My life is really going down path. I almost can feel slips through my fingers. I am not able to do anything not even go out. I lost my job, my family is confused and frankly I dont know what to do. I am here because I thought that I may find some answers and advices. If you have one please share them with me.
Oh, woman you are very, very deep in trouble. As I suppose you know that you cant fix everything immediately. But in time everything would be better. You have to wish things to be better and to use all your strength for that. Find things that are easier to be fixed and make it better. These things will help you with yours self esteem. I wish you all the good things in the world.
You might want to consider talking to your doctor about options for treating depression, as to me it sounds as though that is what you have. Assuming you are physically able, you may want to try taking up an art, or a new form of exercise--I've always found that I feel my best when I'm dancing, although I'm miiiiiiles away from looking like one. There's an concept that finding meaning in one's life allows them to feel better--and many people find meaning in themselves through their job, family, talents... I would think augmenting what's important to you would strengthen your spirits, so to speak.