suboxone cuz i buy it on the street 2 get clean cuz i cant afford clinic depressing..

i have been taking suboxone for a pretty good while now and i would really like some advice because i been buying it off the streets rather than going to the clinic because i simply am unemployed and its easier to come up with 15$ at a time than to take what i pay in a month for it and just start the clinic because its so much harder to come up with 300$ at once i really want to get completely clean i quit drinking i dont do any opiates recreationally and i have tried to work myself down myself and i got down to and 8th of a 8mg strip a day thinking that once i got used to it that i would be able to just drop it well....... i couldnt i still get really sick i feel like i cant move i vomit and other stomach issues if you get my drift..... im also sore as hell and feel so tired and run down but i cant sleep which makes it more miserable and im looking for advice on how to take that step away it makes me feel so weak to be sick and i think there are mental issues involved and thats one of the things i really wish i could go to the clinic for so i could speak to the counselor ive had a hard few years that i could use some guidance with..... i just hope there is someone that sees this so maybe i can ask questions and maybe vent if someone relates to what im saying even email me if you want i will take what i can get i mostly just dont understand why im soooo sick coming off an 8th it feels the same as if i had taken a half any advice please get in touch im gonna add my email to this i dont know what this sites policy is but hopefully they wont delete it so thanks and lookin forward to some answers............