I'll start off by saying that I'm always stressed, don't do much, and feel like I can't be happy, and even question if I want to be or not. Ever since me and my GF broke up I've been anti social, depressed, and always think of bad outlooks for my future. I always worry about my future and fear becoming some crazy person that gets put in a crazy mental institute. When I was younger my mom told me I was a hyperchondriac, it subsided for a bit, but now I think it's returning. I've suffered from anxiety and panic attacks since my first year in high school, I always freak myself out. Now I think I have OCD because I can't stop thinking about bad things. One of my compulsions is looking up different medical issues and reading about cures and treatments. I have lots of sexual thoughts and dreams quite often. During the day I am usually okay, but at night when I have my thoughts to myself I think of terrible things. I know I can do anything I put my mind to and I know I can make a difference, but all of these things have taken my energy, time, motivation, and confidence, and I'm only 17. I haven't told my parents in fear they will freak out, but I want to feel normal. My parents think I'm normal, I'm going to college in the honors program, but idk what's wrong with me, could I be bipolar? Also, my family has a large amount of medical issue history. Do I have to live with this forever? What would a doctor do and think if I told him/her about all of this?