It is the milk that would hjave been for your baby. I am going through the same thing right now. Everytime that it happens i cry beacuse it reminds me of what i did.
I wish i had read your post before i had my abortion. It has been 7 days of torture knowing what i have done only a week ago. I was 17 weeks and wanted to keep my baby. I am 25 years old. My boyfirend and family didnt support me, my boyfriends first response was "your getting an abortion". Then he told me he respected whatever decesion i made, yet he continously was asking "so when are you getting the abortion". The pain i fear will never leave me. It is the only regret i have had so far in life. I was a happy person a week ago. I was looking so forward to the birth of my child. In the end it was my decesion and i have no one to blame but myself. I still dont know why i did something i didnt want to do. As soon as i took the 2 pills i told the nurse i did not want to do it. She said it was too late and that my baby would suffer or have some sort of abnormality due to haven taken the pills. I have never felt more empty or sad in my life. I wake every morning hoping that it was all a dream and that i still have my baby inside of me. I wish i was not so selfish to make my decision. I would still have my little angel if i listened to that voice inside me.
Can i ask you what lead to your decesion in the end?..