I feel like I'm not here

Bro I know exactly how you feel right now. I used to love smoking weed did it every day with my mates and I was high all the time for quite a while. Once in a while i would notice perspective would look weird and different but i would always ignore it and just thought it was part of being high. Until one day I was leaving my mates house with one of my friends after we had a blaze and I remember everything looked fake and I thought I was going crazy. Everything seemed unfamiliar all my memories felt distant and I can never feel time anymoee. I started to get anxiety but I could control it but I still get it sometimes. I also got the same thought patterns as you I thought even my best friends didn't like me anymore and they were just using me or something. It all feels like I'm trapped somewhere else with no exits.

I have the same problems. It's the scariest for me when driving. I feel like my senses and reflexes are disconnected from my brain.whether there's noise or not, you hear stuff but you don't. It's almost like a war movie when a bomb explodes too close to a soldier and he's stunned. It's like you see, hear, and think but you are almost like an apparition in another detention looking at this one through a mere body's eyes. Do you have anxiety, depression, PTSD, personality disorder, or anything like that?

Hi,my daughter is suffering with these similar problems now. After scouring the web for answers I found a website that is having several people voicing what they feel, not all the same. I have just shown it to my daughter and she looked up and said 'makes sense now'. A worried mum.  ***this post is edited by moderator *** *** web addresses not allowed*** Please read our Terms of Use

Hey im also 17 and i feel the exact same way, i feel as if theres something wrong with me but i just cant put my finger on it... I hav been having anxiety lately and more so when i start to think about whats wrong. When im talking to people i feel normal but when i think about it after its almost as if i didnt even think about it the words just came out of my mouth. I feel like im in autopilot. It also helps me to take my glasses off (which i just recently started whereing more often) i also used to be an everyday marijuana smoker but hav recently quit do to these feelings. I have also had feelings of guilt lately. I hav been experiencing minor chest pains every so often but discarded it as anxiety and bad eating habits, i also feel light headed and mild pressure in my head. My mother has signed me up for therapy which starts in about 2 weeks, hopefully that witll help, ill keep u posted

Sounds a lot like depersonlization I get this to from anxiety. It's from constint thinking and not letting your brain rest from what I have learned I read some where once it's not that reality has changed at all its that our Perseption of reality has changed which is true Hopefuly this helps and hope you get to feeling better

This is exactly what I feel

Been dealing with this maybe all of my life i think its always sort of been there i think its just something you don't think about too much then when you do all go's to fuck, best thing i can say is to just feel everything in your body like your stomach feel it tense i reckon we tend to just feel then get warped in our heads, random shit like your feet being cold out of the blanket the way it feels going in a house from out side just breathe. One thing was I'm not sure if its true but i was brought up religiously but didn't think i believe or still really do but i prayed for everything and anything i could just with the thought that got knows what you are thinking too i couldn't lie... you know yourself coming from a mind set like this nothing really makes sense or you believe what you say so i hope this makes sense. just chin up keep a good attitude and just appreciate everything, night to day, the stars i can't really but i try and ill keep trying honestly they say this is hell but you have to keep going never give up I'm six months down the line many times thought about suicide, moving, quitting my job. just like make tea for your close ones help out do stuff like dishes clean your room, hoover, paint, draw something like a shed or something you could make, anything that will keep you out of your head... it has to be whats right for you, making music playlists was another thing! just like feel body sensations.. and don't over think like you won't even realise how much it happens and it always happens wether you like it or not, so accept! peace and love i hope everyone the best no ones alone you will get through this i pray that you will!

Hi I'm Neshani. I've been going through the same thing for the last 3 days. My uncle just got murdered... I found out on Tuesday night & ever since then I haven't been myself. I feel out of place. Anyways it's called depersonalization. You'll be fine though. What I do is just breathe... Not from from my chest but my stomach. Just look it up. Hope this helped ☺️

I'm a 15 year old female and I know exactly what everyone's talking about. I feel like I'm in this dream state and everything from the past is repressed in my mind but I know it's there. I just feel like I'm not mentally there. What's strange is that this happened about 7 hours after I smoked some weed with a friend. It was more than I usually smoke and I'm not a very experienced smoker. Also I've been diagnosed with ADHD, anxiety, and bipolar disorder and I had tubes put in my ears when I was 2.

What did the doctors tell you???

So did you ever get the answer to why this happens?

hi, I'm 16 and I know this is a little bit late but this same exact thing happened to me! I was fine and lived my everyday life being outgoing and happy. one time I smoked strong weed and it all went down hill from there, while I had this sudden feeling of inner panic while smoking I felt like the others were making fun of me and that my emotions were a constant drastic change between crying my eyes out thinking I'm going to die and not being able to stay still. the next morning I went out to eat with my friend(one who I smoked with) and asked her when this feeling was going to go away and said I still felt high, she laughed and said you aren't still high you'll be okay tomorrow. those inner panic feelings soon went away within a week but my very low normal anxiety turned into being so bad where I couldn't be at places for more than like an hour and I can't go to places thatre far away because I'll feel this sudden panic in me. the smoking all happened about a year ago. this feeling of not being here is something I drag alon everyday of my life. when I looked the feelings up "derealization" or "depersonalization" came up which said it would go away by itself in a little while but it hasn't yet. I'm tired of feeling like this every day of my life, I was once outgoing and talk to anyone but now I've just taken myself away from being social, feel like every day's a chore, and can't even go anywhere anymore. this is honestly the worst thing I've been through.

I'm 15 and I feel the exact same way. I've been feeling like this for a little over a year now and I don't know what it is either. I've heard of something called depersonalization and it might be that but I don't really know.

My friend is just experiencing this and says she feels that she is in a dream and questions if she is alive or dead. She is hardly sleeping and tosses and turns all night. She has just got through the trauma of breast cancer, an operation and chemo.and radiotherapy; and after a scan of the lungs this has come back clear. I think it s the shock of whats happened to her body and the after effects.

Reading this just makes me feel weird... And im having these same symptoms when this started to happen,the day before i was drunk i woke up and felt good but then another day had passed and felt wierd and i also feel like I barely woke up from a long ass coma its trippy i hate the feeling