Hello there to all that are pretty much going through the same thing. I am an oxy abuser. I started snorting it w/ my boyfriend in mid 06. Behind his back I sarted doing it myself. So he didnt know how much I was realy doing. I got strong and sick of it and moved (left him) in Jan 08. I moved back ot my home town and got into a methadone program. I was able to kick it with the program... it took me 4 months to do it... BUT I DID IT!!!!!!!! it was the best thing ever!!! I was sooo happy that I didnt have to wake up EVERY DAY making sure I had my fix to survive the day. So i was clean as of July 08. I went 6 months not knowing who to get it from, where to get it from. Then all of the sudden my stupid ass got a wild hair and asked one of my friends and OMG they knew where to get it. sh*t! Why did I have to do that? I got hooked again. I got back with my boyfried that I left before and now we are both doing it AGAIIN!!! I have been wanting ot quit ever since I started again and kept thinking that one more wont make that big of a difference. Boy was I wrong. Now I just took a methadone pill to get me through the day needing to get up to go to school because I need to go take care of some things before the semester starts on Mon. and I am going to be out of pills. I have enough money to be able to buy 3 more 80's of oxy and then I am in doom town. I'm mostly tripping over this because I have to start school on Monday ( its Fri) and I start a new job on the following Mon. AND I DONT KNOW WHAT THE HELL IM GOING TO DO!!! The ONLY reason I want ot go get the last 3 oxys is because if I dont go to school and petition for my classes then I dont go to school. and I recently moved in with a friend to help me get my life back in order and get back into school. shes helping me sooo much and has NO IDEA about my addiction. If I came clean and told her ... without a doubt, she and her husband would kick me out!! I know going to get these 3 pills is stupid and really wont make that big of a difference... but to me if i can get tpo school to ensure I have my classes and then email the teachers and tell them I have food poisoning or some thing then I will be able to deal with the wd's for the week and start fresh the next week. well, maybe not so fresh but past the worst of it. This time I dont have methadone to help me and I have to do it cold turkey!! Im such an id**t!! Im not a strong person either. I am afraid that I will freak out...
So i gues I will keep watching movies and reading these blogs to get me throuh this. I did it before I can do it again. I still had wd's when i stopped the methadone but it wasnt really that bad. I had cold chills for about a month or so and had a hard time sleeping for a loooong time but that could have been due to my car accident that i was in. I am going to try all these thigs everyone says to and hopefully it works, or helps atleast. Thanks for posting your stories and words of wisdom. Pull through and fight fight fight!!!!!
Thanks for listening,
SS
So i gues I will keep watching movies and reading these blogs to get me throuh this. I did it before I can do it again. I still had wd's when i stopped the methadone but it wasnt really that bad. I had cold chills for about a month or so and had a hard time sleeping for a loooong time but that could have been due to my car accident that i was in. I am going to try all these thigs everyone says to and hopefully it works, or helps atleast. Thanks for posting your stories and words of wisdom. Pull through and fight fight fight!!!!!
Thanks for listening,
SS
HI SS! Thanks so much for sharing your story! I am glad to hear that you were able to kick the habit and i think that your case is a good one that people can study if they want to quit. Do you have any tips or tricks or anything to share? I think that would be great to hear.
Working poor.No insurance, and hurt my back 4 years ago.My insurance was taken away from me even though it was part of my divorce agreement. I have had to buy oxys from a friend and realize I am addicted with no end in site.I tried to quit but was so sick I could not work or sleep.my back hurts more every time I have tried to clean my body of this very addictive drug.I am an addict and in this by myself.My family has no clue and dont have any means for help.I dont qualify for any assistance.But I am the working poor without dependents so that kills me for any assistance. I have read material that would rid my body of this but again with no insurance I have no chance.