I think im gay but im in love with a girl!;

Guys, i posted the same thing about the same issues two years ago, if i could find them i would copy n paste them here to show you. the replies that i got were the same as the other guys have replied to you.
i could only get hard and cum to male thoughts and gay porn or male images. but would 'love' or feel good about flirting with women.........time to turn this post on its back.......I came out as gay two years ago in a dramatic nervous breakdown, it was the only way and i felt so much better after a few months after the depression and confussion and anxiety wore off. I AM NO LONGER CONFUSED. i realise we are different people but our posts and feelings are twins. GUYS! it doesnt matterif gay relationships freak u out or watching two men kiss make u gag. relationships with a man or watching to guys kiss in public still makes me feel very uncomfortable. i also see stereotypical gay guys walking around soho in london and think 'god your such a fag' or something. GUYS, i've realised that it is ALL ABOUT THE SEX. if you get hard and cum from videos n images of men and really love the thoughts of you wanking with ure str8 buddies as kids. ITS LIKELY YOU ARE GAY. this post wont convince u, they didnt convinve me two years ago but i felt so anxious and tried to reason my feelings in stupid ways. I AM GAY i get turned on by men, men f*****g, cumming, talking kissing, touching, wrestling, anything. BEING GAY IS ABOUT THE SEX. NOT THE RELATIONSHIP. its the most primal side of us that defines us. but being gay doesnt have to define you if u dont let it. GUYS, dont become suicidal and anxious beyong belief, talk to a thereapist or let it come out.

u can be a closet case for only so long. your time will come

I need some advise. This has been a hassle trying to deal with. All of my life Ive known that girls have attracted me. Growing up at a young age I remember being obsessed with boobs. It started early and remained that way until I was 18 about to be 19. I would daydream about girls, I liked girls and made moves. Till this day that is what I still believe.

This is the problem though.

All of a sudden I had a bad trip on weed and vyvanse. and then it was like "holy f**k im gay." I thought everyone around thought that I was in mad denial about my sexuality. MY confidence instantly shot. My way of thinking even my style in music change. I hate to sound like im trying to conform so bad but I dont want people thinking Im gay. This did not excite me. In fact I blame it to be the main reason my anxiety peaks. I dont have panic attacks but if anything gay related is in my presence my anxiety peaks. Today I hung out with 2 of my friends, and after actually listening I noticed they were laughing TO each other a lot about gay related slurrs. I felt left out after I realized that they could possibly be laughing at me and my mannerisms or something.

Here's what really f**ks with my head. Growing up I saw no social boundaries. I would say that I have close guy friends that I love to death but I have never felt any sexual drive for that, strictly woman. But me and my friend would gang up on my other friend and tickle him till he cries. Ive never intentionally fantasized about gay sex or anything It has always been women. When im turned on I would wish that I could choose any girl to f**k right then and there. like my personal f**k buddy. With all of this said. Can somebody shed some light on this. I forgot to mention that I feel oblivious to this way of thinking when I'm not high. Only when Im high I think this way. But it feels to real to deny. To many coincidences. Should I trust my gut at this point?

We are in the 21st century, being gay isn't as big of a deal as it used to be. Just think to yourself why you don't want to be gay. I used to think I didn't want to because I would be weird. Once I got over that I didn't want to because I couldn't have kids, but realized I can adopt (and I am adopted as well). Then I thought there would be no place for me to live comfortably, then I researched San Francisco. There are solutions to all your problems and if you're attracted to men why not just follow your heart. Don't think of it as gay or straight or bi, think of it as falling for another individual, and if she or he likes you back just go for it!

What u say is truly it!!!! W was Married for 40 years, wifepassed away 4 yrs ago......Have alway felt gay...knowi it...socieity ruled...I stumbled on this web site..why I don' t know...have experienced men and loved it!!! I LOVE MEN....CAN U HELP?

I had sex with man and i took it hard and loved it but cood never be wi him bicurious must be love sex with girls , trannies for me

what is it about being gay that really puts you off? its really not that bad- the only downside to my point of view is kidz but im 13 and dont yet need to worry about that- you'll be accepted if your gay and all you need to do is accept yourself. im in love with my female best friend but only in a friend way- we have been friends for 8 years and are now having an imaginary baby (as a little joke) if you are seriously in love with your friend then you could be bi or even bicurious either way then- i dont see a problem XD hope i have helped XD

Im 13 and I have the same problem. Im a christian, and gay sex is against the word of the bible. I masturbate regulary to gay porn, and I cant stop. I think the longest time ive gone without masturbating to gay porn is about two days. I have a girlfriend, and we love eachother. I want to mary her someday but I feel strangly attracted to men. Ive told my best friends, my parents, a guy I liked AND my girlfriend I was gay, but I dont think I am.... My addiction to masturbation is so uncontrolable that I even did it on christmas eve in the middle of the night. Someonee pls help!

Mmmh..im a girl of almost 15 im catholic/christian : i dont believe liking gay porn makes you gay! hell i like yaoi and yuri! really alot of straight men(women :D) like gay porn without being gay! actually theres gays who hate gay porn! plus from what you stated it doesn't seem you are gay! ...its normal to be confused at this period of our lives..we try to find our real selves.....i think you should try to understand mre about you and to not fear it...accept your true identity..liking gay stuff or being cudly with a guy or kissing a guy ect doesn't make you gay! unles you actually want to have a consual sexual relationship with one...but even that can be just discovering....also even if are ..at the end of the day if you still are romantically in love with her....than you are! love is love c:!your likings have nothing to do with sincere pure love and sexual desires towards her right? :D haha! we can fall in love with anyone! i can fall for a gay guy maybe too or a transgendered you never know! romance is tricky!

you not a gay..you just edicted to gay porn...you not a gay unless you have done sex with a men..
don't worry...just stop watching any gay porn..or maybe stop watching any porn for a moment...

Sounds like you have a case of the Fanboy. It's like a fangirl, but your a boy. A fanboy(girl) likes to watch/read/write stuff that is not in their own sexuallity. So yeah... And also you could be just Bisexual.