I recently had an episode of psychosis for the first time due to overuse of marijuana. I was put into a mental institution for a month. I was always a very energetic, outgoing, smiley, happy person who was always on the go hanging out with friends and doing things. I cared a lot about my work ethic and I always believed I could do anything I put my mind to. I was always a bit hard on myself and thought I could being doing more. but ever since i got out of the hospital i am like completely opposite of what i have ever been. I don't really care about anything or anyone. its like i dont really feel anything. I dont feel love or anger or happiness. I don't appreciate the things people do for me. I can be with my niece and nephew and I am almost jealous of them and their age and their happiness. like i just wish i was them the whole time. I am very hesitant of everything like i wouldnt trust myself babysitting or driving. my dad tells me to move ahead ask the right questions, and the whole time im just like oh sh*t i dont know what questions to ask. i go in to work and i just touch everything so it looks like i am doing something. i dont have a set schedule for anything i do i just do. i am so confused about everything all the time. I want to blame this on celexa or something but i am really scared that this is just me being this way. help!