Hello,
I get truly emotional when i read the posts in this place. My addiction to cannabis is truly the most challenging part of my life. Here´s my story;
I´m a 28 year old female (living in europe) who has smoked pot daily since i was 17 . The first time i quit i was 22 and it was because i got locked up for dealing. It really wast the worst experience to get clean, for the first time, in a jailcell not knowing when i would get out or what would happen to me. I remember not sleeping for days, and throwing up on the floor, anxietey...
What a wake up call...
A year later i got off the hook and couldnt stay away from the weed. I managed to get a shitty job and to get my high school degree. I lost the shitty job bc a co worker ratted me out to my boss. Arround this time i also managed to get addicted to cocaine. A drug i´d used occasionally before but never gotten hooked on. This time i didn´t sleep for 6 months.I quit coke but still couldn´t quit the weed.
By this time in my life i had lost all of my friends and i mean ALL off them, witch is completely weird and embarrising. i still don´t understand why really...
Well since my grades were really good i managed to get into a hard -to get- into- college and now i don´t wan´t to waste this awesome oppurtunity to accomplish something. Everybody in my class are really together and i feel like a wreck in comparison. I´m getting paranoid my classmates suspect somethings not right with me. I find myself mumbling and not being able to get my sentences straight sometimes. I know it´s bc of the smoking.
I smoke so much that i can only go 3-4 hours without starting to feel "bad", and thats after having too large jays in the morning. If we have a long day at school i have to sneak of and smoke and if i can´t get away from my classmates i get really irritated while trying to keep my cool on the surface. Anyone else live like this?
I know if i run out of weed or money i´ll probably ditch school because of withdrawl. And money is getting scarce...
I need to stop before i loose my life completely.
I get truly emotional when i read the posts in this place. My addiction to cannabis is truly the most challenging part of my life. Here´s my story;
I´m a 28 year old female (living in europe) who has smoked pot daily since i was 17 . The first time i quit i was 22 and it was because i got locked up for dealing. It really wast the worst experience to get clean, for the first time, in a jailcell not knowing when i would get out or what would happen to me. I remember not sleeping for days, and throwing up on the floor, anxietey...
What a wake up call...
A year later i got off the hook and couldnt stay away from the weed. I managed to get a shitty job and to get my high school degree. I lost the shitty job bc a co worker ratted me out to my boss. Arround this time i also managed to get addicted to cocaine. A drug i´d used occasionally before but never gotten hooked on. This time i didn´t sleep for 6 months.I quit coke but still couldn´t quit the weed.
By this time in my life i had lost all of my friends and i mean ALL off them, witch is completely weird and embarrising. i still don´t understand why really...
Well since my grades were really good i managed to get into a hard -to get- into- college and now i don´t wan´t to waste this awesome oppurtunity to accomplish something. Everybody in my class are really together and i feel like a wreck in comparison. I´m getting paranoid my classmates suspect somethings not right with me. I find myself mumbling and not being able to get my sentences straight sometimes. I know it´s bc of the smoking.
I smoke so much that i can only go 3-4 hours without starting to feel "bad", and thats after having too large jays in the morning. If we have a long day at school i have to sneak of and smoke and if i can´t get away from my classmates i get really irritated while trying to keep my cool on the surface. Anyone else live like this?
I know if i run out of weed or money i´ll probably ditch school because of withdrawl. And money is getting scarce...
I need to stop before i loose my life completely.