Really uncomfy itching going on with me today. Lol , last night I went a walk and started dancing to "Jump" oh dear , I dont ven care if anyone saw me. I mean people have seen me clinging onto lamposts for dear life etc, so why not????????????????
Got a slagging off at work today. I left XD XD XD XD XD XD XD XD XD XD XD :$ :$ :$ :$ :$ :$ :$ :-P Yes, they no longer want to pay me, as its causing to much paperwork, as I buy too many clothes I was in kknots when they mwntioned it...But, I want that dress and so n.......theyre like "you cant have it" Ok, but I want it....."you xccant have it"""""NO No, I want ti" Anyway, I left laughing as its like I said to them...I forget....gi have alzheimers when it comes to my clothing issues. I seem to forget that I have 2 wardrobes full of clothing. I think I have somesort of bizaree obsession with clothes, yet when I come home , I am the first to put my pjs on, and I dont have matching tops and bottome )pjs ) wise.
Anyway, i dont know if my nerves are irritating me, but my entire body is extremly itchy. maybe he put itching powder in my bed 8-| 8-|
I feel a little too happppppppeeeeee today considering evrything thats going on. I feel like I am out of control, completely.
I had to lie to mum about my appointment tomorrow. She asked what it was for, as she wanted to get the bus over to see the girls. i had to lie-told her i was going to womans aid. Oh dear, I bought the cat dof food tooohmmm.
Anyway, Ill be thinig about you tomorrow, and at least it will be over soon, and you can recover. take care, Katy.
Got a slagging off at work today. I left XD XD XD XD XD XD XD XD XD XD XD :$ :$ :$ :$ :$ :$ :$ :-P Yes, they no longer want to pay me, as its causing to much paperwork, as I buy too many clothes I was in kknots when they mwntioned it...But, I want that dress and so n.......theyre like "you cant have it" Ok, but I want it....."you xccant have it"""""NO No, I want ti" Anyway, I left laughing as its like I said to them...I forget....gi have alzheimers when it comes to my clothing issues. I seem to forget that I have 2 wardrobes full of clothing. I think I have somesort of bizaree obsession with clothes, yet when I come home , I am the first to put my pjs on, and I dont have matching tops and bottome )pjs ) wise.
Anyway, i dont know if my nerves are irritating me, but my entire body is extremly itchy. maybe he put itching powder in my bed 8-| 8-|
I feel a little too happppppppeeeeee today considering evrything thats going on. I feel like I am out of control, completely.
I had to lie to mum about my appointment tomorrow. She asked what it was for, as she wanted to get the bus over to see the girls. i had to lie-told her i was going to womans aid. Oh dear, I bought the cat dof food tooohmmm.
Anyway, Ill be thinig about you tomorrow, and at least it will be over soon, and you can recover. take care, Katy.
Hu Katy: Depression can manifest itself in compulsive behaviour - such as buying things you can't afford or need, drinking etc. ALSO you sound like you have TOO much seratonin in your system, are you taking the right amount of Citalopram? When you go tommorrow, you tell them EVERYTHING! Even this out of control spending! As it all fits! Phone your chemists and ask if there is seratonin in any other medication you are taking, and see if there is! They SHOULD already know that, BUT if you are taking too much this will also lead to seratonin overload.
Hi dawn, thanks for your reply-you must be feeling a bit anxxious yourself.
Im not feeling well, at all, Hot and then freezing cold, ribs are stil sore, and sweating, so much Im practically ( oh nevermind) then freezing.....Totally feels like an allergy rather than a cold though. throats sore, and maybe its just worry.
Im not going with anything ..planned to say to these people, Ill just take it as it comes ( if you know what I mean).
Ive come back down from cuckoo land and argh!!! Still goggling postgrad courses, my half sister is off to do a PhD, and Im jealous!
Skin is so itchy too, I think ive reacted to something...Though Ive noticed my sinuses are much better.
Anyway....FOR TOMORROWM.....RELAX, and enjoy the attention, id send you a get well soon card....Hey , it will be over soon, so dont worry too much, and take care. I wonder if this could be due to too much serotonin-not sure though, like I said, there are pills missing so maybe Ive taken too much. i dont know..This is like the menopause.( from perceiving my mums hot flushes) Ears are sore today too...Ill be okay though, its not like Im crawling the floor. Good luck for tomorrow, and look forward to hearing from you on your recovery.
Im not feeling well, at all, Hot and then freezing cold, ribs are stil sore, and sweating, so much Im practically ( oh nevermind) then freezing.....Totally feels like an allergy rather than a cold though. throats sore, and maybe its just worry.
Im not going with anything ..planned to say to these people, Ill just take it as it comes ( if you know what I mean).
Ive come back down from cuckoo land and argh!!! Still goggling postgrad courses, my half sister is off to do a PhD, and Im jealous!
Skin is so itchy too, I think ive reacted to something...Though Ive noticed my sinuses are much better.
Anyway....FOR TOMORROWM.....RELAX, and enjoy the attention, id send you a get well soon card....Hey , it will be over soon, so dont worry too much, and take care. I wonder if this could be due to too much serotonin-not sure though, like I said, there are pills missing so maybe Ive taken too much. i dont know..This is like the menopause.( from perceiving my mums hot flushes) Ears are sore today too...Ill be okay though, its not like Im crawling the floor. Good luck for tomorrow, and look forward to hearing from you on your recovery.
Hi dawn-I just wanted to send you this
GET WELL SOON!! I hope you have an easy recovery-I know youll stilll be in hospital so, just to let you know Im thinking of you and how you must be feling. i really hope things have gone smoothly!
I managed to find the clinic today. i keep thinking about what the nurse said to me-and it was such a release to be understood by someone. I didnt fullyopen up to her, and i did burst out in tears at some points, but then like a switch managed to shrug it off. i was sweating a lot and really fidgetty-trying to keep this hidden too from my mum is hard work, but I actually think the less she knows about my drinking issues the better-shed get dissapointed in me-and that would reinforce my drink cycle, so hush hush.
Anywa, enough about me-I hope you are okay and are in good recovery-take care, and thinking about you, katy
GET WELL SOON!! I hope you have an easy recovery-I know youll stilll be in hospital so, just to let you know Im thinking of you and how you must be feling. i really hope things have gone smoothly!
I managed to find the clinic today. i keep thinking about what the nurse said to me-and it was such a release to be understood by someone. I didnt fullyopen up to her, and i did burst out in tears at some points, but then like a switch managed to shrug it off. i was sweating a lot and really fidgetty-trying to keep this hidden too from my mum is hard work, but I actually think the less she knows about my drinking issues the better-shed get dissapointed in me-and that would reinforce my drink cycle, so hush hush.
Anywa, enough about me-I hope you are okay and are in good recovery-take care, and thinking about you, katy
Hi Katy: Thankyou for the thought, I'll keep this short as I have a headache from hell! All bandaged up, black eyes and he couldn't do it all he thought it would be too much for me to handle and would increase the chances of infection. So I look like I've had a labotomy! Glad to hear you made it to the meeting, and next time you can open up a bit more when you get more comfortable with her. So I will hopefully talk to you tommorrow! Dawn
Ill be quick as i slept in.
Its great to hear from you. Are you home allready?
im not feeling great today-my children are really tired from him being on holiday and making them do so many activities. Theres no balance here.
Did they say how long you would take to heal? Do you have to go through it again o.O ?
I went to the bank yesterday ,to get bs fare home o.O someons paid so much into my account I was o.O o.O o.O o.O o.O ? ? ? ? ? ? and I am still waiting to hear why it happend. meanwhile i thought about opening another account , so I could get some money back offers, before having to pay back the mistake....He he-I am so naughty
i ate a whole meal last night, and it kkoncked me out-just so exhausted afterwards. So if my mum is around this weekend , i shall take the girls and relax there. Iam bit scared of the drugs that the nurse told me id have to take. you know theones that make you completely sick if you drink-I dont know if I am in denial still-but i dont htink iam that bad-but then if i wasnt that bad I wouldnt be worried aboutt aking them, so i must be bad( oh dear...herer comes Murphys law0. Anyway, its good to hear from you, and rest up, it must be hurting. i hope you have strong pain killers there 9 to get you through) take care of you , Katy
Its great to hear from you. Are you home allready?
im not feeling great today-my children are really tired from him being on holiday and making them do so many activities. Theres no balance here.
Did they say how long you would take to heal? Do you have to go through it again o.O ?
I went to the bank yesterday ,to get bs fare home o.O someons paid so much into my account I was o.O o.O o.O o.O o.O ? ? ? ? ? ? and I am still waiting to hear why it happend. meanwhile i thought about opening another account , so I could get some money back offers, before having to pay back the mistake....He he-I am so naughty
i ate a whole meal last night, and it kkoncked me out-just so exhausted afterwards. So if my mum is around this weekend , i shall take the girls and relax there. Iam bit scared of the drugs that the nurse told me id have to take. you know theones that make you completely sick if you drink-I dont know if I am in denial still-but i dont htink iam that bad-but then if i wasnt that bad I wouldnt be worried aboutt aking them, so i must be bad( oh dear...herer comes Murphys law0. Anyway, its good to hear from you, and rest up, it must be hurting. i hope you have strong pain killers there 9 to get you through) take care of you , Katy
Hi dawn -wierd i had a strange day today.Walked to work, which was an achievment, but whne in big opne space I started to walk to theright of me, my vision fiels is skewed to the right, as soon as I started to walk normallly I was realy dizzie...and then that set of panic, but managed ok , in the end.
Gosh-i didnt come on here to talk about me-I came to see how you are doing? You must be feeling it now!! I hope your ok.
We got cut off, phone bill and I had to repay and cost a small fortune.
The girls havent ben home since Ive been at work and I slept for 3 hours-but now feel this...whats the point? i cant do this feelings.
Even though I can laugh about my own behaviour, it scares me, yet even though it scares me, its all I really want to do, Even though that nurse suggested antabuse and Bacofenol-( I m thinking NO!!!! Im not that bad-I just need self discipline-but to be honest, I have none!)
Its funny too, someone at work remarked about my visin and got it straight away ( about peripheralls, and that really glasses dont change that, though probably do with shortsightednes) anyway, theres abit more than that though,,,I got a bit fed up when ayounger one comented on my eyes today...i mean things can literaly be right under my nose and I miss them, but others dont understand as all the thiings to my right will be rembered adn installled , so I end up having to do things to try and remeber etc, and then someone will move them 8-| Anyway, its just a small thing in my life that ive always dealt with, but when people start to notice it, I get really paranoid.
Ex and I had a huge argument last night, and I know he got a bit mean, and a bit ...in my face. The thing is, the thing that I cant deal with, is how worthless its made me feel. i thought we were right for each other at someppoint. How could I be so blind to this? and how can anyone do this to someone theyve had children with? My mum and dad, they had thousands of pounds in debt, my mum had an affair and my dad welll anyway, they had TRU E reason for it not to work. i dont feel like this way..i dont feeli like I ever did anything to make things go this pear shaped, and thats why i get really angry with him, but instead of swearing etc, i just cry..nowa and then
It does upset you a bit and I cant believe how a man can damage a woman ( vice versa) but i do look in the mirror and try and convince my self Im not so bad, depite the scars) But I cant believe Im that I am any good, but then I think Im not so bad. My hairs done in, and yeah Ive a bit of a giraffe neck and head..I think Im a bit plump, a bit too curvy but Iaint mamothly huge, though reckon i have the potential to be BIG!
Anyway, ill shut up...I didnt mean to waffle on about me again!!! So sorry, and I hope your doing ok...Let me know whne you feel abit better, and get plent of rest and keep the fluids up....not my type of fluids though ( ha ha!), take care, Katy
Gosh-i didnt come on here to talk about me-I came to see how you are doing? You must be feeling it now!! I hope your ok.
We got cut off, phone bill and I had to repay and cost a small fortune.
The girls havent ben home since Ive been at work and I slept for 3 hours-but now feel this...whats the point? i cant do this feelings.
Even though I can laugh about my own behaviour, it scares me, yet even though it scares me, its all I really want to do, Even though that nurse suggested antabuse and Bacofenol-( I m thinking NO!!!! Im not that bad-I just need self discipline-but to be honest, I have none!)
Its funny too, someone at work remarked about my visin and got it straight away ( about peripheralls, and that really glasses dont change that, though probably do with shortsightednes) anyway, theres abit more than that though,,,I got a bit fed up when ayounger one comented on my eyes today...i mean things can literaly be right under my nose and I miss them, but others dont understand as all the thiings to my right will be rembered adn installled , so I end up having to do things to try and remeber etc, and then someone will move them 8-| Anyway, its just a small thing in my life that ive always dealt with, but when people start to notice it, I get really paranoid.
Ex and I had a huge argument last night, and I know he got a bit mean, and a bit ...in my face. The thing is, the thing that I cant deal with, is how worthless its made me feel. i thought we were right for each other at someppoint. How could I be so blind to this? and how can anyone do this to someone theyve had children with? My mum and dad, they had thousands of pounds in debt, my mum had an affair and my dad welll anyway, they had TRU E reason for it not to work. i dont feel like this way..i dont feeli like I ever did anything to make things go this pear shaped, and thats why i get really angry with him, but instead of swearing etc, i just cry..nowa and then
It does upset you a bit and I cant believe how a man can damage a woman ( vice versa) but i do look in the mirror and try and convince my self Im not so bad, depite the scars) But I cant believe Im that I am any good, but then I think Im not so bad. My hairs done in, and yeah Ive a bit of a giraffe neck and head..I think Im a bit plump, a bit too curvy but Iaint mamothly huge, though reckon i have the potential to be BIG!
Anyway, ill shut up...I didnt mean to waffle on about me again!!! So sorry, and I hope your doing ok...Let me know whne you feel abit better, and get plent of rest and keep the fluids up....not my type of fluids though ( ha ha!), take care, Katy
Hi Dawn-I hope youre okay-getting better ? ? ?
Dawn- Im worried about you! Ae you ok? I hope to hear from you soon-youve done me so much good. I got some good news today regarding money matters :-D Which is good, but I am worried about all the other things that I have to deal with, like my drinking etc.
Also, Im fed up with my neighbour , he now calls me "whimpoo", instead of asbo...grrrr!!! Hes lucky he didnt get ...oh anyway,just hes about the same age as my dad...what a weirdoooo!!!!!!!
Also, Im fed up with my neighbour , he now calls me "whimpoo", instead of asbo...grrrr!!! Hes lucky he didnt get ...oh anyway,just hes about the same age as my dad...what a weirdoooo!!!!!!!
Hi Katy: sorry honey! I've been having a BAD headache and can barely focus! I have 2 black eyes and my scar goes from the top of my eyes to the top of my hairline >:( So not up to much, just look like I was in a war! So did the money turn out to be right? Just know that IF you were to use that money and it wasn't yours it's called FRAUD!!!!!! OK? So be careful with it! I really think your vision has something to do with your dizziness! As my vision is a bit wonky right now and I feel dizzy! When there's something wrong with our eyes, we can't concentrate on anything. So our eyes/brain are CONSTANTLY trying to zoom in on certain objects! Your condition makes a lot of sense to me! Also go on those pills, they are very good at stopping any need for drinking PLUS IF it comes up in the future, you can show people that you got help for it! Alsways think ahead! Anyway gotta go and lay down a bit! I will talk to you later OK! Have a good night! Dawn
awe-Dawn-Im so glad to hear from you- I was worried about you!
I know about fraud-and I worry too-as hes still here-and its difficult to prove that I am an independent-but according to him"he is going"so in order to pay the bills I have to prevent huge debt there. I was honest with these people and so forth-but because hes still hanging around , I worry. hes cut off the phone bill, so I had to pay 2 months of that yesterday.the elctricity is waiting to be paid and so is the gas-as for the rest-I havent a clue.
Im sorry to hear your in so much pain-and yes-I think I am stressed_this is the last thing I ever wanted for my children. I dont take divorce( not that we were ever married/seperation lightly ) when children are involved...Even though hes done ill things to me, and look Ive slapped him too - so Im no angel there- I never wnated this for my girls!
It was Citizens advice that told me to ring these people-so I did, and its helped, but like I say, it seems to good to be true, so I aint spending it. though he now knows how much Ive been given as we received the letters today, and hes like, pay this and pay that. Sorry but this keyboard seems to be moving in a spinning direction.
I shifted loads of dark ear wax today, I hope it helps me, but I actually think my dizziness is part of (like you say) stress symptoms.
Ex has not been in all day, and I know and I wntanted to do something with the girls, but I felt all sore-but I know its just stress-nothing more. i couldnt move of the couch , and I just slept through so many dvds.
I found an essay id written oh god 11 years ao, I did alot of studying on human behaviour myself, this one was about romantic love, and god I nearly vomited. i got 72 percent for it-it wasnt my best grade, but it was my first good grade. I did it in third yr, rember it well, Id just split up with a really nice guy and I got really upset about it. i totally thought he loved me-he used to get in my head , and just make me laugh-and then when things went sower he was there. Even when we finished , he was still there. Now , hes the one I pull out my bx so not to think all men are bad, but I find it so hard.
I wish Id never told my boyfriend of 12 years my passed. he watched me give birth, made me walk a mile after having high forceps stuck up, and then just carried on-going to the pub etcAnyway, thats all in the past, its just how can a man watch and have children and still behave this way?It will always hurt!!!
He tried to rape me on night in the hallway(ive probaly said this to you before) but I could never forgive him. he also had done worse in the past, but I was like ok, tomorrow eat lots of chocolate ( he doesnt mean it).I cant discuss this tuff with anyone, I dont htink of him as a sexual abusive person-I just couldnt do the deed. he used to state that his ex was firgid-nw I wonder -hmmm -thinking yeah-exactly how frigid? Anyway, the nurse asked if I was worried about hep C-as its spread from blod to blood. Now that shes mentioned it, I am worrying, but surely it would have come up in my previous LFTs, I dont know, I aint no doctor ( thank goodnes) Id be a total addict.Id prescribe everything..though I must state that librium did absolutely nothing for me-i made me feel dysthmic-all the time-like, theres no hope here. Anyway, kids are going away with my mum next weekend. I dont know if I should make an appointment with my gp regarding the issues of going on antabuse-as I dont really want to , I think I could do it without it.though that 2 week mark-ill be springing off to the off license. I know how I work and 2 weeks without wine , i praise myself and a bottlw would get me incredibly pissed, and so not reach for the bad hangover. i just need to do that first. Before deciding on a dettox, that at this moment in time could kil, as I am not eatin very well, -what exactly would I throw up-and hey it d be the best slimming pill I could ever take, so bring it on ha ha.Though I hate being sick, but hey I may very well just get used to it. I know what i am like and i will only do what I want when I want.
Sorry Dawn, sorry, I know your feeling incredibly unwell, youve just had your head cut and things and oh jeez wiizz i banter-stay strong honey-im so grateful to you -even hearing from you made me feel better. Chin up-you want have black eyes forever, I know Ihave had 5 black eyes this last year and I havea scar from the previous year , that also looks like Ive had a labotomoy, but hey theres cover up...Look dont get down about it-youll be ok in the end, Justrelax. i actaually wish I had black eyes at the momoent so people could see how I feel -mad eh? O do this , id like to rip my skn of my body thing-nut too scared to tell prople about that tooo. anyway, Ill stop , keep your chinm up Dawn -your a fantastic person, and its absolutley fantasic to hear form you.rest and pls only if your well enough reply to me.
I know about fraud-and I worry too-as hes still here-and its difficult to prove that I am an independent-but according to him"he is going"so in order to pay the bills I have to prevent huge debt there. I was honest with these people and so forth-but because hes still hanging around , I worry. hes cut off the phone bill, so I had to pay 2 months of that yesterday.the elctricity is waiting to be paid and so is the gas-as for the rest-I havent a clue.
Im sorry to hear your in so much pain-and yes-I think I am stressed_this is the last thing I ever wanted for my children. I dont take divorce( not that we were ever married/seperation lightly ) when children are involved...Even though hes done ill things to me, and look Ive slapped him too - so Im no angel there- I never wnated this for my girls!
It was Citizens advice that told me to ring these people-so I did, and its helped, but like I say, it seems to good to be true, so I aint spending it. though he now knows how much Ive been given as we received the letters today, and hes like, pay this and pay that. Sorry but this keyboard seems to be moving in a spinning direction.
I shifted loads of dark ear wax today, I hope it helps me, but I actually think my dizziness is part of (like you say) stress symptoms.
Ex has not been in all day, and I know and I wntanted to do something with the girls, but I felt all sore-but I know its just stress-nothing more. i couldnt move of the couch , and I just slept through so many dvds.
I found an essay id written oh god 11 years ao, I did alot of studying on human behaviour myself, this one was about romantic love, and god I nearly vomited. i got 72 percent for it-it wasnt my best grade, but it was my first good grade. I did it in third yr, rember it well, Id just split up with a really nice guy and I got really upset about it. i totally thought he loved me-he used to get in my head , and just make me laugh-and then when things went sower he was there. Even when we finished , he was still there. Now , hes the one I pull out my bx so not to think all men are bad, but I find it so hard.
I wish Id never told my boyfriend of 12 years my passed. he watched me give birth, made me walk a mile after having high forceps stuck up, and then just carried on-going to the pub etcAnyway, thats all in the past, its just how can a man watch and have children and still behave this way?It will always hurt!!!
He tried to rape me on night in the hallway(ive probaly said this to you before) but I could never forgive him. he also had done worse in the past, but I was like ok, tomorrow eat lots of chocolate ( he doesnt mean it).I cant discuss this tuff with anyone, I dont htink of him as a sexual abusive person-I just couldnt do the deed. he used to state that his ex was firgid-nw I wonder -hmmm -thinking yeah-exactly how frigid? Anyway, the nurse asked if I was worried about hep C-as its spread from blod to blood. Now that shes mentioned it, I am worrying, but surely it would have come up in my previous LFTs, I dont know, I aint no doctor ( thank goodnes) Id be a total addict.Id prescribe everything..though I must state that librium did absolutely nothing for me-i made me feel dysthmic-all the time-like, theres no hope here. Anyway, kids are going away with my mum next weekend. I dont know if I should make an appointment with my gp regarding the issues of going on antabuse-as I dont really want to , I think I could do it without it.though that 2 week mark-ill be springing off to the off license. I know how I work and 2 weeks without wine , i praise myself and a bottlw would get me incredibly pissed, and so not reach for the bad hangover. i just need to do that first. Before deciding on a dettox, that at this moment in time could kil, as I am not eatin very well, -what exactly would I throw up-and hey it d be the best slimming pill I could ever take, so bring it on ha ha.Though I hate being sick, but hey I may very well just get used to it. I know what i am like and i will only do what I want when I want.
Sorry Dawn, sorry, I know your feeling incredibly unwell, youve just had your head cut and things and oh jeez wiizz i banter-stay strong honey-im so grateful to you -even hearing from you made me feel better. Chin up-you want have black eyes forever, I know Ihave had 5 black eyes this last year and I havea scar from the previous year , that also looks like Ive had a labotomoy, but hey theres cover up...Look dont get down about it-youll be ok in the end, Justrelax. i actaually wish I had black eyes at the momoent so people could see how I feel -mad eh? O do this , id like to rip my skn of my body thing-nut too scared to tell prople about that tooo. anyway, Ill stop , keep your chinm up Dawn -your a fantastic person, and its absolutley fantasic to hear form you.rest and pls only if your well enough reply to me.
Hi Katy: Do whatever the specialist tell you too OK? If you don't it's called being "Non Compliant" And that is NOT a good thing to have on your record. Any person that has had a problem, never thinks they have a problem. I don't know if you are an alcoholic or not! I do THINK you are, because I was/am! And know that I have to be careful around drinking! It's a struggle as is anything else. That is probably why you buy dresses and clothes, it's just switching your addiction.
So he knows about the monies? Well can he get to them? I hope not! And ask them, that you have to pay for the rent, phone, lights, etc. and what happens after this? So he isn't paying for anything, but you have to use the money from them on what will be HIS place? Get to know where you stand with them finding you an apartment. Because the way I see it, IF there's one coming for you, buggar the bloody bills and let him have to pay for them. That monies is for you and the girls right? DO NOT let him get anywhere near that money Katy, he will take it all! get some advice from the counsel and citizens advice OK? Got to go, heads a pounding!
So he knows about the monies? Well can he get to them? I hope not! And ask them, that you have to pay for the rent, phone, lights, etc. and what happens after this? So he isn't paying for anything, but you have to use the money from them on what will be HIS place? Get to know where you stand with them finding you an apartment. Because the way I see it, IF there's one coming for you, buggar the bloody bills and let him have to pay for them. That monies is for you and the girls right? DO NOT let him get anywhere near that money Katy, he will take it all! get some advice from the counsel and citizens advice OK? Got to go, heads a pounding!
Hi Dawn. I hope your head is getting better! Do you feel any better yet?? Sometimes I am amazed that you can mustar up th eenergy to talk to me and it always seems to be about ME!!
Ok-he went outlast night. i did have a few glasses of wine-thinking,this will be my last , so jsut enjoy 8-| ..Today, i dont have a hangover, but my ears are realy cloggged, and my nose sore. Ok, nothing in comparison with what your going through-you must be feeling anxious about it, especially as theyve not removed all of it-did they say when theyd finish the job??? Sorry, thats sounds so clinical, mechanical-I dont mean it this way , at all?
Anyway, i slpet all of yesterday and pretty much most of last night-i dont know what to do, as I am still taking citaloprma, and in a way I think it works as I am knocked out-completely-which I like at the moment. Its just c**p when youve work the next day.
Ok, loosing the thread, but he went out last night, i went to bed at 1am....dont know why, I eneded up drinking fizzy juice and watching rubbish tv-and then yawn oh heck look at the time...so, went to bed, He came home , I dont know must have been 3am /4am, with a guy that he works beside, who then slept on the couch. i felt so angry, this riend of his also has 4 children and I dont like to think what his wife thinks of him. id be really angry if my husband didnt come home and stayed out all niht, if we were commited to each other and had 4 children-mind you, for all i know hemight have got the go ahead from her before going out. Is not just that, i dont really know this person, and I hate stargange men being in my house.
Ok, so today, Im going to get up , get showered and then take the girls out, Get them new jeans and some school clothes. then make something nice for tea.
I think he thinks ( my ex) thinks that he can get away with staying put and not doing anything. I always did calll him Mr Horizontal-and he knows it too.
What ive noticed though, is that the less you do, the less you are going to do, and then you spiral down. I always thought when someone said to me that they are feeling depresed with no real reason that they are not doing enough. i think this does apply to me. I dont htink i do enough-but then sometimes , i physically dont feel like moving :$ 8-|
Just lazy I guess.
Yes, Dawn, I think i am an alcoholic. No denyng it there. When I was in my first year, I reckon we were all alcoholics. what student isnt??? We used to drink up to 12 pints of cider and blackuraant, and the costly price of 1 pound per pint-the next day we all looked like :-P asyou could never get the blackcurrant of your face...Yuck!!! When I think about it.
Also , there used to be the more mature student, during the day sitting with their big bottles of beer You know ther really big ones..Anyway, everytime I went into the student union, Itd be Im only in for a coffee...haha.....`12 hours later rollong down sauchiheall street, and onto Byres rd , and into another pub, and then maybe onto a club, and then maybe even a trip to the 24/7 off license....god , we were MENTAL!!!All that studying bout mad people drove us round the bend??/Actually thats a lie, I dont think we even attended lectures/tutorials, we were self taught, yup by our own liquers
Im all itchy, Itchy flaky rash on joints , like heat rash.
Ok, so I think Ive told you a bit about me here. Ive tamed since those days, but I guess its time for me to face the world, not Katys world, but see it how it is. I guess it will still be seen how I perceive things though......I dont know , i think I am a bit one sided about things, but as I know I am this way , i tend to try and hear out for the other hexagonals.
Lol, at work couldnt find something whih was right in front of my nose, so placed what for, in front of other member of staff, who knows Im half blind, and she started to say "Katy, what youdong" I said"I was just testing to see if you were awake" she 8-| 8-| her eyes, put it back and then said"Katy , your quite funny , you know"Ah, well , nothing like a bit of team effort then -eh?
Anyway, ive blthered here, I hope your okay, now going to treat girls, Hope to hear from you soon, and hope you have a pain free day, take care!
Ok-he went outlast night. i did have a few glasses of wine-thinking,this will be my last , so jsut enjoy 8-| ..Today, i dont have a hangover, but my ears are realy cloggged, and my nose sore. Ok, nothing in comparison with what your going through-you must be feeling anxious about it, especially as theyve not removed all of it-did they say when theyd finish the job??? Sorry, thats sounds so clinical, mechanical-I dont mean it this way , at all?
Anyway, i slpet all of yesterday and pretty much most of last night-i dont know what to do, as I am still taking citaloprma, and in a way I think it works as I am knocked out-completely-which I like at the moment. Its just c**p when youve work the next day.
Ok, loosing the thread, but he went out last night, i went to bed at 1am....dont know why, I eneded up drinking fizzy juice and watching rubbish tv-and then yawn oh heck look at the time...so, went to bed, He came home , I dont know must have been 3am /4am, with a guy that he works beside, who then slept on the couch. i felt so angry, this riend of his also has 4 children and I dont like to think what his wife thinks of him. id be really angry if my husband didnt come home and stayed out all niht, if we were commited to each other and had 4 children-mind you, for all i know hemight have got the go ahead from her before going out. Is not just that, i dont really know this person, and I hate stargange men being in my house.
Ok, so today, Im going to get up , get showered and then take the girls out, Get them new jeans and some school clothes. then make something nice for tea.
I think he thinks ( my ex) thinks that he can get away with staying put and not doing anything. I always did calll him Mr Horizontal-and he knows it too.
What ive noticed though, is that the less you do, the less you are going to do, and then you spiral down. I always thought when someone said to me that they are feeling depresed with no real reason that they are not doing enough. i think this does apply to me. I dont htink i do enough-but then sometimes , i physically dont feel like moving :$ 8-|
Just lazy I guess.
Yes, Dawn, I think i am an alcoholic. No denyng it there. When I was in my first year, I reckon we were all alcoholics. what student isnt??? We used to drink up to 12 pints of cider and blackuraant, and the costly price of 1 pound per pint-the next day we all looked like :-P asyou could never get the blackcurrant of your face...Yuck!!! When I think about it.
Also , there used to be the more mature student, during the day sitting with their big bottles of beer You know ther really big ones..Anyway, everytime I went into the student union, Itd be Im only in for a coffee...haha.....`12 hours later rollong down sauchiheall street, and onto Byres rd , and into another pub, and then maybe onto a club, and then maybe even a trip to the 24/7 off license....god , we were MENTAL!!!All that studying bout mad people drove us round the bend??/Actually thats a lie, I dont think we even attended lectures/tutorials, we were self taught, yup by our own liquers
Im all itchy, Itchy flaky rash on joints , like heat rash.
Ok, so I think Ive told you a bit about me here. Ive tamed since those days, but I guess its time for me to face the world, not Katys world, but see it how it is. I guess it will still be seen how I perceive things though......I dont know , i think I am a bit one sided about things, but as I know I am this way , i tend to try and hear out for the other hexagonals.
Lol, at work couldnt find something whih was right in front of my nose, so placed what for, in front of other member of staff, who knows Im half blind, and she started to say "Katy, what youdong" I said"I was just testing to see if you were awake" she 8-| 8-| her eyes, put it back and then said"Katy , your quite funny , you know"Ah, well , nothing like a bit of team effort then -eh?
Anyway, ive blthered here, I hope your okay, now going to treat girls, Hope to hear from you soon, and hope you have a pain free day, take care!
Gosh-isnt if funny how children change! I went shopping with my eldest-we had a great time together. She bought some really grown up stuff, skinny jeans , a lovely white shirt , that tiee at the back and a pair of shoes.( dont mention my bank balance now!) it was a good day out.Now I am shattered and want some sleep!
Actually I just thought of something, everytime you mention to me that you drank wine, and the next day you are all itchy etc. I think you might be alergic to wine! Read these post I've found it is VERY interesting!
http://allergies.about.com/od/faq/f/alcoholallergy.htm
NOW!!! Take a look at Allergy Symptoms!!!!!!!! o.O
http://www.allergy-details.com/symptoms
Take a really good read of these Katy!!!!! THEY ARE UNREAL!!!!
Oh and STOP drinking around him, this will come back and bite you in the backside!!
Head hurts, but talking is worse than typing, thankyou for your concern! Me being on these sites, keeps my mind off of my troubles. And when you get out of this situation you will do the same! Do you know I had a dream about you a few nights ago, because we are always describing ourselves I have this picture in my mind of what you look like! Anyway you were my nurse in a hospital! HONESTLY!!! Wouldn't that be something? Be careful with the money OK hon! Just wait till you can find out what it is supposed to be used for and let them know that you have to cover what HE'S not paying!
http://allergies.about.com/od/faq/f/alcoholallergy.htm
NOW!!! Take a look at Allergy Symptoms!!!!!!!! o.O
http://www.allergy-details.com/symptoms
Take a really good read of these Katy!!!!! THEY ARE UNREAL!!!!
Oh and STOP drinking around him, this will come back and bite you in the backside!!
Head hurts, but talking is worse than typing, thankyou for your concern! Me being on these sites, keeps my mind off of my troubles. And when you get out of this situation you will do the same! Do you know I had a dream about you a few nights ago, because we are always describing ourselves I have this picture in my mind of what you look like! Anyway you were my nurse in a hospital! HONESTLY!!! Wouldn't that be something? Be careful with the money OK hon! Just wait till you can find out what it is supposed to be used for and let them know that you have to cover what HE'S not paying!