I feel like I'm not here

i feel the same too,,i am from philippines and i always ask myself if this is really the reality and always doubt the existence of things,,,maybe this is because i had a trauma when my dear friend commited a suicide and i blame myself for i had done nothing to save him,,,i really also want to cure this mental problem,,i've been experiencing this for months and like you i fail to know the answer :-|

I know the feeling...I looked up how i felt and this came up and its EXACTLY how i feel...I dont know what it is but its something i learned to live with...sometimes it almostfeels like being high...its pretty shitty feeling but at least were all alive...just pinch yourself...if it didnt hurt you would be dreaming or dead...it hurts so your awake lol....just keep telling yourself...IM FINE...and youwill get threw it (:  

I experienced this feeling for about 4 months and finally it's over.  I really do believe it comes from low potassium.  After I did blood work and found out that my potassium was low, the doctor prescribed potassium and within two weeks I came out of it.  Please have your potassium checked.

hey i just read this... the post is 4 years old, but i'm wondering how're you doing now?

Hey guys, Im 30 yrs old . I feel like i cant concentrate and like everything is "fake" is the only way i can describe it, i know everyone here is young but i just started feeling the symptoms this year. I smoke weed every single day for 15 yrs but just started feeling this way, am curious do you guys all smoke weed? Maybe its something they are spraying the stuff with? I do have quite a bit of proffesional pressure as well. It just feels so bad when it does happen, strange. Happy i found this forum. Something undocumented and "new" is happening to all of us im not buying the anxiety or low blood pressure nonsense. Hopefully we can diagnose this thing soon.

You're suffering from either Depersonalization or derealization or both. Both connected to anxiety. I have it 24/7 and have done for several years. 

I experience the same thing...except when I'm with certain people. When I'm with my bf, I feel more lucid because he's paying attention to me and I feel like I have more say in general around him. I'm not saying go and get in a relationship, but I think that having somebody that really understands you can make things better. It's hard to explain. When I'm around him, he looks into my eyes and hears what I say. I feel like I'm actually present. I feel like he really cares about what I have to say and that he takes me seriously. I don't feel that way about other people. I have a hard time with making my own decisions in general. I often look to others for advice on major emotional things and I get caught between two parties' opinions. I don't even think about what I want or what I need. I think about who is more right. When I'm with my bf, I think more about what I want for myself. I don't know if what I'm saying is relevant to anybody, but it's just how I experience it.

my name is katherine, if been experiencing this emptiness since i was a preteen, it first started out as a small feeling of disorientation with daily activities, then it abruptly progressed onto a strange feeling that followed me around every where, this feeling was one of having missing something, i would look back whenever I left a classroom or my home, with this missing sensation i began to become frustrated, i could never really understand it and i still havent understood it. After a few months with this experience, it soon began, as if gradual, i felt reality slipping through my fingertips, i lost interest in life, which is highly illogical since at the time i was only merely 13. I felt as if life were artificial, like if i didn't belong on this world or what purpose i would have in this place. I would sit pensively around my pool, deducing possible explanations, introspecting why i had such feeling. I felt so detached from reality, i would ask myself silly questions like "are our perceptions of life factual reflections of reality and or is this a joke". I never really fit in with the kids in my school, my emotions always empty. my thoughts wouldn't match with those of the children around me, my worries my fears completely distinct of those around me, i began to ask myself if the thoughts i conjured were those of a normal 13 year old, should a child of such an age feel this way? through the years that have passed i tried to artificially add in my emotions or how they should be like, another thing that perplexed me is......how these emotions changed me or maybe they were there all along i just failed to realize. then came a year where i would desire isolation, i began to grow a dislike for the company of others, i had to constantly convince my self to be more social and to enjoy life while i had it. I enjoy to be outgoing and outspoken but this feeling was so overwhelming, i hated for others to know how i truly felt so i suffered in silence, no one able to understand these truly odd experiences. I began to have vivid dreams, at this time i would be around a group of people and feel as though i wasn't actually there, i felt like i was just observing and when someone began to speak to me i would feel startled or surprised, this is not of self esteem, I've always had a high self esteem, i had no reason to feel this way, i didn't feel real. I would feel sorrowful at moments that i should have been jubilant. i would constantly lose my train of thought, and spend hours thinking to myself without the notice of time passing me by i felt as though in a dream state. it feels so refreshing to spill all of this out. as for any skeptics out there to believe that emotions are inevitable and the emotion of emptiness was probably caused by some sort of traumatic experience i would disagree, i have no reason at all to feel this way, i just do. I am so glad that this feeling has diminutively left my side for the mean time, i still feel this every so often, but its a lot less and i can actually feel whole and apart of this reality. I know this may sound completely ridiculous and illogical, but trust me experiencing something is generally a lot different from an unjustified perception concluded by nonsensical facts which people believe to explain certain feelings. You are welcome to put in your opinions, any bashful explanation is accepted, i have tried to find a multitude of these explanations to further on the knowledge of this strange and overwhelming feeling. its not depression, or melancholia......

I'm experiencing all of this pretty intensely now.. I'm 18. I don't want to sound irrational... but have any of you felt more spiritual lately? I have been, and Ive noticed a lot of changes in everyone I know too. Is a universal spiritual awakening of some kind possible here..?

i know this is yeaaaars after but just wondering how you're doing now? cause i feel the exact same

username12345, I am actually going through the same thing and I am glad that u responded because I'd like to speak to u. I'm convufsed as to what could be causing this? Do u know? Can u provide me with your email so we can chat?

I am 15, been feeling like this sense I was in 5th grade. I am now in 9th. I have been desperadoes sense then aswell. Suicide attempts a few times I wish I knew what was wrong with me me. I feel like I'm not there. I go through the the motions through the day without realizing it.

I'm 12 an I've been feeling this for a little while and I really really don't like it some one plz plz plz help

Im a 13 year old kid that feals like that ever since i was 8 and i feal like im not myself like a newborn baby i get scared and worried when it happens i dont know if its parinoya or what please help out its like im not a person

does it feal like your not yourself and you get parinod a little