Hi, I am now 17 years old and have been smoking cannabis for about 3 and 1/2 years (since roughly 13/14 years old) I am a heavy smoker somedays I smoke 8 joints a day others it's less, I have stopped before with difficulty but always seem to get dragged back into it I live in my house with my family who all smoke cannabis (everyone smokes besides one person) and it is very hard for me to stop smoking when I smell and see it every single day I suffer from depression daily and I have this strange feeling that I'm not in reality, I feel like nothing is real, sort of like I'm not myself and things are just happening around me? I get anxious sometimes I have a habit it chewing my lips witch has lead to soars in my mouth. I just want to feel like a normal person again with a clear head, I have been unemployed for roughly 6 months and find it hard to do daily routines (washing clothes, cleaning room etc.) my sleeping pattern is all gone to f*ck I stay awake till about 7 in the morning and sleep till about 5 at night no matter how hard I try I can't seem to get it back to normal, I wake up and it's dark. I have no appetite I feel sick when I eat, I get really depressed and cry hysterically and I can't seem to put my finger on why I get so upset witch makes it worse as I over think and end up getting depressed about stupid things. I have violent dreams quite a lot, dreams of beating people to near death and I'm not a violent person. Can someone please help? I feel like no one understands what's going threw my head witch frustrates me. Thank you for reading my post it means a lot to know that people care.