When I was young, My brother and I were best friends. Growing up with him around was always fun but we were never really close. Sometimes I go to my friends houses and see the close relationships that they have with their older siblings and all the fun they have, and it seems to really hurt me. My brother is 17 and a Junior, I am 15 and a Sophmore. I noticed a change in the way my broter treated me when I was in 7th grade. I was constantly being yelled at by him if i made a mess, or did something he disagreed with. I wasn't old enough to understand just yet , But once I was in 8th grade I knew. Ive been threatened , called names , and verbally abused by him for years now. I have told my parents over and over how much this affectes me , but they say i'll be fine and to accept his issues. They refuse to take him to a doctor for his excessive anger, OCD, and loneliness. He stays in every weekend and cleans, He fights with my family constantly , and he is just so different from how he used to be. Im very confused as to what hes going through, because we never really opened up to each other. I really need help. Im sick of being called a s***, lesbian, fat, stupid, worthless, an every other name as i get home from school. He seems so lonely, and it real makes me sad. I don't know what to do anymore because my parents don't believe in medication and getting help. I really just need some help, please. I miss my brother. I haven't hugged him in 3 years( yes , Ive counted the days) , we got in a fight recently and he called me a b***h , he told me that he is done with this family, and that he is worthless. He ran away and my parents didn't do anything. he did come back, but won't look at me or talk to me. I hit him out of reflex when we got into a fight and i cant cope with it anymore. Sometimes I sit in my room with the greatest anxiety that he will do something to himself or to my family. I lock my doors sometimes when I go to bed , just out of fear. I miss him so much, I know truly that he is a great person, I want him back so much. I want my families love and happiness back, too.
Sometimestalking, using words is too intense for someone like your brother. If you haven't already, try writing him a letter.
Tell some of what you wrote here.
That you miss him, that you miss hugging him, and what a really special person you think he is. I know it's so hard not to react when a loved one verbally assalts you.
But when e does , don't engage him, don't let ur self get sucked into his drama.
How much do urparent know about OCD and anger. If they've not read about mental illness check out or purchase some books for them.
If nothing else will they pay for you to get therapy to help you learn how to deal with his outburst.
Ypundont have to tell them that's why you r going, make up a reason.
Good luck, you sound like a great sister, you need to work on you, doesn't matter whether u r gay or not, but if you r overweight you need to earn how to get healthy. Start going for walks, it's a GREAT time to think, get u away from the drama in ur home, and ur getting exerts ice too. Stay away fromall cheese dairy products, learn how big a serving size of foOD is, by reading the labels.
Take care of YOU FIRST!