Hi everyone, I'm a 20-year-old brazilian girl, who used to live in Europe.
So, in December I went to France to visit a couple friends in the city that I used to live when I was younger. At the new year's eve party, they offered me to try a space cake. I don't do drugs often, all my life, I've tried weed twice and that's all. But after a long time hesitating, I decided that it could be fun after all. So I ate probably 4 small pieces of the weed brownie. (I don't know if it was just weed and the quantity since I don't know who made it and I've been drinking probably 3 glasses of a german liquor called Jägermeister that night)
After 1 hour, everything was normal and I was having a great time. Suddenly I thought that my feet could freeze because it was very very cold. After this strange thought, I started having an extreme fear, really extreme. First I felt like everything was moving slowly around me and I talked to my french best friend about it, she tried to calm me down and put me to sleep. So I went to the room and when I closed my eyes, I started having some hallucinations such as the ground was made of glass and some people were trying to throw some rocks on me.
So I got back to my friend and I was terrified. She tried to calm me down, saying that everything was going to be ok but at that time, I started having some suicidal thoughts, saying that I wanted everything to be over now and that I'd do anything to stop that terrible feeling. I asked for help and I asked to call the firefighters and my the family who hosted me when I was there. I was shaking, my heart was beating crazy fast, and I'd faint a couple of times. I really thought that I was dying and that I wouldn't be able to live normally again nor continue to study. After probably 3 yours I was tired and I managed to fell asleep. I woke up in the morning and I wasn't feeling like myself so I went home to sleep and I started feeling a bit better. I felt a mild dizziness during the 3/4 next days but it was manageable.
Now I'm back in Brazil and every time I hear the word "weed" or "space cake", or every time I started thinking about this experience, my heart starts beating faster and I feel dizzy again. I know it might be psychological, but what are the chances that the space cake caused permanent brain damages to me? Was it a panic attack? Am I allergic to weed? Any advices? I thought about going to the doctor but drugs are a big taboo in Brazil and even a one-time-thing like my experience can be pursued as a drug addiction. And no need to say that drugs are bad, I'm aware of that but I just need some piece of advice! Sorry for any english mistakes since I'm not a native english speaker.
Thank you in advance!