adderall-suboxone -benzos(7years)

i'm very familar with the system,pills,doctors etc.I would always acoud drugs until mid twenty something,i got high for almost a year straight off opiates  and cocaine.Being a very wise person and when aware of what drugs do to people,considering my city and neighboirhood exposed the evil the best u xan see ,habds on in a urban ruff area!i always tried to keep that motto n visual to not turn n not to give tmi i was a upcoming superstar no if ands ir butts,to basketball and baseball,Well for those who think women arent the most powerful influence on a man once it becomes mire than sex,so as dumb as it sounds the mother of my 1 year old and soon to be in may of another blessing girl,was the one who got me to try that tiny not even inch of herion after atleast 50 nites she asked i said no thanks n keep my nose how i always keep it.From there on its been hell-n-a blessing in one,cuz i went threw a lot but learned and done ,seen it all.to rich to broke flat.as i was saying i always been strong i got my first trip to that place downtown and didnt even no what cold turkey meant,when they first mentioned it jail.u go cold turkey i laughed as if i dont get it but funny,ya real funny from there on if u know the withdrawl u know what journey i went.but i wish i never got on suboxone ,its keep me nevr to go back to coke opiates anything its main purpose n really is for opaites.going on 8years,but i wonder do these legally prescibed drugs really do what they say good and bad wise,i mean that a good junkies wish of a coktail ive been taking and youd never know or think the way i present myself and carry myself i even drank which i dont rairly just saying.im real healthy kid thin but tall athletic body no body fat at all noraml looking person.but dont get it twisted adderall will leave you looking like your on coke meth molly crack and worse if abused and you dont know how to play this dirty game our goverment controls.thoses are the real dope dealers and kingpins.i have couple questions.this combo for me is really the only way i dont feel the pain n depression i felt all my life and uncomfortableness anxiety etc i felt naturally.question one is (may be a great tip and solution to thoses who are clean and want to now stop subxone)i was incarsarated several times for......nothing sick or that stuff,but most times i did not even wuthdrawl from the suboxone because and was so relived,reason being i relized fast,the adderall takes alot out of your body fast and little did i know it saved my ass wonderful,the benzos they gave me ,not my prescibed klonopin or zanax but ativan and that will do,ive never been off the benzos where withdrawl done and now its cured time in my eyes its not a diesase it a cheap sucka punch trick on the head-mind if your strong you live n learn n be done,now im doing okay but wonder if i was home and took a little extra adderall before i plan on stopping suboxone will i go threw it very little like jail,i think im correct but jail is a mind thing sometimes ,u accept ur in jail cant get much that be worth it unless ur larry hoover etc,so ur mind stronger and knows ur going to not be on your right meds prepare for a litttle or bad experience.another question is what if i stay on this combo till i 35-40 if it doesnt get the best of me,ive been okay but f up couple times cuz adderall can be and is highly addicting n so is suboxone n benzos but im no better than everyone i guess im rock solid strong almost 100 percent.they say they age you but imm going on 29 in march and still look like early twenties,if i sleep and eat right my weight stays good for my size and body tone.i just remeber about a decade back u have to kill me for me to take advil.,just being my father hasnt drink in 17 years and doesnt take nothing or do anything,so i admired how he did it on his own with no ones help but his ,n theres nothing wrong with help.its a free blessing in disguise if your a honest person and ready.any feedback id appreciate ,any questions,dont care if its dumb anything i always help and understand people luv to feel good,lifes boring but fast so if there going to use i hope they know what they get is safe and if they wanna experiment then thats where u go to be careful,lots of info on chemisry of drugs,filetring them and etc,lots of good positive knowledge on how to get off the sh*t fast and smoothly withouth switching ur habbit for something esle-if its sex thats fine-lol.god bless everyone and this is not me to ever write i guess part of my life story to public,but u never know im ready to relize or determine how much longer i want to be dealing with the pills docs ,crookedness of it all and most of all it take on my body as health wise,thanks joe'