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I WAS MOLESTED WHEN I WAS 8/ 9 YRS OLD. (NOT) EXACTLY RAPED. HE DID INSERT HIS PENIS INTO ME AND I BLEED A BIT WHEN I WENT HOME BECAUSE I SAW IT ON MY PANTY. I NEVER TOLD MY PARENTS ABOUT THE INCIDENT. I DON'T KNOW WHY, I WAS SCARED AND AFRAID. NOW I AM 16-17 YRS OLD AND WANT TO KNOW IF MY HYMEN IS INTACT ,BECAUSE I RECENTLY RECONNECTED WITH SOMEONE I LOVE AND CARE A LOT ABOUT AND HE ASKED ME IF I'M A VIRGIN SEVERAL TIMES AND I TOLD HIM YES. BUT THEN THE THOUGHT OCCURRED TO ME AND I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO. CAN SOMEONE PLZ HELP ME THAT WOULD BE VERY BENEFICIAL.  

Hi, it really depends if your hymen was fully broken at the time it happened as to weather your bleed or not.
Unless its for cultural or religious reasons you need it to happen I wouldn't worry to much as technically your still a virgin until a penis enters your vagina.
There are also many different ways your hymen can break with out you even realising such as horse riding, riding a bicycle or stretching exercises that work the pelvis and stretch it. :-)
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Hi flawless unique, first off, I am really sorry about what happened to you as a child. I know from personal experience how frightening and confusing you must have been. And it is very common for children not to tell anyone, so don't give yourself a hard time about that. As for your question, while you might not technically be a virgin I think yoy still have the right to consider yourself a virgin because you did not give consent to sex. It was outside of your control. Someone else did something very wrong and evil to you and took away your right to decide what happens with your body. If you had been allowed to choose you would still be a virgin. I believe that if there is a god s/he is more interested in our intentions and our actions than technicalities. What I mean by that is that if you had complete choice you would have chosen to be a virgin up to this point, so that is the mark of your values and ethics. That is what is ultimately most important. Others may choose to disagree with me. I was molested as a child but don't count that as my first sexual experience, in part because it was horrific and in part because I didn't choose it. Your hymen may or may not have been broken, but a broken hymen DOES NOT mean you are not a virgin. A girl's hymen can break in lots of other ways and lots of women do not bleed the first time they gave sex. As to the boy you are interested in, I believe you can tell him you are a virgin if you want to. But please consider letting someone know about the sexual assault and seeking counselling from a professional trained in working with survivors of child sexual assault. The trauma of a sexual assault can have a profound impact on you. In my case it affected me in ways I would never have imagined. I didn't get therapy until I was in my 49s but wish I had done it so much sooner. This is a hard secret to carry and although it is hard talking about it helps. also, relationships are built on trust and when you are in a committed, loving relationship in the future you might want to consider telling your boyfriend or husband. if he truly lives you he will accept thus part if you. Both my ex husband and my current partner have been amazingly supportive and that has meant so much to me. Anyway, take care and all the best. I hope things work out with this boy.
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