Ugh, that's quite a feat! I wish you a lot of luck though. You will do well quitting. After three months, you'll be compeltely in the clear. Just be careful. Since the two behaviors are the same in your head, if you do one again, you'll end up doing both again. I really applaud your efforts though. I know you are gonna do great!
I just finished reading this thread.
At points I was on the verge of tears.. I now feel enlightened. I had no idea that others had the same side effects as I do.
I stopped smoking 8 months ago. I havent so much as picked up a pack of cigs since then. 3 days after stopping, I had a piece of nicotine gum and nothing at all since.
I was hypnotized to stop. I was very driven to stop, my stepfather was diagnosed with lung cancer a month prior. He unfortunately died exactly one month after I stopped smoking.
I smoked a pack a day for 21 years. I am 38 now.
I will give you folks a run down of my symptoms, side effects and results. Graphically at times. o.O
First day was a disaster. I woke up, walked downstairs to go through my normal routine and just stood in the kitchen holding a cup of coffee and the newspaper. I walked around in circles for about 20 minutes before I composed myself and called work saying "I will be in whenever I can make it".
Over the next few weeks, I had light headdedness, diarrhea and general fogginess of the brain, irritability, tingling in the appendages and vertigo. Then on about week 4, it changed. Constipation and gas rather than diarrhea. Not just any gas, but the worst you could ever imagine. It got so bad that at one point I thought my stomach was going to burst. The smell of it was horrible. I remember being in a public bathroom, let it rip and had people asking "what f***in died in here?!?!" then running out!
That went away about 2 months in. In fact, all was well and good 2 months in. I remember I was at an all inclusive resort in Mexico at the time. Drank and ate a lot. Never had an urge to smoke even though many we were with were smoking! I remember thinking at that time "I am truly free of smoking" due to my complete lack of any desire to smoke! I had no problems. I felt great!
3 months in I got some really bad sinus problems. So bad I had to go get antibiotics. 5 months later I still have some sinus problems, but now it is mostly excess mucous dried up in my nose. I also seemed to have developed a tightness in my chest, as well as anxiety and a general feeling of malaise. I had a general sense of fogginess, like those commercials for allergy medications, the ones where people are walking around with a fuzzy box over their faces. Thats exactly what I felt like since. I have also had the vertigo again.
I have been living through this to varying degrees through the summer. July was pretty good, I went on a road trip and had no issues. I think it was due to my mind thinking about things other than my not feeling well, plus it was on a motorcycle, so my state of mind was good.
As of late however, it seems to have gotten worse. My stomach hurts and I feel naseaus, I feel like I have a slight headache, I am extremely anxious, short tempered, tired, foggy and I just have a real feeling of hopelessness. I had a horrible dream that I had a cigarrette. That was about a week ago, I have been the worst since then. The vertigo/dizziness is bad at times too. To the point that I feel like I can't walk without looking at the ground directly in front of me. Strange thing is that it all seems to go away when I am doing something that keeps me completely occupied, this leads me to believe its all in my head. I have however been under a lot of stress with work and buying a new car.
Having just read through all these messages, I have to say that I feel a lot better knowing that what I am going through is the same thing everyone else did or is going through. I really appreciate everyone's posts.
I feel like I have some ammunition in beating this BS. I hate feeling like this and it was really starting to get to me. Hopefully this will pass soon.
At points I was on the verge of tears.. I now feel enlightened. I had no idea that others had the same side effects as I do.
I stopped smoking 8 months ago. I havent so much as picked up a pack of cigs since then. 3 days after stopping, I had a piece of nicotine gum and nothing at all since.
I was hypnotized to stop. I was very driven to stop, my stepfather was diagnosed with lung cancer a month prior. He unfortunately died exactly one month after I stopped smoking.
I smoked a pack a day for 21 years. I am 38 now.
I will give you folks a run down of my symptoms, side effects and results. Graphically at times. o.O
First day was a disaster. I woke up, walked downstairs to go through my normal routine and just stood in the kitchen holding a cup of coffee and the newspaper. I walked around in circles for about 20 minutes before I composed myself and called work saying "I will be in whenever I can make it".
Over the next few weeks, I had light headdedness, diarrhea and general fogginess of the brain, irritability, tingling in the appendages and vertigo. Then on about week 4, it changed. Constipation and gas rather than diarrhea. Not just any gas, but the worst you could ever imagine. It got so bad that at one point I thought my stomach was going to burst. The smell of it was horrible. I remember being in a public bathroom, let it rip and had people asking "what f***in died in here?!?!" then running out!
That went away about 2 months in. In fact, all was well and good 2 months in. I remember I was at an all inclusive resort in Mexico at the time. Drank and ate a lot. Never had an urge to smoke even though many we were with were smoking! I remember thinking at that time "I am truly free of smoking" due to my complete lack of any desire to smoke! I had no problems. I felt great!
3 months in I got some really bad sinus problems. So bad I had to go get antibiotics. 5 months later I still have some sinus problems, but now it is mostly excess mucous dried up in my nose. I also seemed to have developed a tightness in my chest, as well as anxiety and a general feeling of malaise. I had a general sense of fogginess, like those commercials for allergy medications, the ones where people are walking around with a fuzzy box over their faces. Thats exactly what I felt like since. I have also had the vertigo again.
I have been living through this to varying degrees through the summer. July was pretty good, I went on a road trip and had no issues. I think it was due to my mind thinking about things other than my not feeling well, plus it was on a motorcycle, so my state of mind was good.
As of late however, it seems to have gotten worse. My stomach hurts and I feel naseaus, I feel like I have a slight headache, I am extremely anxious, short tempered, tired, foggy and I just have a real feeling of hopelessness. I had a horrible dream that I had a cigarrette. That was about a week ago, I have been the worst since then. The vertigo/dizziness is bad at times too. To the point that I feel like I can't walk without looking at the ground directly in front of me. Strange thing is that it all seems to go away when I am doing something that keeps me completely occupied, this leads me to believe its all in my head. I have however been under a lot of stress with work and buying a new car.
Having just read through all these messages, I have to say that I feel a lot better knowing that what I am going through is the same thing everyone else did or is going through. I really appreciate everyone's posts.
I feel like I have some ammunition in beating this BS. I hate feeling like this and it was really starting to get to me. Hopefully this will pass soon.
I am so so grateful that you feel encouraged now that you've read the thread! It sounds like you've had quite a go of it but you're maintaining a good attitude. Stick around and let us know how you're doing, and keep me posted on how oyu're doing, okay? Best wishes!
I AM YOU!!!
I quit cold turkey 28 days ago this minute and have all the same symptoms as you!
I am 40, have smoked for 22 years (up to 30 a day) and had finally had enough of it!
I am a military instructor, have a very responsible position and feel like my brain is slowly melting like a Salvador Dali watch.
My concentration levels are non-existent, I have a constant feeling of angst and tire at the slightest exertion.
I have a young family and a wife who is due our third child in 10 days time so all my reasons for kicking the evil weed are there.
Nobody told me my brain would melt.
I had an IQ of 143 (too clever to ever smoke some might say) but now feel my IQ must be down in the 20s.
It will not beat me. Unite all brainmelters and be strong!! :x
I quit cold turkey 28 days ago this minute and have all the same symptoms as you!
I am 40, have smoked for 22 years (up to 30 a day) and had finally had enough of it!
I am a military instructor, have a very responsible position and feel like my brain is slowly melting like a Salvador Dali watch.
My concentration levels are non-existent, I have a constant feeling of angst and tire at the slightest exertion.
I have a young family and a wife who is due our third child in 10 days time so all my reasons for kicking the evil weed are there.
Nobody told me my brain would melt.
I had an IQ of 143 (too clever to ever smoke some might say) but now feel my IQ must be down in the 20s.
It will not beat me. Unite all brainmelters and be strong!! :x
That's a very common feeling when you quit so jsut know that you're going through totally normal stuff and let us know how you're doing. We're here to support you with it if you need any help. And stay strong. I know you can do it!
hi i gave up smoking about 6 months ago and i agree with you i have smoked for 15 years now and it is hard.i really felt terrible at the beginning and even considered starting again?how stupid? but now slowly i think i am just starting to feel the benefits apart from alot of weight gain :-( my chest feels lighter and when walking up hill i feel a great benefit more oxygen in my lungs. so i belive its worth it in the long run keep up the good work :-)
It's totally normal to feel sick at the beginning and like you want to quit so don't worry about it. And don't beat yourself up--that's totally normal. How are you doing now? IT's been about a week now.
Agree with most of the comments on this post, although I am not entirely sure if sickness is directly tied to quitting.
Yes, you are more susceptible to viruses after you quit...if you think about it, your body has been full of chemicals and toxins while you were smoking. Viruses couldn't live in an environment like that, they would die. Now that you are not feeding your body smoke anymore, it's a breeding ground for infection. Tissue and muscle lining is weak in this phase. Your immune system is in overdrive cleaning up your lungs and defending it from foreign bodies. That's alot to ask of it.
Personally, I quit smoking and three days later had pneumonia...but was not related to quitting at all, as it was bacterial pneumonia.
Sickness dragging on is a sign of mental illness, at least it's my personal belief based on what I have seen with myself. I was sick for three months, and would have kept on being sick if I didn't get out there doing things: light exercise, shopping, whatever. Keep yourself busy and you will see how much better you will feel. Stop thinking about being sick and you won't.
If you don't, you'll be sick indefinitely. You've past the big hurdle...quitting. Kudos to all of us for it!!
Yes, you are more susceptible to viruses after you quit...if you think about it, your body has been full of chemicals and toxins while you were smoking. Viruses couldn't live in an environment like that, they would die. Now that you are not feeding your body smoke anymore, it's a breeding ground for infection. Tissue and muscle lining is weak in this phase. Your immune system is in overdrive cleaning up your lungs and defending it from foreign bodies. That's alot to ask of it.
Personally, I quit smoking and three days later had pneumonia...but was not related to quitting at all, as it was bacterial pneumonia.
Sickness dragging on is a sign of mental illness, at least it's my personal belief based on what I have seen with myself. I was sick for three months, and would have kept on being sick if I didn't get out there doing things: light exercise, shopping, whatever. Keep yourself busy and you will see how much better you will feel. Stop thinking about being sick and you won't.
If you don't, you'll be sick indefinitely. You've past the big hurdle...quitting. Kudos to all of us for it!!
Thank you for sharing your experiences. I had a good laugh and fill up my strenght for another battle with stop smoking side effects :-)
I quit five and a half weeks ago. Guess what .. since quitting I have had sinusitis, a chest infection, tonsilitis, anxiety, feeling of depression, tiredness, skin is peeling on my hands, another sore throat infection coming on and currently an ear infection.... You know, I felt like a must have a serious illness until an hour ago when I found this site. I too have no desire to pick up a ciggy again but seeing this site has given me something to tell myself when i'm feeling bad.
I'll plod on and hopefully things will improve..
I'll plod on and hopefully things will improve..
Good to hear! I think that's a great attitude and I'm glad you're gonna take smoking on. Let us know how it goes, okay? It always helps to share.
it's amazing to see that so many are going through what I am or similar.
I am 33 years old, I used to smoke since the age of 12, on top of that in my later teen years and up until age 32 I have taken recreational drugs aswell such as coke, extasy, speed and have also smoked weed alot. I had finally given up smoking weed regularly 4 years ago after hating the paranoia. But I continued to smoke cigarettes, I wasn't a heavy smoker during the day just maybe 5 on a normal and maybe not even everyday, but when I drank I could make up for all that in one session. So you could say I was a heavily smoker really.
In the back of my mind I have always wanted to quit and have attempted many times, have went without smoking cigs for even 6 weeks before, but that was because of an illness ,I tryed to quit but eventually started again.
Anyway earlier on this year I had felt cold coming on that I would usually ignore and smoke on top of anyway, for some reason i felt a bit different about this cold, I really wanted to quit cigs because of it, but when with a bunch of mates just about getting over it,they offer a line of coke and i snorted it ,it was just a little bit.But this was now the beginning of the end of smoking for me ,because a few days after this I developed a realy bad sinus infection,but at the time I thought It was a bad tooth,so my dentist gave me antibiotics to kill the infection while he waited for xrays of tooth.
To cut this long story shorter, after finding out that it was a sinus infection and me being really congested in pain and taking time off work , my doctor gave me in total a months worth of antibiotics to kill off this sinutitis, it just wasnt going without a fight.I finaly got rid of it after the last batch of antibiotics and had stopped smoking during this infection,I didnt touch one since it had started.
I went a week or so feeling almost normal and healthy, still strugglling to stay away from cigarettes being back at work trying to fight the normal routine of sparking up at breaks and going back and forth to work.
And then suddenly 3 weeks after feeling good and clear form this stuff, I experienced shooting pains in my body and the feeling of dizziness that would sometimes come in waves, lie one minute I would feel ok the next like a wave of dizziness would knock me off course when walking or even sitting down,any one else know this feeling?
I then felt realy weak and dizzy and fatigued, I took time off work , my doctor made me have a BP test which shoWed I had high BP, at the same time im feeling this weak and dizzy feeling too.I had blood tests, ecgs you name it and the only thing thats come out of this is my HIgh BP , this seems to have come out of the blue and it all seems to of happened while I have stopped smoking,drinking and all the other stuff.After all this drama I have even changed my diet and eat really healthy, no junk and I exercize alot more and after geting back on my feet again I have felt alot more healthier but at the same time in the back I had that feeling that since Ive topped smoking I dont have that feeling where I dont quite feel right because of the smoke...Usually when I would smoke I would feel good but at same time polluted,now Its like my mind and body is saying what now?you are just pure theres nothing to fight anymore.
And with this thought,just a few weeks back I said to myself wow how good im feeling ,and then a week after this I begin to feel run down again ,picked up a cold and even a boil in this time. And when I think about how I use to be I didnt realy check to see how I was feeling,if I had a cold I had a cold bu I would get over that maybe even smoke while I have it and I f i was sad I would go grab a few beers and drink.Now im trying to live purer it seems I am constantly checking to see how I feel , seems like Ive been the most Ill ive ever been in my life this year, and this all happens after stopping smoking etc.
So after this long tale of my journey through trying to give up I have asked sme doctors about whether this is a detox phase of my body most say no, but one or two have told me that It just could b my body readjusting and detoxing. I really think this makes sence because our bodies have been pickled in all this poisonous gunk for so long,going into our lungs becoming part of us even though it shouldn't be there , so it makes sence to em to think that anyone who has been doing this for such a long time, in my ase since a kid that when we stop its going to cause a reaction for some of us...Now we are free from this poison,but our bodies are cleansing, maybe a bit confused "saying hey wheres that poison sh*t, you use to feed me everyday? what can I do now,shall i catch an infection?should I clean you out?should I panic ?"
I guess all we have to do is start to do the opposite of what its uses to, feed ourselves healthily, exercize, deal with our mental issues, and just stay positive and in time the our bodies will get use to the new us and when it doesn't get that good stuff " itll say hey I need some of that good sh*t you was giving me, give some now now now" and thats when we will go grab ourselves tha orange juice, instead of a durty ass cigarette lol
Hope everyone gets over this stuff as soon as possible , stay positive.im going to come back and see whats happening here from time to time, I want to see who else has recently gone thru similar to me.
Good luck :-)
D.rock
I am 33 years old, I used to smoke since the age of 12, on top of that in my later teen years and up until age 32 I have taken recreational drugs aswell such as coke, extasy, speed and have also smoked weed alot. I had finally given up smoking weed regularly 4 years ago after hating the paranoia. But I continued to smoke cigarettes, I wasn't a heavy smoker during the day just maybe 5 on a normal and maybe not even everyday, but when I drank I could make up for all that in one session. So you could say I was a heavily smoker really.
In the back of my mind I have always wanted to quit and have attempted many times, have went without smoking cigs for even 6 weeks before, but that was because of an illness ,I tryed to quit but eventually started again.
Anyway earlier on this year I had felt cold coming on that I would usually ignore and smoke on top of anyway, for some reason i felt a bit different about this cold, I really wanted to quit cigs because of it, but when with a bunch of mates just about getting over it,they offer a line of coke and i snorted it ,it was just a little bit.But this was now the beginning of the end of smoking for me ,because a few days after this I developed a realy bad sinus infection,but at the time I thought It was a bad tooth,so my dentist gave me antibiotics to kill the infection while he waited for xrays of tooth.
To cut this long story shorter, after finding out that it was a sinus infection and me being really congested in pain and taking time off work , my doctor gave me in total a months worth of antibiotics to kill off this sinutitis, it just wasnt going without a fight.I finaly got rid of it after the last batch of antibiotics and had stopped smoking during this infection,I didnt touch one since it had started.
I went a week or so feeling almost normal and healthy, still strugglling to stay away from cigarettes being back at work trying to fight the normal routine of sparking up at breaks and going back and forth to work.
And then suddenly 3 weeks after feeling good and clear form this stuff, I experienced shooting pains in my body and the feeling of dizziness that would sometimes come in waves, lie one minute I would feel ok the next like a wave of dizziness would knock me off course when walking or even sitting down,any one else know this feeling?
I then felt realy weak and dizzy and fatigued, I took time off work , my doctor made me have a BP test which shoWed I had high BP, at the same time im feeling this weak and dizzy feeling too.I had blood tests, ecgs you name it and the only thing thats come out of this is my HIgh BP , this seems to have come out of the blue and it all seems to of happened while I have stopped smoking,drinking and all the other stuff.After all this drama I have even changed my diet and eat really healthy, no junk and I exercize alot more and after geting back on my feet again I have felt alot more healthier but at the same time in the back I had that feeling that since Ive topped smoking I dont have that feeling where I dont quite feel right because of the smoke...Usually when I would smoke I would feel good but at same time polluted,now Its like my mind and body is saying what now?you are just pure theres nothing to fight anymore.
And with this thought,just a few weeks back I said to myself wow how good im feeling ,and then a week after this I begin to feel run down again ,picked up a cold and even a boil in this time. And when I think about how I use to be I didnt realy check to see how I was feeling,if I had a cold I had a cold bu I would get over that maybe even smoke while I have it and I f i was sad I would go grab a few beers and drink.Now im trying to live purer it seems I am constantly checking to see how I feel , seems like Ive been the most Ill ive ever been in my life this year, and this all happens after stopping smoking etc.
So after this long tale of my journey through trying to give up I have asked sme doctors about whether this is a detox phase of my body most say no, but one or two have told me that It just could b my body readjusting and detoxing. I really think this makes sence because our bodies have been pickled in all this poisonous gunk for so long,going into our lungs becoming part of us even though it shouldn't be there , so it makes sence to em to think that anyone who has been doing this for such a long time, in my ase since a kid that when we stop its going to cause a reaction for some of us...Now we are free from this poison,but our bodies are cleansing, maybe a bit confused "saying hey wheres that poison sh*t, you use to feed me everyday? what can I do now,shall i catch an infection?should I clean you out?should I panic ?"
I guess all we have to do is start to do the opposite of what its uses to, feed ourselves healthily, exercize, deal with our mental issues, and just stay positive and in time the our bodies will get use to the new us and when it doesn't get that good stuff " itll say hey I need some of that good sh*t you was giving me, give some now now now" and thats when we will go grab ourselves tha orange juice, instead of a durty ass cigarette lol
Hope everyone gets over this stuff as soon as possible , stay positive.im going to come back and see whats happening here from time to time, I want to see who else has recently gone thru similar to me.
Good luck :-)
D.rock
Here I am after reading all the posts in this thread. It has been an eye opener... a whole new world that I did not know existed for me since i quit smoking almost 2 months back. I had been smoking for almost 17yrs... without quitting even once during that period. Honestly, i enjoyed smoking. It was like an integeral part of my system, did not matter what I was doing. Parties, work, lesuire, travel, bike riding.... cigarettes had always kept me company.
And then it happened all of a sudden... I quit cold turkey telling myself that its easy to do it and because i had been promising myself since a long time now... Big Deal !!
Thats another story... lol...what I am going through is another, its real and has made me realize how dependent i was on smoking. My symptoms starting Day 1
1. Flushing in the face (still happens, though the frequency has reduced or maybe i have also gotten used to it )
2. Dizziness (strikes anytime, anywhere)
3. Acid reflux, gas (i can supply to the neighbourhood... not joking)
4. Nausea (occasional)
5. Unending Hunger (i have controlled that to a large extent)
6. Excess mucus formation in the nose
7. Extremely dry skin on my face
8. Anxiety (this also strikes anytime and anywhere)
9. Irritability (was there initially, but has vanished now)
10. Feeling of loneliness, depression (comes as a wave and almost makes me sick to the core)
11. Palpatations
I have made more trips to hospitals in the last 2 months, than I have made in my entire life put together and must have also spent much more on tests and medicines. I am treating myself symptomatically...... and right now i am only taking medicines for my gas problem and one tab in the night for my increased cholesterol (came out in tests). I have decided that come what may, I shall not let anti-depressants enter my system, because I do not want to be dependant on them.
Last one week i was feeling better, my breathing was improved, my concentration was good, i was feeling as if this was the last of the symptoms i had experienced. But, yesterday, it struck again....... gas, reflux, palpatations, flushing, anxiety and depression (everything together). .... IT was nothing less than hell for me. On top of it.... i had a tough time sleeping. The only good thing about yesterday was that I told myself that I shall not go to the doctor and did not panic. I went to sleep and got up a little better. Did not want to go to work, but pushed myself and moved out, finished my meetings, pushed myself for lunch and am here right now, writing this!
Somebody even told me to smoke one cigarette and see if all this is bacause of my quitting..... but I am going to fight this without any cigarettes and that is one thing I am absolutely sure of. I am hitting the gym from evening and like someone in an earlier post mentioned......"Time to dust the bike" !!
I congratulate everyone who has quit smoking and empathise with everyone who is going through this horrible phase of withdrawls... I hope the road ahead is just a little easy.
And then it happened all of a sudden... I quit cold turkey telling myself that its easy to do it and because i had been promising myself since a long time now... Big Deal !!
Thats another story... lol...what I am going through is another, its real and has made me realize how dependent i was on smoking. My symptoms starting Day 1
1. Flushing in the face (still happens, though the frequency has reduced or maybe i have also gotten used to it )
2. Dizziness (strikes anytime, anywhere)
3. Acid reflux, gas (i can supply to the neighbourhood... not joking)
4. Nausea (occasional)
5. Unending Hunger (i have controlled that to a large extent)
6. Excess mucus formation in the nose
7. Extremely dry skin on my face
8. Anxiety (this also strikes anytime and anywhere)
9. Irritability (was there initially, but has vanished now)
10. Feeling of loneliness, depression (comes as a wave and almost makes me sick to the core)
11. Palpatations
I have made more trips to hospitals in the last 2 months, than I have made in my entire life put together and must have also spent much more on tests and medicines. I am treating myself symptomatically...... and right now i am only taking medicines for my gas problem and one tab in the night for my increased cholesterol (came out in tests). I have decided that come what may, I shall not let anti-depressants enter my system, because I do not want to be dependant on them.
Last one week i was feeling better, my breathing was improved, my concentration was good, i was feeling as if this was the last of the symptoms i had experienced. But, yesterday, it struck again....... gas, reflux, palpatations, flushing, anxiety and depression (everything together). .... IT was nothing less than hell for me. On top of it.... i had a tough time sleeping. The only good thing about yesterday was that I told myself that I shall not go to the doctor and did not panic. I went to sleep and got up a little better. Did not want to go to work, but pushed myself and moved out, finished my meetings, pushed myself for lunch and am here right now, writing this!
Somebody even told me to smoke one cigarette and see if all this is bacause of my quitting..... but I am going to fight this without any cigarettes and that is one thing I am absolutely sure of. I am hitting the gym from evening and like someone in an earlier post mentioned......"Time to dust the bike" !!
I congratulate everyone who has quit smoking and empathise with everyone who is going through this horrible phase of withdrawls... I hope the road ahead is just a little easy.
Hi amitd,
I was reading your post and just got interested in knowing what was the worst problem from your list?
I have to say that I can not relate to smoking, because I have never tried it. Simply I was never attracted to it, so when I hear somebody quitting I try to be supportive. :-)
Just hang in there and you will get trough it.
Cheers.
I was reading your post and just got interested in knowing what was the worst problem from your list?
I have to say that I can not relate to smoking, because I have never tried it. Simply I was never attracted to it, so when I hear somebody quitting I try to be supportive. :-)
Just hang in there and you will get trough it.
Cheers.
Hi dark_red,
Firstly, thanks a lot for the support and secondly, for not being attracted to smoking.
Today, even I am no longer attracted to it, feels the same way before I lit my first...... i was not attracted to it on that day as well, but just tried it to see what it feels like.
Anyways, the answer to your question is a mingled mix of all that i have mentioned.... it goes like this (now dont laugh, i am being honest). You eat and feel the reflux, which triggers the anxiety, which triggers the palpatations, which subsequently triggers the panic. But over and above everything else, the depression is the worst of all the things listed. You just stand confused, not knowing what hit you... you know what it is, but you have to really fight hard to swim on the surface and not let it drown you.
ITS MAD !
cheers
Firstly, thanks a lot for the support and secondly, for not being attracted to smoking.
Today, even I am no longer attracted to it, feels the same way before I lit my first...... i was not attracted to it on that day as well, but just tried it to see what it feels like.
Anyways, the answer to your question is a mingled mix of all that i have mentioned.... it goes like this (now dont laugh, i am being honest). You eat and feel the reflux, which triggers the anxiety, which triggers the palpatations, which subsequently triggers the panic. But over and above everything else, the depression is the worst of all the things listed. You just stand confused, not knowing what hit you... you know what it is, but you have to really fight hard to swim on the surface and not let it drown you.
ITS MAD !
cheers