8 weeks quit smoking

I have been smoking for 18 years, 20 cigarettes a day, I quit smoking unexpectedly cold turkey 8 weeks ago after my father had a heart attack due to smoking, while he was at hospital, a stop smoking lady came to give my father advice we decided to quit smoking together that day. I have tried so many times before but failed, this is the longest I have ever been with out smoking.

I have quit cold turkey before, I was doing really well, I started putting on weight due to resorting to chocolate or anything to keep busy, as I felt bored or used to something in my mouth, I did not realize that I was replacing cig with food, after a while I could not control what I was eating, feeling hungry all the time, then started to put on weight, then went back to smoking.

Another time I used nicotine patches did really well first couple of weeks but had bad dreams, panic attack and dizzy sick, as soon as I took off the patches I had to start all over again, meaning craving started like this was my first day, then went back to smoking.

Another time I quit smoking I was so nervous that I upset every one around me, I could not control my anger that I went back to smoking.

This time round unexpected, doing this for my dad, my self, my kids, first week, stick to what I normally eat so that I don't put on too much weight, jogging twice a week feeling breathless a bit of pain in my chest, started chest breathing exercise, kick boxing over the weekend, after weighing my self in actual fact I am losing 2.5 lbs a week instead of putting on weight, very hard no sleep, bad dreams sweating, bad cough, soar throat, irritable constipation and nervous, second week still all the symptom mentioned tingly feelings across my hands very weird, cough getting worse spitting muscus I guess my system is clearing, trying to keep busy when I cant control my anger, walking instead of driving, eating healthy food high in fibre to help constipation, drinking lots of water.

Third week irritation getting better, sports is helping, I think the heart beating faster, blood circulation better through to the brain helps withdraw symptoms, still bad throat, still losing weight still eating same amount of food as before, but feeling really hungry and enjoying taste of food, unfortunately my father cant do it so I am all alone now.

Fourth week saved some money so taking a trip with my children to Alton Towers, I feel like some one has died so used to smoking, I smoked every where sense of loss.

Fifth week throat feels better, no hunger feeling so eating same foods has worked, sleeping through the night but skin complexion still the same even my lips but my gums got red, using face mask may help and drinking orange juice, I guess the longer you smoke the longer it takes to get better, withdraw symptoms up to twice a day and last for 10 mins.

Six week, I noticed when you are on your monthly cycle you get even more nervous so trying to control myself.

Seven weeks, started eating a bit more due to losing 6 lbs already from the exercise cutting that back too, put back on 2 lbs so I am in control what I put on or lose, stomach pain may be a bug?, cold sore, very nervous as worse as the first day, cant stop talking, crying, arguing with close ones, getting really really bad help some advice?????

Eight Weeks, feeling sad, suspicious, depressed, crying a lot.