is not bad and that there are some good things about it. I also think that the average smoker abuses marijauna and smokes too much. I dont think weed is meant to be smoked everyday. I think it is meant to be used occasionally for celebrations or weekends. But when you are smoking multiple blunts every day you are only hurting yourself and it can really have a bad affect on you. It prevents you from being the best person you can be when you abuse weed.
So recently i have just been smoking every once in awhile. I still get the twitching but i learned that it was it happens to a lot of people when they smoke and i dont feel nervous anymore. I feel a lot healthier now and more alert. I think a lot of these problems the people on this forum would end if they would just stop smoking so much weed and realize that you don't need to get high every day. It keeps your tolerance from rising so you always get super high and you dont feel like a lazy piece of sh*t anymore. Weed is a natural plant put here on this earth for a purpose. It is perfectly fine if used in moderation.
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i smoked yesterday and i felt like i was going through permanent derealization or depersonalization too. i smoke often (once or twice a week) but yesterday was horrible. i couldn't sense reality from a dream, i wanted to get unhigh, and i was pretty scared. i wanted to go to a hospital because i thought that i was having a heart attack. but yeah i don't know why it happened, maybe it was because i was smoking on top of a friend's balcony and i just can't do heights or what..but i just haven't felt normal since i smoked.
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I've smoked weed on and off for several years. At some points 5 times a day. I recently started smoking again and realized that when im doing weed I become restless and anxious. Weed messes with your head. I don't care who you are. It turns you into something your not. People who say that it brings out who you are inside have no idea that the weed has messed with their heads so badly that they don't realize its the weed talking. Subconsciously, our brains develop a need for weed which makes us defend our addiction to it. Let me tell you something, I've had panic attacks and serious anxiety cuz of this sh*t. After this realization, I will never touch it again. It's messing with my relationship with my gf, and work...
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you are correct, marijuana in lower intake is not bad, but now a days the THC level has increased which gets you higher then before. This really effects people who use to smoke weed before then quit and then start back again thinking its the same old weed. Weed changes almost every day, I will like to explain about my experience. I use to smoke on and off for about 8 years. I started when i was 18 years old with one of my friend. It was the best feeling ever, i use to have munchies and the food tasted incredible. I felt i would do it all the time for the feeling, and it did last for a while. I never thought after 7 year later i would start to feel so detached and different. I decided to stop moking. Then a month later my friend was smoking while we were hanging out, so i took few puffs, i felt fine but i started feeling weird near my left part of my chest, I had a sharp pain near my chest which was near my armpit can't explain this feeling but i felt like was going to DIE. It was the worst feeling ever. I could not figure it out, i went to the hospital to find out why i was in pain but they could not help me. I continued to smoke time to time and everytime I would smoke i would have this sharp pain, I thought it was anxiety or panic attack. I decided i did not want to die, and Stopped using it completely. I use to smoke for fun, but when it started affecting me I gave it up which was difficult at first but when i had a reason I gave it up for good. For anyone that i going through tough time and want advice, I can be reached at _[removed]_ It is not hard to quit weed once you decide there are more negative then positives. Eventually it will change you into something you don't want to be, sometimes good most of the times bad. Also alot of the Negative things people are feeling is because Most of the Marijuan is Laced with something else for sure, no matter if you get it from the Cannibus clubs or from the street. I know people who supply to the clubs, so they are not neccessary giving you al THC, there are addictives which a normal person would not be able to tell. The best thing to do is just Not smoke and your healing process will begin. I am under the healing process now and i feel GREAT! Good luck to all of you, and I hope you feel much better in life as i do now. Thanks for reading...
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just letting everyone know, what you think could be the side effects of weed could in fact be anxiety or depression. recently i cut down on smoking, and have had grossly accelerated effects to my current anxiety. i plan to see a doctor and get everything straightened out. but it would be beneficial to check up on signs of anxiety and depression and make a judgment for yourself wether weed has given these problems to you
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I may not be able to guarantee that you wont' have anxiety problems forever, but I can tell you that anxiety can't kill you and yes it will get better with time.
I had never touched any drugs or barely any alcohol til last summer (I'm 18 ) but last summer I smoked weed for the first time. It was fun at first until it all finally hit me and it became the most horrible trip I ever had. I swore I thought I was going to die. My friend who's been smoking a lot more and a lot longer than I have (ironically he's only 16) told me I couldn't overdose on weed and I'd be fine in the morning. I did feel better in the morning and had no after effects. I stopped smoking for a while but then a few weeks ago I gave into temptation and smoked again. I had another bad trip and thought my heart was going to stop since it was beating so fast. And even after my high was over I had severe anxiety for the next few days. However, the one night soon after my bad high (I hadn't smoked anything since then) I had a sever panick attack and thought I was going to die. I wanted to go to the hospital but my one friend who had suffered with anxiety disorders for a few years said it might feel like I was going to die but it was going to be fine. He explained that when you have a panick attack, you breath in more oxygen than your body can handle cuz oxygen is toxic in large amounts. So when you start breathing heavier and your heart beats faster you automatially think you're going to die and something's wrong but in actuallity your body just needs to shut your mind down so that's why you pass out or faint. When you pass out, your mind stops thinking about all the possibiltys of what's going wrong and your heart rate and breathing return to normal. It's not like your heart is going to stop or you'll stop breathing after you faint. It's just your body's way of reacting to your mind's out of control rationalization.
After I was forced to deal with my anxiety without medication or the hospital, I was actually glad I didn't go. I had panicked so many times before and struggled with it for a while so it's not like I got over it so fast because it was something new to me. I just accepted that I wasnt going to die and that my mind needed to shut down for a while. I only passed out a few times before my anxiety went away almost completely. I still have moments, but they are a lot easier to handle now.
It might not work for everyone but the more you learn about your anxiety the safer you will feel.
I had never touched any drugs or barely any alcohol til last summer (I'm 18 ) but last summer I smoked weed for the first time. It was fun at first until it all finally hit me and it became the most horrible trip I ever had. I swore I thought I was going to die. My friend who's been smoking a lot more and a lot longer than I have (ironically he's only 16) told me I couldn't overdose on weed and I'd be fine in the morning. I did feel better in the morning and had no after effects. I stopped smoking for a while but then a few weeks ago I gave into temptation and smoked again. I had another bad trip and thought my heart was going to stop since it was beating so fast. And even after my high was over I had severe anxiety for the next few days. However, the one night soon after my bad high (I hadn't smoked anything since then) I had a sever panick attack and thought I was going to die. I wanted to go to the hospital but my one friend who had suffered with anxiety disorders for a few years said it might feel like I was going to die but it was going to be fine. He explained that when you have a panick attack, you breath in more oxygen than your body can handle cuz oxygen is toxic in large amounts. So when you start breathing heavier and your heart beats faster you automatially think you're going to die and something's wrong but in actuallity your body just needs to shut your mind down so that's why you pass out or faint. When you pass out, your mind stops thinking about all the possibiltys of what's going wrong and your heart rate and breathing return to normal. It's not like your heart is going to stop or you'll stop breathing after you faint. It's just your body's way of reacting to your mind's out of control rationalization.
After I was forced to deal with my anxiety without medication or the hospital, I was actually glad I didn't go. I had panicked so many times before and struggled with it for a while so it's not like I got over it so fast because it was something new to me. I just accepted that I wasnt going to die and that my mind needed to shut down for a while. I only passed out a few times before my anxiety went away almost completely. I still have moments, but they are a lot easier to handle now.
It might not work for everyone but the more you learn about your anxiety the safer you will feel.
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I am really glad to hear all the different stories that people have experienced, but have been very similar to mine. However, I feel like it is getting worse. (sorry if its gonna be long)
I used to smoke occasionally (2-3 times a weekend) in high school. I never had a bad trip or anything and was always fine the next day. However, my freshman year of college I ate weed in brownies and had a REALLY bad trip. A few weeks after that I felt really out of it, like sensitivity to light, dizzy, not able to concentrate, very anxious, etc. I went to the doctors and they said it might be anxiety so they put me on lexapro. I googled lexapro and read all the negative effects it had on some people so I just stopped on my own after about a week or two. After taking lexapro, I just dealt with the weird feelings thinking it was never going to change. It was like that for two years and I smoked about 5 times within those two years. However, this year (junior in college) I smoked with someone I didn't know and I had a massive panic attack. I felt like my heart was gonna explode and I couldnt sit still. Ever since that day, my anxiety has gotten worse. For the past month or two, I have been getting these thoughts in my head that I am either bipolar, having a brain tumor, turning pyschotic, and ESPECIALLY schizophrenic. I googled the correlations between schizophrenia and weed and a lot of people say its possible and I hope to God that I do not turn into a schizo. I am afraid that I will turn into a schizo or something even worse. I have debated on getting back on meds, but scared to do it just in case it gets worse. The worst physical symptoms that I've been feeling is I get easily irritated with my gf, I see flashes of lights, I see spots, I will think I see something in my peripheral vision (a person) and when I focus on it I realize what it really is (not a person), I get double vision, REALLY sensitive to light, dizzy, nauseous, etc. There are so many symptoms that I can't even think of them all. I am hoping for some advice. Should I go see a counselor and be put on some anxiety meds? Or should I do something else? I don't know what to do. I feel like I'm going crazy!
Sorry for the long post, but any advice would be greatly appreciated!
Thanks
I used to smoke occasionally (2-3 times a weekend) in high school. I never had a bad trip or anything and was always fine the next day. However, my freshman year of college I ate weed in brownies and had a REALLY bad trip. A few weeks after that I felt really out of it, like sensitivity to light, dizzy, not able to concentrate, very anxious, etc. I went to the doctors and they said it might be anxiety so they put me on lexapro. I googled lexapro and read all the negative effects it had on some people so I just stopped on my own after about a week or two. After taking lexapro, I just dealt with the weird feelings thinking it was never going to change. It was like that for two years and I smoked about 5 times within those two years. However, this year (junior in college) I smoked with someone I didn't know and I had a massive panic attack. I felt like my heart was gonna explode and I couldnt sit still. Ever since that day, my anxiety has gotten worse. For the past month or two, I have been getting these thoughts in my head that I am either bipolar, having a brain tumor, turning pyschotic, and ESPECIALLY schizophrenic. I googled the correlations between schizophrenia and weed and a lot of people say its possible and I hope to God that I do not turn into a schizo. I am afraid that I will turn into a schizo or something even worse. I have debated on getting back on meds, but scared to do it just in case it gets worse. The worst physical symptoms that I've been feeling is I get easily irritated with my gf, I see flashes of lights, I see spots, I will think I see something in my peripheral vision (a person) and when I focus on it I realize what it really is (not a person), I get double vision, REALLY sensitive to light, dizzy, nauseous, etc. There are so many symptoms that I can't even think of them all. I am hoping for some advice. Should I go see a counselor and be put on some anxiety meds? Or should I do something else? I don't know what to do. I feel like I'm going crazy!
Sorry for the long post, but any advice would be greatly appreciated!
Thanks
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hey guys...just a bit of advice from a guy whos been through this whole crazy ordeal.your gonna be fine.yes its true you have all had possibly the worst experience of your life.and this new "door" has opened up in your lives.i hope everyone reads this cause it is quite crucial in getting back to normal.anxiety is a strange phenomenom.the experience you all have had has triggered something in your mind that will recur again.this is not something to be scared of but merely a problem to be solved.when i had my first attack i couldnt believe what was happening to me.i thought i had slipped into some crazy dream while my heart was about to beat out of my chest.the next few weeks were torture.i went to the doctor who said i had an anxiety attack and to see a therapist which i did the next day.he was helpful and explained the depersonalization i was experiencing.this was a disturbing characteristic of what was happening to me.but anyway things gradually got worse and i fell into the researching trap that caused me to learn more about this condition than was really necessary for me.i read about people who had this for like ten years and assumed i would too(if not for the rest of my life).so one night i got really hammered and ended up completely breaking down to a friend who had no idea this was happening.the next day i was so furious with myself for being like this that i swore i would get better.i gave up councelling and decided that anything to do with anxiety no longer had a place in my life.i stopped thinking about it which gradually let me stop paying attention to my panic attacks which decreased to mere nervousness which has now left also.i had headaches chest pains heart pains lightheadedness distorted vision odd tingles and depersonalization which are all non existent to me anymore.i dont know why this has happened to all of us but all i know is i am 100% back to normal.this is my first time looking back up on this in about 6 months(its been 9 months since my first attack) .so basically a postive attitude everytime you feel an attack come on do everything you can to distract yourself.jump around and listen to loud music.it will go away.but just generally stop lookin stuff up on anything to do with anxiety...just force yourself to get back to where you were.i dont know if this will work for anybody but it did for me and i think it could work for some of you at least.oh exercise is extremely important as well.humans arent built to sit around all day!
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I relate with a lot of these symptoms, anxiety light sensitivity anti social. I used to be a really funny person in high school and now im quite the opposite, ive completely lost my sense of humor and all character. But its been this way for about 2 years , im 19 yrs old now, and I feel as if im on the edge of insanity. With no insurance or money, what would you recommend to get my life back?
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Hey guys ....
Let me tell you bout my story that happened in Oct, 2008. I've been smoking cannibis for over 2yrs(weekly), then one night I smoked with my friend(the last time I touch weed). After 20mins or so I felt a twinkly feeling around my chest so I left my car to get some fresh air (by that time I pretty high). My heart still beat faster and faster..I was going crazy..I tried to claim myself down, but it didn't help so i went to the hospital after two hrs( knowing something is really wrong). All I can say is the Doc. told me I almost had a heart attack since its beating around 140..I dont't why that night it trigger so badly since I've been smoking for two yrs straight. anyways, that is when anxiety hits me. Every days I felt my heart poundin through my chest ..its didn't go away even months. I've tried all meds. Everydays I felt like I'm dyin..in and out of the hospital and they can't find what's wrong with me(all kind of test ; ekg,echo,heart monitor..ect). I can't go outside, drive, or be at places for a long time.
Sad part is I lost in touch with some of my friend because I'm scaried to go outside and might trigger a panic attack. I was hopeless, before I gave up completely I went to an acuptuncture.....and man it help me a lots.
My Experienced -
1.Stay away from weed ( you're done)
2.If anxiety hit you..just let it be. don't fight it and calm yourself
3. Listern to Meditation musics ( it help a lots)
4. Workout ..get your body flowing again
5. Don't worry too much. It will go away soon or later.
Let me tell you bout my story that happened in Oct, 2008. I've been smoking cannibis for over 2yrs(weekly), then one night I smoked with my friend(the last time I touch weed). After 20mins or so I felt a twinkly feeling around my chest so I left my car to get some fresh air (by that time I pretty high). My heart still beat faster and faster..I was going crazy..I tried to claim myself down, but it didn't help so i went to the hospital after two hrs( knowing something is really wrong). All I can say is the Doc. told me I almost had a heart attack since its beating around 140..I dont't why that night it trigger so badly since I've been smoking for two yrs straight. anyways, that is when anxiety hits me. Every days I felt my heart poundin through my chest ..its didn't go away even months. I've tried all meds. Everydays I felt like I'm dyin..in and out of the hospital and they can't find what's wrong with me(all kind of test ; ekg,echo,heart monitor..ect). I can't go outside, drive, or be at places for a long time.
Sad part is I lost in touch with some of my friend because I'm scaried to go outside and might trigger a panic attack. I was hopeless, before I gave up completely I went to an acuptuncture.....and man it help me a lots.
My Experienced -
1.Stay away from weed ( you're done)
2.If anxiety hit you..just let it be. don't fight it and calm yourself
3. Listern to Meditation musics ( it help a lots)
4. Workout ..get your body flowing again
5. Don't worry too much. It will go away soon or later.
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I used to have the same problem, it's just the weed. When your high all the time it's hard to believe that. I used to be paranoid, depressed and sometimes suicidal when I was high. I convinced myself that smoking was helping me. I was going through alot of stuff and I felt that I needed to smoke so I can look at reality the way it was, but it was like looking at it in the mind of a paranoid schizophrenic.
I stopped smoking about 3 or 4 months ago. I feel completley back to now, but it took a while. Now I think about my life problems and actually solve them instead of beating myself up over it.
I stopped smoking about 3 or 4 months ago. I feel completley back to now, but it took a while. Now I think about my life problems and actually solve them instead of beating myself up over it.
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uh, same thing happened to me.
I'm 15 >.<.
I've smoked weed many times before the last time I've done it.
but about two months ago, I was with my friend in my shed and after a little bit of smoking, I told her to get up immediately and let me leave because I felt like something was really wrong.
As soon as I got up, It felt like my brain was bouncing everywhere in my head and I had anxiety attacks.
The feeling hasn't left since.
I'm pretty sure it's depersonalization disorder, but I'm no psyciatrist.
I'm 15 >.<.
I've smoked weed many times before the last time I've done it.
but about two months ago, I was with my friend in my shed and after a little bit of smoking, I told her to get up immediately and let me leave because I felt like something was really wrong.
As soon as I got up, It felt like my brain was bouncing everywhere in my head and I had anxiety attacks.
The feeling hasn't left since.
I'm pretty sure it's depersonalization disorder, but I'm no psyciatrist.
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