I hate myself! I need help :(

but what if they cant find him and he knows i told and then finds me? like im so scared he will come to my house and i like cant sleep and i take the long way to school and keep trying to go to my friends house after school. and like you have no idea i just hate it :'( :'( :'( :'(

i know i have no idea :'( its just thats what i would do if i was put in that situation :-(

sorry i didnt mean it like that. im just having a really hard time. and i dont want my mom to be mad at me for not telling her when it happened. like how do i tell her?

hi, well i know exactly how you feel i cut too, it feels great and calming at the time but then after you are angry at yourself for cutting. I know its hard to tell people and when you finally gather the courage to talk to someone you find they just dont listen. I know how bad you must feel but find someone, anyone who will listen and pour your heart out, even if you have never spoken to this person before! You need to get your emotions out! Write a diary, keep record of any time you feel lost or angry and put of control, but also write down the times when you feel happy or hopeful and when you are feeling really awful think about picking up a pen, not a knife. Good luck!

ur mom will never be angry, hun i promise its ur mom, she'll seek help as soon as possible. please, she will not be angry ;-)