Hi ,

I need a suggestion in my life , I am not able to take proper stand on this issue and not  able to discuss anything with my family or friends . 

I am from very conservative family and never used to talk much to any boys in my class except one  and I liked him a lot  but he don't even know anything about it .  I used to be his good  friend during my college time and nothing more than that to him  , he was my good friend for 4 years  . He used to love one girl and they have broke up there relationship due to some issue and he was in depression at that time I did not help him in any angle thinking about my reputation and family. my family they never liked me to talk with boys .after my college I moved to Bangalore and we are in touch for few days . One fine day I had a fight with him because he did not inform me that he is leaving to u.s.a . In chat he texted me that because of me his relationship with his lover was broken . Because I told my friend and family about his love story . Yes I told to my mom generally and  she has nothing to do with there love story and friend I  didn't say . he has given me a wonderful option saying that I can block him from all social networking sites and he only blocked me immediately .  Its been 2 years I have not contacted him .

 

Yes mistake is from my end I did not even support him as a friend . I want to say sorry and what all I felt for him and mainly I am not the reason for there break up .I am not expecting him to be back in my life I know it's not possible .Daily I  think about only one person that is he he is still In my thoughts , his birthday is next month I want to buy a gift with a sorry letter and send to him with out knowing who I am. I just want to know that he is happy in his life . 

Not expecting anything for Him , I deserve this pain .is it right to send a letter and gift ???

I am I right now ??