This may turn out to be a long post but I need to get this out.
I'm 16 years old and I started smoking weed around September 15th, 2011. Before I started I told myself that I wouldn't make this a daily thing, I'd only smoke on the weekends, and that I wouldn't smoke large amounts; then I got high for the first time. It was so great. Before weed I was that person that always had a lot of friends but still was always self conscious and kinda unconfident (sounds dumb doesn't it?). But I got high and had the most confidence ever, I felt so great I couldn't believe it. I woke up the next morning remembering what a great experience I had the night before and I knew I had to replicate that after school (the once a weekend thing just went totally out the window and I didn't even notice until very recently!). For about the next 3 days I tried to get high but it would always just be a slight buzz. Then I learned the proper inhalation technique and was back to getting high. I eventually learned how to make weed noodles and that's when I got my first bad high (I put too much in and I was still a beginner). Like an id**t I made weed noodles 2 more times, I didn't get high though because the last time scared me so much that I didn't put enough in those times lol. I think I had one more bad high that month. I smoked about 7 times that month and only got high twice
By the end of September I convinced myself weed made me a much better and fun to be around person (it did to be honest). And in October I smoked with one of my friends. He rolled up a blunt and we went through the whole blunt. I know that sounds like a baby amount to you older and more experienced guys but I was just starting out and that was too much for me. While I was in the car with him I felt good, just a regular high. Then I told him to drop me off at home (my favorite thing to do was to listen to music by myself), so I was amped to get home and just rock out. AS SOON as I walked in the door I felt a bad high coming on, I tried to ignore it and went to heat up a steak my mom had made. I couldn't even eat it I felt sick, dizzy, tired, and like the world was spinning. So I went to sleep for like 4 hours. I felt fine the next day but I spaced out smoking to every other day for about a week. I didn't have a lot of weed so when I ran out I had to stop for two weeks (didn't have the money) but I didn't go through ANY withdrawal symptoms except cravings (which wasn't that bad). I started back after those two weeks were over, and over the course the rest of that month I only hit two blunts (again between me and another person) and smoked out of my Gatorade bong about 2 times. I guess I smoked about 6 times that month and got high all 6 times.
November..... when I look back this is when my addiction peaked, I wasn't even aware of how addicted I was then, fortunately I quit that month. I also noticed my tolerance was very high by this time so I had to smoke more. I went with my friend to buy some weed again and we did our regular "roll a blunt in the car and smoke until it's gone" thing. My high wasn't scary this time 'cause I was so used to it. With the rest of the weed I started to make firecrackers so I wouldn't have to smoke. The first one I made was a pleasant high, the second one I didn't even get high, and the third one, on November 17th, 2011, was my absolute worst high ever. I bought it to school and ate it in my first block. At first I was thinking "Well that was a waste of weed" because I didn't even feel high, then after 45 minutes I felt a buzz, then after an hour I was high as the planets. But it was TOO high. I started thinking I was using the bathroom on myself so I went to the bathroom to check (I didn't, Thank God) and on my way I felt like I was walking with a sack of c**p in my pants, I mean it felt so real. Then I went to my next class (the walk was horrible) and while I was in my second block I texted my mom to ask her to pick me up 'cause I was "sick". It's like I'd think things were happening that weren't; like my aunt asked did I need some medicine and I said no but after a couple of seconds I started to think I might have just yelled at her (I didn't though). I stopped smoking until Thanksgiving (again no withdrawals whatsoever, I felt perfectly normal) that's where I ruined myself I think. I smoked as soon as I woke up because I wanted to loosen up around my family and have a good time. I could control myself if I didn't get too high. So everything was good until noon. My cousin knows I (did) smoke so he did the cousinly thing and let me smoke a blunt with him. Even though I had already smoked that morning I look up to my cousin so much that I couldn't say no to such an opportunity. So when the blunt was done I didn't feel high AT ALL, I just took it as I couldn't get any higher than I already was. Then around 7 pm when I was in the kitchen with my family I started to feel like the high was just coming on AND IT WAS SCARY, not because I felt the high took that long to come but I felt derealization (I didn't know what the feeling was called until a month later). It was so scary, it wasn't like my other bad highs either, it was like I wasn't real. I figured I should sleep it off. I slept for 2 hours and woke up feeling exactly the same. I felt the same for the rest of the day. Sometime between that Thursday - Monday I felt normal again because after school on Monday, 11/28 I smoked again and my high was only for like 30 minutes and was more like a buzz. I haven't smoked since. I wasn't planning on quitting though. The only reason I stopped was because I wanted my eyes to stop being red and I wanted to be able to open them lol. I was gonna start back on January 14th, 2012. I consumed marijuana in one way or another about 12 times that month and I got high about 10 times that month
I woke up on 11/29 feeling like I was still buzzed from the weed which was odd because the night before before I went to sleep I felt fine. But I took it as being still buzzed. It continued for about a week but it went away around December 12th. Fast forward to December 20th. The feeling just came out of nowhere and I knew I had to get to the bottom of it. I wanted to leave school so bad. On December 21st I researched and learned what I was feeling was derealization and that it could be caused by smoking weed. I started regretting my decisions so much, I just wanted to get back to normal. On December 26th I decided to do more research and found out the derealization/anxiety, headaches, sleepiness, and insomnia (weird because I'm sleepy throughout the day) I was having was caused by weed withdrawals. On New Years Eve I mad a promise to God that I wouldn't smoke weed or do any drugs for at least the whole year of 2012 because I can't really speak for myself and what I'll do past 2012.
So here I am, January 7th, 2012. I'm 40 days sober and I still have some derealization/anxiety, my headaches are long gone, my sleepiness is still there some, my insomnia is gone I think, my vivid dreams are slowly fading, my short term memory is a bit better, and I'm still depressed some (only because Idk if I'll ever be back to my normal self again). I made a promise to God today that I'm never smoking weed again. I never wanna go through withdrawals again. I hate feeling this way.
My question is will I ever be back to normal after a while? I mean I only smoked for a little over two months, but then I start to think I smoked way too much to be a rookie and that it permanently fried my brain because it was too much. I want to note that besides Thanksgiving I've never smoked more than once a day and never smoked more than 3 or 4 times a week. I probably smoked 26 times between those 2 1/2 months. It's just that I think I shouldn't still be going through this because I only smoked for such a short amount of time. I do feel like I'm getting better but I feel like I'm stuck where I'm at in this withdrawal stage forever.
I'm sorry for the story book. But it would mean a lot to me if at least one person reads this and responds. At least the last 5 paragraphs. I just feel hopeless and that this is the new me forever
Hi,
I'm 15 years old and have been smoking weed for about 1 year. Back in September, I smoked some crazy stuff and had a bad panic attack. I heard loud noises in my head, like cars crashing, it was real bad. Ever since then, I've felt... different. It's like I can't think normal and everything is not happening. I still smoked after that, but now I can't stand it. I'm now quitting and going to try and chance. I just pray to God that this will go away. I can't stand being in this dream-like mindset. I'm glad I came across this forum, really helped me a lot. Thanks everyone.
Hey, I've experienced a similar thing you did a while back, I was 16- Junior year of high school, and I ate some brownies. Well....those were wayyyyy too strong, during the high I felt like I was in a strobe light version of reality- thing's didn't make sense, I lost my sense of self, and whatnot. BUT the important and horrible effect didn't hit me til a week later, when I was about to go to bed in my own room and out of nowhere panic and anxiety hits me- I felt disjointed from reality, I felt like life was meaningless, that the my life was a futile nothingness in the infiniteness of existence, and basically had REALLY bad existential anxiety. Well, long story short YOU CAN MAKE IT GO AWAY!!! I did, it took a long time, but take each day as it comes, It took me about 6-8 months to get better. Basically (I now know this because I'm a biology major, and a minor in psychology) you have drug-induced anxiety, everything you're feeling is just the symptom of an anxiety disorder. Yes, there is some truth to the thoughts that you are having, but it's not all that there is (like it is true that one's life is small in the context of time as a whole). So here's what I recommend.
1) Stop all current illicit drug use.
2) Get plenty of sleep but not too much (oversleeping can perpetuate depression- max of 9-10 hours, but preferably 8)
3) Keep up with a healthy social life.
4) Take a multivitamin.
5) If you're having suicidal thoughts, call a helpline, (Boystown National Hotline is great, I used it in the midst of my DP/DR).
6) Go to a spa/chiropractor/acupuncturist
7) Take each day as it comes
8) Try not to obsess about it.
1) Stop all current illicit drug use.
2) Get plenty of sleep but not too much (oversleeping can perpetuate depression- max of 9-10 hours, but preferably 8)
3) Keep up with a healthy social life.
4) Take a multivitamin.
5) If you're having suicidal thoughts, call a helpline, (Boystown National Hotline is great, I used it in the midst of my DP/DR).
6) Go to a spa/chiropractor/acupuncturist
7) Take each day as it comes
8) Try not to obsess about it.
I've read so many of these posts and I have to say you guys either smoked some laced sh*t, or you're just nucking futs. I've smoked since I was 14 on a daily basis, I'm 19 now, just finished a gap year where I was toking all day(stopped now and then for a couple of weeks when I didn't have extra money on top of my bills). Anyway, I finished high school in the top 20% of my class. Weed doesn't have any long term effects on it's own.
Most of you over-indulged while you had the munchies, am I right? Over-processed foods is the root of a lot of psychological problems. Start eating healthy.
Most of you used weed as an excuse to be lazy, am I right? Start hitting the gym at least 3 times a week.
If you're just gonna sit around all day eating c**p and being lazy YOU WILL BECOME DEPRESSED, YOU WILL FEEL ANXIETY AND YOU WILL BECOME PARANOID. Those are just facts, stop blaming weed for your own shortcomings!
Furthermore, you bible-huggers, stop trying to turn everyone to God, FAITH IS NOT A CHOICE! You can't believe in something simply because you want to.
Most of you over-indulged while you had the munchies, am I right? Over-processed foods is the root of a lot of psychological problems. Start eating healthy.
Most of you used weed as an excuse to be lazy, am I right? Start hitting the gym at least 3 times a week.
If you're just gonna sit around all day eating c**p and being lazy YOU WILL BECOME DEPRESSED, YOU WILL FEEL ANXIETY AND YOU WILL BECOME PARANOID. Those are just facts, stop blaming weed for your own shortcomings!
Furthermore, you bible-huggers, stop trying to turn everyone to God, FAITH IS NOT A CHOICE! You can't believe in something simply because you want to.
Hi. Obviously, smoking weed will make you high and alter your consciousness. Depersonalization will or might occur depending on how long has he smoked or how much has he smoked but will eventually end once he has stopped smoking. This depersonalization is not permanent because it will only be due to the fact that he is high. Cannabis is a psychoactive drug. It may be a depressant or a stimulant. It all depends on the person.
okay, so a few months ago i had a similar experience, i was at a halloween party, i drank a bit. and eventually i smoked maybe half a blunt. ( it was a fatty though!) lol anyway, before this night i had regularly smoked but recently i had started to get more paranoied, i would have good highs and bad highs, anyway. i smoked that night, and i just kinda freaked out. i remembered i was just wanting to be unhigh! soooo bad! it was a pretty big party and i ended up avoiding everyone completely, i remember i had 2 buddies there that were kinda clownin on me cause i was just actin funny-- this made it worse-- i felt extremely awkward and out of place, ugh, even thinking about it makes me just feel uneasy. anyway i eventually felt sick. i threw up, ( wasn't even drunk enough) and i just tried to sleep it off. anyway, for the next few days i felt like, un connected, awkward, completely weird! i hated this feeling, i remember going to one of my college math courses and the math that i was learning was like.. WAYYY hard! i couldn't get it! i started lookin online for answeres, i came across a post that said if you THINK you are ill, you are ill, or something like that. anyway i convinced myself that once i got it out of my system i would be coo. im a pretty active guy. i spent the next week or so going out on regular jogs ( to boost endorphin levels, this helped, as the days passed i found that i spent less and less time with this feeling. and after going to the gym alot ( a place im EXTREMELY comfortable with) the anxiety, weird, anitsocial, awkward feeling subsided, anyway, im just wanting to let anyone out there know that it gets better! i have NO more anxiety, and haven't for alteast 6 weeks. i know how good this will sound to anyone who is going through the same thing. some tips though! find someone you are close with, who won't judge you, and tell him/her about it... don't go get on any prescribed drugs. you ARE normal, you just had a bad trip. i honestly would LIKE to smoke again and have my good highs. butttt im kinda too scared to get that anxiety feeling and it end up being permanent. i told myself, " okay, if i get better i am never smoking again" so far, im better, and im glad. anyway, i hope this helped someone..
alright, LISTEN UP! I dealt with this, when someone says, its just YOU acting paranoid. it isn't.. it is a FACT that weed today is 10x stronger than what it was in the 60's 70's.. be carefull with this sh*t. i had the same thing happen to me. i smoked at this party, and i felt f*****g weird! i tripped, i felt so un connected, i just wanted to sleep it off and be normal. i spent thee next 2 weeks just stressing about it. i felt soo weird, so awkward, antisocial. i started to run alot. it boosted my endorphins and i felt better, but it would keep coming back, i looked online and found similar experiences, it helped me SOOO much! you ARE alright, stop worrying you WILL get out of this, you should stop smoking, seriously, stick to alcohol! :) lol kidding. anyway-- its been 6 weeks since i've felt like that, so i like to believe im cured. but listen, find someone you trust, someone who won't judge you or think your weird, cause your not. you just had a bad trip, keep telling yourself that, it makes it easier, learn to laugh at yourself a bit, like "haha, i just was trippin, im cool now!" lol it sounds dumb, but it helps. trust me...
Hey friends, after reading a lot of these posts on this thread I really wanted to share with a few of you the way to overcome a lot of the weird feelings that can crop up after quitting weed. The fact in my case is I had smoked quite regularly for about 8 years of my life. It definitely turned into a form of self medication and towards my current mid 20s I can definitely feel the void without using it. This is the main point that a lot of you are experiencing. A void that used to be filled with weed is now open. You need to realize this fact and realize that while weed is an awesome plant that we have the chance of using it can get to a point where it takes away from our lives. So while we used weed to fill a void in our lives we are now experiencing the void without it. It's perfectly normal and natural to have the feelings you're having. What you need to do first and foremost is if you have stopped smoking for whatever reason it may be that you gotta try and truly quit and get on with your life. In this way you will slowly but surely overcome your anxiety and out of it feelings. The way in which you do this is by now filling your void of not having weed with healthy lifestyle choices. Some lifestyle choices that you can make to fill the void such are exercise, reading, writing in a journal by positively expressing your feelings as well as noting the downer moments, and the one I strongly recommend is to fond someone or a therapist to talk to about your life. I mean using some anti anxiety medication can surely help and I do suggest using them if need be but the way you will truly overcome your void is by facing it and knocking it down. It won't be easy but slowly but surely you will become stronger and have healthy tools to combat situations in life. If you're in a moment that you feel stuck in just know that you can overcome it by talking with someone you trust and love who knows your situation and knows that you are depending on them as in a way your mentor,sponsor or your dependent. It is healthy to depend on someone in your time of need and it's also important to know that if you can't get ahold of them that you will still be ok. I know that we all have our own view on the world around us but trusting in God is a serious dependent and knowing that he will always take care of you and forgive you. Going to church, writing to God and praying can truly save you. Just remember that in any situation you're in you can step out and take a breather, call a friend, using breathing exercises that you have already practiced, chewing gum, using medication, and trusting yourself will always help. Drink plenty of water, eat healthy natural foods, meditate, exercise regularly and most importantly enjoy life. Fill that void friends and each hurdle will be easier and easier to get over. I love you all and I hope this helps anyone in need. For those of you starting to smoke and getting into it I can only urge you to do it moderately and if you ever feel like it's getting in the way of who you van be without it you should stop. We all have to learn our own lessons in life and God willing you are smart about your choices and be a good person. Everyday is a blessed day and try you're best, some days will
be tough and you might fail but you can always make it right by holding onto God and good tidings. With love Mack!
you siir have the correct aproach to this whole situation. I like all of you have sufferred from the anxiety brought up by weed. The only way to get back is to stop thinking and start doing. You need to understand that whatever you're doing you're good at it and what everyone else thinks is completely irrelevant. Just strut your sh*t and don't give a f**k in other words
Hey can I talk to you about weed,anxiety?
Go right ahead friend!
Hey guys i need your help i got anxiety from smoking weed ive tried everything i even prayed! I feel like i get high when i havent smoked inawhile i got it 3 weeks ago will it ever go away? i mean like if i tell my parents ill go to rehab so they cannot know! im realy scared im only 13 i regret it! if i stop smoking will it go away? i try excercising i run outa breathe to fast i eat alot of junkfood so ima layoff that and i drink soda ima lay off caffiene please reply i need help!
Hey I had a bad trip like alittle over 2 months ago and have had anxiety ever seens and some time random panic attacks but the last time I had a panic attack was like 4 weeks and it wasn't all that bad. And I all so have stop smoking just to let you know. I just have anxiety and I tend to think a lot about it. But I think I'm getting better so are you back to ur normal self, I know its hard to go back normal after something affect this much but r u better?
I'm totally back to my normal self at this point friend...I mean in a way you will always be a little different than you were before because now I'm totally clear headed and I don't feel the need to alter myself by smoking or anything else for that matter. So it's a huge wave of relief once you get to this point and trust me you WILL get to this point. It's all baby steps and understanding that the anxiety is just a hurdle you need to get over. Now every now and then I'll feel a little anxious but nothing detrimental and I ALWAYS overcome them now where as before I would get so anxious that I would need lay down. The real fact of the matter is that it will go away and it always goes away. Thats what you need to remind yourself. This will pass I will overcome this and it's all about taking baby steps against your anxiety. So say in my case I was getting anxious whenever I would go to large crowded areas but the more I went to large crowded areas the stronger I became against my false feelings. We ALL get anxious in the world everyone has their moments, even those who are totally sober and never have done a drug in their life. It's just something we ALL have to conquer and when you conquer a few of your fears and anxieties you will feel great. Just keep active, if you like a particular sport go out and do it when at a point in the day that you have the most energy. For me it's biking and last week I rode so much that by then end of my session I was exhausted and not to a point thats unhealthy but yea know I was getting tired and I do jumps and tricks and all that stuff so when I noticed I was slipping a bit on my turns and landings I said ok I'm good for the day. Went home relaxed drank a lot of water, ate a sandwich and went to bed. I slept for over 10 hours that night and it felt great. Weeks before this point I could barely get through a night with a good sleep. But the fact is weeks before where I'm at now was all about going out being active, writing down my thoughts, reading an uplifting book (in my case I'm religious so I read the bible as well), cleaned the house, yea know just keep busy at your own pace. When you're not feeling too good talk to a friend about how you're feeling, talk to your girlfriend, wife, brother, sister whoever it is that can just be there for you and talk to you about how you're doing. Have someone come over every now and then to hang out who can just talk with you or be active with them by working out or going out and doing something fun. You gotta chip away your anxiety and increasingly face them and do those exact things that make you anxious but at your own pace. So again for me the more and more I went to large crowded areas the more I overcame that fear. Your mind will settle down too, I mean I enjoy my days thoroughly now. Eliminate stresses in your life, if you have a long commute with a bunch of crazy drivers on the highway try going the scenic route. Stressors and Anxieties are different things so eliminate unnecessary stressors like unfortunate friends that still smoke around you, bad tv like bad news channels that are aimed at stressing our lives out, yea know stuff that just makes all of us annoyed in life ; ). The main jist is mix things up in your life in a HEALTHY way (If you have a project or something you've been meaning to do in the house but keep putting it off DO IT!). It's ok to get into a way of doing things but not if its going to just avoid the way you feel cause you need to put yourself in perspective and talking and writing truly help a lot. Smoking, drugs whatever people do they are doing these things and avoiding how they are actually feeling and replacing it with a high. The fact is we all have our ups and downs and being clean and getting healthy by eating GOOD NATURAL food and exercising help. The REAL action to the matter overall is to understand how you're feeling. Why you feel that way and how you can overcome an anxiety or a false perception that you just haven't come to understand and then break through that wall. Its a huge and awesome feeling talking things out with a close friend or even a therapist. I really hope this helps friend and trusttt meee it feels awesome being totally clear headed and in control and getting sooo much more things done in your life. Life is beautiful go out and enjoy it and truly appreciate it. If you have a bad day or let yourself down just remember you have tomorrow and the more you chip at today the more tomorrow will welcome you! Take care friend!
Hey buddy! You're totally fine friend. If you stopped smoking it will totally go away buddy! Don't worry about a thing you're so young and your body and mind will bounce back much quicker than an adult who has been doing this stuff for years. You're also probably over thinking about a lot of things because thats what anxiety does to you. It makes you think about stuff you shouldn't even be bothered with and stresses you out. So when that happens just remind yourself this is silly I'm fine, go write in a journal, talk to a friend or relative, go outside and take in the fresh air any of these will help. Now I gotta tell you though you need to talk to someone about this and yes praying does help friend! It brought you to me and here I' am helping you out with what I've gone through myself. Now regarding the high feeling we all get high in life especially when we are happy and even a runners high can give you the sensation of a high (so a natural high and the sensation of being high off of smoke are kind of similar in a way so don't stress out when you're in a happy state and feeling good about yourself totaly natural!). If you've stopped and you want these feelings to go away you have to stop COMPLETELY. You will prolong the process of overcoming it if you keep doing it. Avoid those friends that do it or get you into it cause they will only make it harder on you. At your age kids will be pushy so you might need to avoid them totally cause if they get on you about smoking or trying to have you smoke when you've told them you quit thats just not cool. If you have a friend that you can talk to without them being judgmental talk to them. Write in a journal how you're feeling and try and put it in perspective but you've got to talk to someone about it as well. YOU HAVE TO STOP SMOKING THOUGH. Otherwise it will keep coming back and it will just take longer for you to overcome this thing. If you need to talk more buddy you just let me know and I will help you out of every stage of this ok? This is totally something you will overcome and overcome fast at your age especially. Just keep active, write in a journal, talk to a friend you can trust or a relative you can count on, and let me know how things are going for you ok? Anytime you gotta make a reply just let me know and no one will judge you here especially me. Take care buddy and I'll say some prayers for you to help you get through this. Be strong and chip away at this one step at time. The more baby steps you take against this the stronger you will become. Soon enough you will realize whoa I'm totally fine and all that over thinking is behind me! You just gotta stay away from the junk food NO CAFFEINE AT ALL until this over. That stuff won't help and eat good foods, ask your ma for a healthy meal and keep active buddy it will pass fast!