i just read thru alot of these testimonies and struggles sad to say but you never rea;ize how many people struggle thru the same things daily as you do.i have been a prisoner to methadone for a little over 13 yrs.i called my counselor today to start my detox monday starting at detox of 10 mgs a wk til i cant handle it.i am on 130 mgs and can honestly say dont know how i ended up here.i took lortab 7.5 8 a day for 3 yrs was scared of the depression and other things i was feeling at the time let them put me on methadone.nothing else have i ever taken.they moved my doseage up pretty quick.i have never had a bad d rug screen since ive been there never been in trouble until 1 1/2 yr ago my medicine bag was taken.i am a once a month patient so there was 12 doses taken.our clinic will not replace your meds i just happened to be 7 months pregnant an my obgyn had to send me daily to hospital to dose at maternity ward.a year later we packed our car to head outa town expected death in family.my bag was taken again almost the same amount.i was petrified.i had to let clinic know in case they did a call back and for telling them they moved me from a once a month patient to a once a wk patient.this was aug 2013.im still once a wk.we found it was my sisters stepson they live in front of me and my husband so i didnt press charges.he did end up giving me 6 of those doses back he hadnt sold.but now its almost like i feel like a criminal going there.my dr. just recently put me on xanax and we have to take our scripts in they pour them out count them etc...photo copy etc...just took my script in still had 11 pills in bottle and was already due in two days to be filled again.so even tho my dr has take as needed an the script is good for a year they want me to have it filled anyway every 30 days even tho i dont need em.everything im writing is the truth.im a total prisoner here.so even tho i dont feel ready im gona start my detox monday morning.im scared and terrified.but my husband makes the most sense.he said why do they want you to get a habit forming prescription filled an chance it lying around for you to chance getting addicted.im gona say a prayer for all out there and i admire so many of you cause i am litterally scared to death.and all of you keep me in your prayers.i know God can get us thru anything.yes these scientists are rite that we get these genes from our parents n grandparents etc..but theres a gene above all that and that is God..we can choose to live.....we can all make it thru this.....let me know if anyone else has these kind of strict clinics out there...
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