Confusion.. I feel like reality is slipping away from me. H

I'm 13 and I started feeling this way when I was 11. It started a little while after I started masturbating. ←I didn't realize that at the time. I have been really scared and when I stopped it masturbating it only helped for a month before it came back. now if I don't masturbate every other day it gets worse. its so confusing and scary and my dad can't help because he doesn't understand(I haven't told anyone about me masturbating, i just told them my symptoms) i still remember when my life did feel real before all of this but I can't feel that way anymore. Im even starting to forget what it was like. all I know now is that im different and i try to just stop doing anything but read or play video games: its just to scary and hard to focus on real life anymore. Help!!!!! I also find myself having to do things more than once or i feel even worse. ive been trying to find an answer to all of this all alone because i dont know who i can trust. my two best friends just think im wierd and they abandoned me. i geuse its too late to tell them anything. im just glad my crush moved away: now she doesn't have to see me like this. i think she liked me back and i don't want her heart broken. i feel so bad i sometimes just keep my eyes closed wherever i go and try to make my way around like that: im too scared to feel like im in a dream anymore and closing my eyes helps for like a minute or so before i feel that way again. please somone help! I will owe you my life and my sanity: ive thought about killing myself before, i even held a kitchen knife to my heart before, and my neck, trying to decide which would hurt less. the only thing that saved me was hope. but i need help... and ill try to help you too if we ever meet, but until either of us ends this we need to find an answer: a cure. ill try to tell you if i find one, but if you find one can you tell me? ill try to tell everyone has this same problem. by the way... in case anyone i know is reading this, i live in white pine mi. theyll probably know who i am and this would be alot easier to tell them than face to face.

first of all take it all out, you can trust your doctor or psychiatrist, you'll feel a lot better with sharing your problems. you're not alone, i think the whole world is changing mentaly and spiritualy put your bad feelings aside and try to start living a new life better life, believe in good and good things will happen, don't let fear consume you. it must be hard i understand, i am fighting it myself

I feel the exact same almost. I'll be with my friends messing around and stuff. Then out of nowhere I feel like I'm in a dream and everything is so unbelivably new. Then when I snap back to reality I know the way I felt and when I tell people no one cares. If anyone knows what this is please post the illness. It scares me sometimes and just knowing I snap out of reality really frightens I might not know what I'm doing. When I'm walking and go into the state I keep walking and don't stop until I come back to reality. I'll stop speaking when it happens then I forget what I was saying.

Hi, i know the feeling, i got it a lot before when i was falling into depression, i would even feel like i was having an out of body experience like i couldn't even fully control my body like watching a TV show as you said, i actually felt like i was sitting inside my brain further back from my eyes than usual, i also got a lot of problems with memory, i could be in a class at school and start day-dreaming and the next thing i know i am walking in a corridor or standing at my locker, i had that happen a lot to me, i became more and more detached from the world over 2 years and hit "rock-bottom" i attempted suicide and luckily failed. i am not certain but it may be a sign that you are becoming depressed a good idea is to add something new to your life even if it is a pet or a hobby, something new that requires focus may help to " bring you back to reality" :)

i hope this helps :) Rory Dineen. 

It's NOT depersonalization.

You're NOT going crazy. I know exactly what you mean, but for me I haven't felt suicidal but I have felt like my life was ending physically, many times. Today (Dec 10,2013) I couldn't tell you what reality I was in, I mean I could see everything normally but the "me" felt like it was in another "dimension", for a lack of better words. Now the best advice I can give is to FEEL and think the words Well being. Feel and think the word Happy. And just remember we attract ALL of what we perceive in our lives... so take courage and dare to enjoy these changes in your life. :-) Many blessings to you :-)

I am 14 yrs old and i have read every comment that people has wrote on here i feel exactly like this i feel like im stuck between reality and a dream and i feel like this all the time but heres the thing sometimes ill be sittin down and ill see smoke coming from my pants but its only one line of smoke and nobody smokes around me plus i dont smoke myself,also my dad is schitsophrenic i think thats how you spell it but im scared im going crazy somone please help me message me on facebook if u have any suggestions my name is trey wohner i dont know how to get on my actual email

I think the bottom line is that are brains are trying to scare us like a wake up call. I've learned when I'm anxious it is because I am not doing what I want. When I start doing what the real me wants the anxiety gets better. Once you can name anxiety it begins to dig you out of the grave of depression. Your digging tool is real purpose.

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It sounds like depersonalization you have. Don't know if you still feel that way but if you do it may be beneficial that you know depersonalization is a real disorder where your perception of the things around you feels almost unreal and you constantly feel far from reality. Almost like you are dreaming as you said. This is usually a form of depression/anxiety. The best way to deal with depersonalization is to not treat it like a problem- don't let it control you- While I was suffering from it I'd constantly read articles and theories on the matter and all I was doing was making the it worse by treating it like a problem. Go out, socialize, do whatever you gotta do to keep you active or make you happy. Make sure you don't let it hold you back. There may be times where you might want to stay home depending on the severity of the problem but make sure you fight it. Become MAD and DETERMINED to fight it. Treat it as a small obstacle you need to overcome. It's always good to go out into nature as it will make you feel more connected and in tune with yourself. Meditating is also good if you're up for it. I hope this helps x

I have heard vitamin therapy can be helpful for depression - particularly niacin - youtube abram hoffer and get as much information on it before making a decision - I am considering it for myself

You are all just wasting your bloody times .. Its just that you guys are idle .. The quote an idle mind is a devils workshop is exactly applicable to your situation . wake up start working and doing things that you're supposed to do . the solution to your problems is contain yourself with something . DONT BE IDLE . ITLL f**k YOU AND YOUR MIND . chill the f**k out ppl . peace ✌

Exactly me. I used to be the most out going person and had so much to look forward to but as soon as I got to college everything got fuzzy and reality seems to come and go. I catch myself talking to myself about my thoughts. I also rarely talk to my friends about relevant things. Most of the time I can't keep concentration because I'm so lost in my thoughts, and these thoughts are random. I also have to sit down and try to remember my day. Idk what it is but I just stay confused.

Ive had this same problem since I could remember and I dont think it goes away but I do know that adderall helps you focus a little more on reality.

lol u r funny