the last year has been a real rollercoaster; as studies have picked up .. my emotional side has been tested just as rigourously ... i met someone who could not love me back and i was forever depressed knowing that i could not be with her. i would spend nites sat in the dark with tears rolling down my face questioning why i was continuing my life. after 8 months of trying to move on, i found someone who made me feel just as good when im with her as the first girl i mentioned. but when im at home i still get depressed .. more and more freqeuently now that i know it isnt caused by what i initially thought it was. it might be my studies but im so confused by all the emotions running round my head, that i cant understand why.

I;ve always doubted myself .. self confidence isnt part of my personality.