All I would like to say is that every comment that I have read on here is TRULY inspirational. especially finding out that i most-likely had ADD!!!!! because even the mistaken characteristics that was explained define my situation. i've been dealing with this disease since i was sixteen, nineteen now. but i completely see it. and i would ever so badly like to go to my general doctor and just explain for either a psychiatrist no questions. then wait, and then find someone, who simply gives me sh*t or acts ignorant and they know me better (happened before) and then have to give him my money for simply being ignorant. and then find someone else, and hope to god they will understand cuz i dont want to lie, and go through the same thing. and so on and so on. which is why i have never even bothered. just like previous comments, i told my family. but it IS a difficult, time consuming, financial process and it seems pointless. so i've adapted. but thanks to so many people in this town, after experimenting with this substance, i have been in love. and i have realized how BENEFITIALLY powerful the pill is to subside this literally DEBILITATING effect. not only should EVERY healthcare provider, pyschiatrics and research professional, but the media should read this entire post. no one understands bulimia. only bulimics. the fact that after 30 minutes of cooking, eating, spilling, stepping on food, all over your face and you don't care. and puking in your room into a Glad wear container. and at night pouring it in the septic hole. and feeling N.O.R.M.A.L. clear headed, focused, CONTENT - except it's your 2000th time youve done this, its been 5 years. you are happy because you arent thinking of food and you can actually play music, write in your journal, or simply watch TV o. because your tastebuds and stomach are content. but youre so f*****g angry/depressed/uneasy because you feel like "tomorrow" youll quit - that's an addiction. addiction is denying yourself the fact that you cannot stop. that you WILL get help - i've never truly wanted help. because i couldnt imagine having the appetite of someone 300 pounds and actually DIGESTING it. what else is addiction? saying it cant be THAT bad. looking at a dogbowl filled with puke, and storing it under the sink where no one looks. asking which color syringe-AKA-toothbrush you wanna use that most helps it come up. and after, feeling pretty. and wiping off your face, then going for that run. or watching that TV show you wanted. because your satisfied for another hour...and you down coffee just for it to hopefully not come back. that urge, RIGHT after all food is up and you flush or hide that mess, RIGHT after you feel so good, on.top.of.the.world....HOW could you puke again in another hour..? our chemical levels come back down. get this, i run and try to eat healthy and live a normal life. running actually makes my ED worse. it causes that huge contrast, it increases the heights of my emotions - the highs, GREAT like right after running (proven scientific fact it raises chemicals in your brain) - the lows - LOW. cutting though i havent done that in a very long time - but a long itme is only 3 months - LOW the lows are low theyre crying in your basement asking why youre upset why you just dont feel content with everything you have in life - family, a nice room, good friends, school, a car, an ipod, material things and inanament values like love and trust within your life. but purging works. it gives me that high - but after 20 times a day, you just feel like youre dying. thats because we are. or i was. i WAS dying. it would get so bad sometimes, i would tell myself i'm that girl online now saying its gotten THAT bad, when i used to ask how people did that SO much, HOW, how spend $20 in food. how? its an addiction. i'm sorry i'm all over the place in this, but as i say "i'm bulimic, anything can happen" ive been put in so many bad situations because of this. i have so much to say because i have delt with this and although people almost everyone i am familiar with knows, i have yet to really shed light on how i feel its ok to spend ATLEAST an hour and a half in the bathroom every day. and not to shower lets make that clear. i have so much to say, but i'm going to try to strictly keep this intellectual. peopel should know about this. ********ALSO i read that bulimics are usually alcoholics and alcohol can truly make the urges more intense or spark it persay- and i suppose or use logic with this because alcohol literally drains you mentally and physically - so that low causes you to need to achieve the high. and since i have been taking simply amphetamines (substance of adderall but all of you must know ), "illegally" due to lack of supportive, unlevelheaded professionals - i haven't even thought of drinking. whereas i used to use drinking as a "good time" and a "good night" at a friends/club because i didnt want to go home and puke 25 times. i wanted to substitute it with a terrible toxin and wake up feeling like sh*t. and i guess i could hypothosize that it could possibly help with alcoholism as well. but since bulimia is said to be derrived or sparked by alcohol, from my experience and probably ALOT of other young individuals that have the same exact story, this should be looked into as well. - also. very important - bulimics who drink are at SERIOUS danger of dying. because of their stressed heart its another scientific fact, but i'm not a scientist. i just know alot from this disease. so i understand the "dangers" of adderall, but NO ONE KNOWS THE DANGERS OF BULIMIA. they want to focus us to anti-depressants and sh*t because i'm pretttyyysure theyre placebos that makes tons of money by putting sugar in a pill, then on a bilboard and TV set just for us to waist our time. they may give us side effects, AS THEY CLAIM but they do not solve the problem - whereas adderall and all these amphetamines are looked down upon for some reason, yet i know as people have said and i experienced in my family it is EXTREMELY dangerous to stop your dose of any med especially anti-depressants - even if they dont work - so basically take this pill, and wean yourself off because its extremely dangerous to stop, but yet theyre suposed to help you. yet we probably have little scientific evidence. doesn't this make sense? *****i hear EVERYONE say that depression meds dont work, "dont bother" "i wanted to f*in kill myself" "they were such a bad experience" "you start to not even feel emotions" - REALLY? why is this country doing this. i feel so helpless. i feel like the only thing that has ever helped is adderall. and i wish so badly that it was brought to psychiatric attention. i spend so much money on this drug. i hate doing this illegally. apparently its a felony if found with. i hate it but i NEED it because i dont want to die from throat cancer, or mouth cancer, or stomach caner, stomach ulcers? i dont want my boyfriend to show me pictures of throats decaying and how bad it will be when i'm 25. i want to go to a pychiatrist and i want them to have experienced this website, and more. and i want the industry to know i would do so much good in this world if i coped by the best and only substance that i have tried which helps more than words. and i want them to say, it's not going to be okay. it's finally okay.. but no, i go for rides every week and spend $50 give or take - just to feel normal. i wish this wasn't so. but that's just me.
This is interesting because i have had bulimia for about 4 years. Ive been in recover for about 2 but sometimes episodes come out of nowhere. I always took my friend's adderall because it completely killed the urge to b/p. Doctors should definately take into consideration perscribing it to help with bulimia and binge eating disorders.
Every bulimic would be stoked to be on Adderall. Adderall prevents you from eating. No eating - No purging. It also gives you this high that makes you feel so great and productive. BEWARE. Adderall is HIGHLY addictive. Psychiatrists WILL deem you as "drug-seeking" if you mention anything from minor alcohol infractions to having body-image issues (bulimia). For example... Lindsay Lohan. She wants to have Adderall in rehab, claiming she has "ADD". Any respectable psychiatrist would prescribe her a different ADD medicine other than Adderall do to her past issues with drugs and alcohol. You truly have to have strong self-control if prescribed. And most bulimics do NOT have self-control. Taking Adderall everyday affects you over-time. It can have the reverse effect. Causing you to be impulsive and irresponsible. Another hint... most people have to get "generic" b/c the adderall brand is so pricy. If you read the generic name for adderall it reads... "Amphetamine Salts". I hope you understand what I mean by this. Good Luck. It's a very helpful drug to those who can control themselves in using it. PS. taking more than 30 mg a day is very dangerous. Just in case you didn't know.
hi. wondering if your combination of zoloft and adderall are still effective for bulimia.
I would love to ask you some questions and get some info. I am struggling with these issues.
Hi! I've been bulimic since I was 15 years old and I'm now 23. Throughout the past few years I've tried adderall but it's been a couple of years since I've taken it. My bulimia has gotten worse over this past year and I recently bought Adderall online. It's the only thing that helps with my urges. I can totally relate! I'm currently seeing a therapist for my eating disorder but I'm afraid to mention anything about adderall. She wants to test me for ADD/ADHD. I might hold off on saying anything to her about it. But know that you're not alone! I wish you the best of luck! All of you who have the same problem!
If YOU ARE BULIMIC, and YOU THINK ADDERALL IS THE CURE,
or you WANT TO BE PRESCRIBED ADDERALL,
Please, please, READ THIS.
Like others posted above, I too am bulimic, and I tried adderall and thought it was the miracle cure.
I'm currently 22, but back then I was 18. I thought it was PERFECT. I FINALLY stopped binging! After everything else I had tried, I was finally seeing results!!!
I went to numerous doctors to attempt to get adderall, which was very difficult as many said no. But finally, after seeing the right psychologist [who I convinced I had ADHD], I was prescribed the drug.
Adderall worked as well as I had hoped it would! Well, for the first three or four months, anyways. Three or four months wherein I barely ate. Then, slowly, my appetite returned. It didn't matter how much adderall I would take, my stomach ached with hunger. If my stomach didn't growl, and I went without food, I could barely think or process information all day. Even taking a multivitamin each morning, my symptoms didn't improve.
I began to have heart problems that landed me in the ER-- diagnosis: severely low levels of potassium. Alright, I thought. I'll just take adderall, a multivitamin, and potassium supplements every day. And then I won't b/p, I won't gain weight, and I will stay thin.
Well, adderall (or stimulants in general, for that matter) don't have the kindest effects on a nutrient-deficient person. I became obsessed with putting on make-up each day/looking perfect, I became incredibly jealous over my boyfriend, I completely lost my tolerance for alcohol, and I just became a judgemental, less kind person overall. I was hungry. My body was fighting to stay alive. I didn't have a period for 8 months (although before the adderall, even binging and purging 10-20+ times a day, I never lost it), my hair broke/fell out all across my head and its growth severely slowed to almost nothing, and I could tell something was just not...not right.
After this realization, I found an eating disorder clinic, and made my first appointment. There, I met with very kind individuals who prescribed me antidepressants (I had tried antidepressants when I was in high school, but hadn't felt they did anything/ hadn't known if I was actually depressed....the antidepressants the ED clinic prescribed were different from those). The clinic also set me up with a therapist to discuss why my ED began in the first place, and to discuss how to treat it. After four months of treatment, I have seen remarkable improvement. No one is perfect, but this disorder can be beaten.
Many girls that I have met through the ED clinic have told me all about how they thought adderall was a miracle drug that would work for them, too...and they told me how THE USE OF ADDERALL is what eventually spun them COMPLETELY OUT OF CONTROL.
ADDERALL IS NOT THE SOLUTION. Look at what it does--it makes you FOCUS. Your vicious binge purge cycle is incredibly obsessive and compulsive already; long-term, constant use of adderall will only worsen the situation. Please talk to your doctor about SSRIs (a class of antidepressants shown to be effective in many ED patients), and please find a better psychologist/psychiatrist/counselor who has worked with Eating Disorders before, and who can teach you other techniques to help yourself along the long road of recovery. The path towards recovery will always take you back, no matter how far you may have strayed.
Are u in the UK? I have been bulimic since i was 18( now am 30) and am desperate to try Adderall but have only been scammed on internet sites. I was underweight but in last 2 years have tried so hard and now have gained weight to the point of a BMI of 23 which although i am not happy with, i would do anything if i could just stay at this weight without being permanently starving hungry eating normally which leads again to bingeing. I feel i have put in so much wasted effort gaining 3 stone and still being so so hungry to the point all i still do is think about food all day/night and sleep most of daylight hours. I so want a life. I have tried so many drugs online.... even the strongest appetite suppressants dont work at making me feel full eating normally( i want super strong pills not to lose weight but if i ate when hungry is at least 1000cals more than i am now to keep weight stable!. If i ate when i was hungry i'd be very overweight then docs would help but i don't want to go there. I have tried so many drugs over last 12 months from internet and wasted so much money. Now i have found Synedrex supposed to kill appetite...perfect at keeping my appetite 'normal' and maintaining my weight but so dangerous and it is making me so so poorly.See my stomach is so so huge i need something that most people would lose alot on to keep weight stable. I am so so desperate. If you can help and are able to let me know where you get some Adderall, i'd be so thankful. Cheryl x
hello. your post was encouraging. wondering if you are open to sharing more of your story. would email be ok?