I am so sorry, I can't help with any information, only empathy. The word "burden" stood out to me, because you are so right. I only started experiencing this in the last few years. It is really horrible, and if you try to explain what you are feeling, people want to share their deja vu stories without realizing it is NOTHING like this, but much worse. There is no escape, and the lack of control over your mind is the worst, worst feeling. I so hope you find an answer, please keep pushing until you do. You aren't stupid or crazy, just suffering. I wait in trepadation of the next episode. I just wanted to tell you that you are not alone..... I wish I had the answer, for both of us.
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My episodes always start suddenly with a feeling of anxiety/impending doom, a feeling of chills in my chest and back, a rollercoaster feeling in my stomach/throat. At the same time I will experience a very intense memory of a dream that I had. For me it seems to be a similar type of dream each time and has something to do with me trying to solve some kinda puzzle, im in some futuristic landscape, theres people there that I feel like I know in my dream and it feels like "WOW I WILL NEVER FORGET THIS, THIS IS SO INTENSE I REMEMBER ALL OF THIS!". After its over it fades really fast and I can barely remember any of what I was seeing in my head. Its taken me 6 years to piece that short amount of information that happens in my head, because each time its over I cannot remember it for the life of me. I'm fully conscious and can talk and move around normally while its happening, its just a very intense feeling I have to walk off until its over.
Afterwards I feel very detached from the world around me and as though the line has been blurred between my dreams and reality. Kinda like I'm stuck in a dream world or something. Things that should feel familiar to me won't anymore, and everything feels "strange". This feel usually lasts for a few hours, the rest of the day or even a few days afterwards and for me is the worst part of all. I also get small cluster ones for a few days after I have a big one. Sometimes I can even feel them coming on like a sneeze and it doesn't fully happen if I try and focus on something else.
Since then I keep coming back to this thread because I find it reassuring to see that what I'm experiencing is real. I found it so difficult to explain to people, but every time I read everyone's experience here, it's at least 90% identical.
I'm lucky I've only been getting these episodes about once every 1 or 2 months. I've also gotten good at feeling it ahead and brushing it off. It still sucks when it happens but it's a lot more manageable than the first times.
The first time this happened, I was writing to a friend at work and was able to shift from what I was writing to what was currently happening in my head and I kept a screenshot of it. Every time it happens no I tell myself I should have a pen and paper ready to take notes as to remember these ''flashbacks'' but I literally never do. It either takes me by surprise or I manage to not let it overtake me too much (and then I'm just too shaken/automatically trying to brush off the feeling rather than trying to remember and take any notes)
I know I should see a specialist but seeing a general dr in the first place is incredibly difficult in my area
I'm hoping that moving in with someone may help since I feel like these might be related to anxiety. They also started about a year into living alone + working from home, so I'm basically always on my own, in my own head.
Feels like I’m reliving a dream but makes me feel sick..and I can’t explain what I’m remembering because I want it to go away and forget what I was reliving after it goes away
I had my third episode of this 'dream flashback' today. The first time I experienced this was about two years ago. All of a sudden I just started remembering dreams in rapid succession. During this 'remembering' time it felt like all of these dreams were inter-related somehow. The first time this happened to me I don't know how long it lasted, but it didn't seem very long. The second occurrence was more prolonged. Today I had my third experience. It was like I kept remembering, or perhaps better stated as reliving, dreams I had. I was functioning normally on the outside, but inside my head I was having this dreamlike experience...like being sucked back into the rabbit hole. After the experience I have some difficulty remembering certain things that I should remember. This gradually goes away. I was thinking dehydration had something to do with it, but not sure.