I've had hemorrhoids since I was about 22. I'm now 31. I can still remember the actual day when my life literally changed after going to the the toilet.
At the time I did not know exactly what was wrong but I was bleeding furiously from the anus and the bleeding did not seem to stop. I spent a senseless time in the shower trying to clean myself as i bled more and more to a stage I thought I surely was going to die from massive blood lost. Never in my life was I so scared.
To describe my hemorrhoids - it appears to be my internal flesh protruding out from my anus and is very, very sensitive to pain, which is unbearable. At best it's sometime tingly and itchy. I can not sit nor walk in a normal posture.
I've never spoken to anyone about it, not even to my family or doctor, and I've also allowed it to prevent me from finding a girlfriend for fear of embarrassment and shame.
Throughout the years, I've learnt to adapt to my condition and have trained myself to only use the toilet before bedtime, that way I'm able to sleep away the pain and let my body re-condition itself during the night. About 80% of the time, I wake up in the morning and everything seems fine again and I'm able to start my day as normal. The remaining 20% means I'm unable to live my life as I want it but spend my day in bed and hope and wait for the hemorrhoid to go away. Sometimes I spend up to a week of pain and discomfort as the hemorrhoid can be very stubborn.
I'm sick of having to live my life around the hemorrhoid as it has also destroyed my professional life. I dont wish it on anybody.
Given that I've had it for such a long time, is it too late for it to be cured?
:'(
At the time I did not know exactly what was wrong but I was bleeding furiously from the anus and the bleeding did not seem to stop. I spent a senseless time in the shower trying to clean myself as i bled more and more to a stage I thought I surely was going to die from massive blood lost. Never in my life was I so scared.
To describe my hemorrhoids - it appears to be my internal flesh protruding out from my anus and is very, very sensitive to pain, which is unbearable. At best it's sometime tingly and itchy. I can not sit nor walk in a normal posture.
I've never spoken to anyone about it, not even to my family or doctor, and I've also allowed it to prevent me from finding a girlfriend for fear of embarrassment and shame.
Throughout the years, I've learnt to adapt to my condition and have trained myself to only use the toilet before bedtime, that way I'm able to sleep away the pain and let my body re-condition itself during the night. About 80% of the time, I wake up in the morning and everything seems fine again and I'm able to start my day as normal. The remaining 20% means I'm unable to live my life as I want it but spend my day in bed and hope and wait for the hemorrhoid to go away. Sometimes I spend up to a week of pain and discomfort as the hemorrhoid can be very stubborn.
I'm sick of having to live my life around the hemorrhoid as it has also destroyed my professional life. I dont wish it on anybody.
Given that I've had it for such a long time, is it too late for it to be cured?
:'(