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I am 15 yearsold, i love my family, pets and etc but i want to suicide! I can't stop thinking about it, I am not afraid to,I hate myself, I read erotica, watch porn and so on I feel like a s*** but never had sex,  i have even written a few letters to my family for them to find when i am dead........Am sooooo confused what can i do?

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Don't you try to commit suicide, it's not worth it! Don't you know that your soul will automatically go to hell? God wants us to learn how to love ourselves first before we can have love for other people. Do me a favor by destroying the letters that you have written to your family. You need to set some time alone in your room to meditate and have a talk with God. Believe me when I say that prayer changes things. Read your Bible everyday/night, and ask God to remove those negative thoughts that you be having.

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have you rely just told a 15 year old boy who needs help, that of he commits suicide, that his soul will go to hell ?, your post was probably the worse advice I've seen for mental health issues yet. religion is one of the main causes for people being admitted with delusional ideas and inappropriate thought content.

my advice would seek medical advice from your family doctor. these can give you confidential advice and help in times of despair. suicide isn't the way forward, and many attempts end in fail and only make problems worse, seek help from your doctor, he can help with talking therapies or medications. don't stay in your room like the god women says, family and friends around you is the best thing for depression, it may be hard at first, but i have every confidence you will get through it.

if you don't want to go to your doctor, there are anonymous helplines out there, such as Night Line, Barnado's, and even Samaratins, give it ago

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that last post was from me if you would like a chat some time guest 

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I agree with the "guest" response. Go to a doctor, talk to a friend you can trust, speak to a school counsellor. You need help and talking to others is the best way to get that help. There are crisis lines to phone when you are feeling really suicidal. I used to feel very bad in the middle of the night and would phone the crisis line then. Don't ever believe God will give up on you, but it will hurt your family and friends a great deal if you kill yourself.
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First, do not feel ashamed or hesitate to ask or find help. What you are experiencing is actually really common. I felt this when I was 15 as well; I am now 32. I didn't find help until I was 29! I lived 15 years thinking about killing myself daily. I didn't want anyone to know so I never talked about it. I got married and had a little boy. I experience post-partum depression and there was no more hiding my illness. Your inability to stop thinking about killing yourself is a product of your illness. I know meds can help. It may take a while to find the right one but while you are doing so you get the chance to be completely honest about what you're feeling with a therapist. The thought that you are a s*** is also product of your illness. It's not true but you are being attacked by intrusive thoughts that are very negative. As for the porn... Pornography is one of the most lucrative business out there and it's not because there are only 5 people looking. More like 5 million plus. Whatever the reason you look or watch it, you are not alone. There is someone out there watching or looking too. If you can't go to your parents you can still go to your family doctor to seek help. You do not have to be specific about the erotica or the letters but tell him/her that you are thinking suicidal thoughts and that you DO NOT want them to prescribe you meds but would rather see a specialist. He/She will make a referral. I know it seems like you're alone but you're not. Nothing will ever be perfect but you can be happy again... You're so young; If I could say anything to my 15 year-old self it would be, "Stop being afraid and get help because these thoughts are not right." I wasted almost 15 years of my life in the cloud of depression and suicide and I'll never get that time back. If I knew then what I do now I would find help anyway that I could. Also a quick note: my husband teaches 7th and 8th grade middle schoolers. He has only been teaching for 6 years but he has had two past students tell him they were having suicidal thoughts. He loved that his students trusted him so much and did everything that he could to get them help. One did want her parents to know so it was especially difficult but it was possible. She is a senior in high school now but she comes in to see my husband every once in a while. Okay, I will end this novel but please, please, please know you are not alone and that these intrusive thoughts you are having are not right. They are just apart of your illness. I hope you find your help. I wish I could do more. I will follow this post so if I can do anything let me know by replying to KMSW.

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I agree with the recent post. I was suicidal at 10 or 11. I didn't even know there was such a thing as help or even hope. I had a complete mental melt down at 42 and at 65 am still struggling. One psychiatrist said it was because I waited too long to seek help. So please don't make my mistake get help know.
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Thank you for your support and advice. I think I will Take YOur advice and all the other peoples advice, I thank u for your concern....
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Dear sscanady80, YOU NEED TO READ YOUR BIBLE!!!! If you read your bible u would know that any one under the age of 21(adult) Has ENTRY to heaven. I know this and thank you for your advice about destroying my letters......Guest
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