I hate myself! I need help :(

you should think of whatg makes you sad in life and try to face it head on. once the problem is gone you will feel better and not depressed anymore. i hope this helps. Let me know how this turns out.

thanks! i kind of know why im sad and stuff. its been going on for a long time. just stuff happened that made it worse and its just a matter of telling my mom its just i don't think i can do it. and she doesnt know about a lot that goes on with me.

Well I agree with what everyone said. You need to get out whatever is bothering you one way or another. And cutting just makes things worse, believe me I know! For me music helps, and so does writing, if your into that. But talking about it also helps, better out then in, someone once told me! Secrets can eat you alive! And sometimes we need someone to help us get through hard times and support us when were feeling down.

So if your mom is there for you, and you feel comfortable telling her then do so. And like medic-dan said, if you can't tell her, then try to write it down for her to read and post it somewhere where she will find it. A wise one once told me to basically hold a family meeting, to talk about what was going on, and for them to really listen. If you all eat dinner together, then maybe that will be a good time to talk. And again like medic-dan said, tell her its important and that it can't wait. And if you don't feel like you can tell her, then keep talking about it on here for support, since you said you don't have anyone you feel comfortable talking to.

Don't give up! I will quote bambi27 here, as she says "today might suck, but tomorrow might be the best day of your life!" and also "there is light at the end of the tunnel!"

So find something or someone that can help you! Cutting, as you said, might feel right at first and help, but then your left picking yourself back up after. And it only makes you feel worse! So respect yourself enough not to hurt yourself! And find something you enjoy doing.

I hope this somewhat helped. Take Care!

You definitley need to find someone to talk to keeping it inside is doing you more harm..... I'm 28 years old and I have 2 boys and I tell them all the time if they ever wanna talk to me they can... so if you dont have anyone to talk to id be more than glad to talk to you ...nomatter when it is.... BUT PLEASE talk to someone theirs got to be atleast one person you can trust maybe a school counselor or even your mom... you might think she will flip out but she wont cause as a mother she will see the for the sickness it is ... its nothin you have did wrong ... its a sickness.. PLEASE KEEP ME POSTED.....good luck sweetie

thank you. some things i dont want to tell her because its embarrassing and stupid and it has to do with school and i really hate it at school. and the other thing i know i have to tell her its just really hard and i don't know how to tell her or what to say to her. and im scared to tell her. its just awkward and i dont really talk with my mom a lot. i just hate everything.

you are so welcome..i do understand school can be stressful...and kids are mean and cruel,it would be easy to say just ignore them but i remember school days and u cant do that..but you can NOT let them get the best of you... people that are bullies and jerks grow up to be nothin usually end up in jail... then you will have the last laugh.....to me it seems like you might have some depression issues...and if so sweetie theres medicine for that..but cuttin yourself isnt gonna solve ANYTHING that I promise you.....it only creates another problem...So maybe you and your mom could go to town together, shopping or maybe out to eat.. and you just tell her how you feel..(true it might be awkward) but shes a mom and thats her job!!!!!! Even if you think you know how shell react you dont sweetie... how old are you????? just remember as long as you talk to someone ,,,, anyone,,,, you are making a first step for help

im 13 and i still have no boobs and some girls and guys make fun of me because of it. and i just hate them. and i only have like 2 friends well 2 real friends anyway and it sucks. and i just want to be like everyone else and for them to just leave me alone. but whatever its stupid and i don't want to tell my mom that.

and i know cutting is wrong and that i shouldn't do it but i just had to. :'(

and if i tell her whats really bugging me she will be mad at me. and i dont want her to hurt and be mad at me.

honey, hey dont worry. i hate to tell you this, but ur gonna experience heartbreaks, embarrassments, and many other cruel things in ur lifetime. just think about it, school will be over soon and then summer comes, and u have ur time to think it through. i wwas just like you at ur age, except worse.. im 15 now, and i still have no boobs. imagine how i feel :-( i got made fun of suchh as in like 6-9 th grade like when someone hit me in the chest with their books and i said ow! they would say "it didnt hurt u, cuz u have no boobs.." but it actually did.. people ccould be so cruel nowadays. and u know what i dont understand?! if im such a nice person and im nice to everyone, why are they cruel back?! , yeahh i had alot of hard times in highschool and middle school. i had always had suicidal thoughts because of these people. but honey, u still arent even close to ending ur life. ur gonna go thru so many good times in ur lifetime i promise! definetly go talk to someone!! i know you wouldnt want to talk to ur mom but you know what, when u grow up and u look back at this moment, ur gonna be so thankful u talked to her and she helped u thru this. :-) also, there are gonna be more tough situations in life like choosing ur job. i wanna be a chef, but my mom wants me to be a doctor. im gonna do what i want to do, and nobody will change my opinion. its just difficult for me cuz i need a lot of motivation. to get rid of ur bad toughts, when i was ur age i kept a diary. i have about 6 oor 7 diaries. i write like everything that goes on in my lifetime! i love looking back at those. and u know what, ur lucky u at least have 2 friends <3 i only have 1 friend my age and my mom. my mother always told me u cant trust anyone but ur mom. :-) so, i know im going thru hard times in my lifetime, but im set on only one goal right now. and its a good distraction fer me. me and my only friend, Morgan, and i are going to grow up and build a house. my mom told me it was the stupidest idea in the world, and that it will never happen. but hey u know what, if i give up that meant that i didnt try. cuz u know what, nothings impossible! i will build the 3 story ouse, have 2 children w my amazing and rich husband, live in florida by the beach, and be the happiest person ever. u never know maybe i could become famous. point is, dont cut anymore, or else u will be missing out on life changing experiences. get a distraction like a reallly big goal in ur lifetime likei did, and u know what dear, i promise you will make it thru. :-)

i know. but i was raped :'( and i don't know how to tell her that :'(

i know honey but u have to be open to ur parents.. believe me i know a lot of people that have been put into these situations; u just have to let them help u. believe me i know ur scared and stuff, i would be too. but please just tell at least someone.

u do have to tell your parents hun....it might be hard but this is something you must do

i know but how? what if he finds out i told and then finds me and hurts me again? he said he would kill me if i told someone and i told him i wouldn't :'( i dont want him to hurt me again. i dont know what to do. i just dont want to even be here.

is it someone you know real well that raped you??? do u live near him ??? im just tryin to understand because if you tell your mom then she will protect you.. her and of course the cops... he has scared you and thats exactly what he wanted to do but you have to make a stand.. because if you don't there will be more people he can hurt... he needs to be lockeed away in a jail cell and left there to rott.....

no i dont know him.

exactly! once hes in jail, thats it.... u know u will be safe, because everyone close to u(mom) will protect u and ur dad and cops.. rjohnson28 is right ok? he did scare u, but u dont want that happening to other people so u have to telll somone as soon as possible.. please. its for the best %-)