This post is five years old. It'd be nice if someone could come back & update lol. I read all 17 pages & other than a few guys discussing weight and JUST physical effects of weed, no one has updated but the best thing about it is the positive stories people put here that tells you basically 'chill, you'll be okay' but in a better way! So the thing that sucks is I typed this almost two paragraph story out (wasn't even done yet) & then my comp froze and it restarted and I was like no I'm finishing that story cause that will not be wasted time, lol. So don't stop reading yet, I'm getting there, though this will be long. SUPER LONG. But I figured there will be tons more people over the next months googling & looking for answers. Already on here you have a ton.
I'm 21 years old. (female) A fairly introverted person, always been a little depressed, thats something I realized later. & I'm super shy. (Have a weird ability to cover it up sometimes and pretend I'm not, maybe that's confidence? lol) I've always been like that, but for some reason before 18 I feel like my thoughts were always jumbled & my life was a fog, lol it wasn't but it's just like looking back at it it seems like I never thought clearly but really it was just that I wasn't an adult or thinking in a grown up way. Weird that a 16 year old would seem to not think like at least somewhat an adult, right? I was mature, yes, thought yes, it just feels like now, I was immature. Idk I'll shut up about it cause it doesn't make sense. lol. Anyways, I smoked weed for the first time at 13, didn't get high, so I was like 'that's being high? there's no way high can be meaning they're just the same way' lol so it was weird. I've always been a silly person and laughed a lot so I thought if I was high i'd be ten times more, lol. But I didn't smoke again til about almost two years later, again no effect. In my junior year, I tried it twice, w no mental affects besides sleepiness. So I just thought that maybe it wasn't for me, or just don't know how to smoke right lol so I just didn't care for it anymore. Never thought about trying again either.
When I was younger I had no freedom, til about 17 my mom let me go out SOMETIMES, barely anything and only with my sister and to one friends house or church activites or with my church friends. She wasn't religious, it was cause she trusted them. So when I hit 18, I just went loose. I didn't go crazy, but I went out a lot. I remember smoking weed for the frist time after high school, I wasn't paranoid, I just felt relaxed, I had no desire to talk at all, not thinking someone would laugh, but because I didn't want to. I just wanted to chill. But the next time I was high, it was intense. I was smoking a lot and just like I remember we were driving and the houses that would pass by looked like homes you see in a scary children book, and goblins would pop out. I know weed isn't a hallucigen so either it was laced, or my mind was really just going crazy. I didn't feel disconnected, everything just felt weird. And the car at every turn felt like it was going to spin and not stop, but I knew it wasnt so I wasn't scared about it. I just think my face must have looked weird though lol. we got to my friend's house and we decided to put the weed in this weird part of this hooka thing & smoke through the pipes so I was like okay, lemme take this to a whole nother level. So I took a long pipe thingy and so did my other friend, but only one was working and it was mine. i almost smoked the rest of the blunt until I realized it was only me getting it. And my little mind couldn't handle it lol my friend's face looked like it was melting and I must have looked like a retarded child lol. But my friends were so understanding they were just like you're just the highest you ever been and probably will ever get so we just laughed about it. I never felt a weed hangover or anything just normal.
So anytime I smoked after that I would just get quiet though, tingly body, sometimes weird things happen. I felt like I could see people for who they really were, even though it went away when the high did. and a little bit paranoid and decided maybe it's the environment so I decided I'll only smoke when I'm with my boyfriend (at the time) who i am 100 % comfy with and I always liked the high, but not to do it all hte time. Or at home, where I know if I gett paranoid, my mom is right there. For a while, I'd only smoke after I drink. If I was sober first and smoking with a friend, I smoked with a friend iI knew got quiet like me or laugh at stupid things with me cause it was comfortable. Not awkward, we'd watch movies, or laugh, lol. For about 6 months I didn't smoke, but I drank and stuff. I went through a bad break up which led to depression (I've been in and out depressed phases before) & eventually a few months ago, got over the depression. So, in July, I was happy, just doing what I'm doing, had a new boyfriend, all that. I moved in with my bestfriend and spent a week just high watching movies and stuff. It was nice. Never paranoid just wanted to smoke alone. Never got a crazy silly high, just a super thoughful one that got annoying. I wouldn't say I felt disconnected, just depressed. Then I think it made me think about so many negative things. Like why do I have to be the one that got stuck with the messed up life? all my negative events just got caught up in my head. Then I question things about myself, why am I so weird? Why am I so shy? Why am I soo depressed? I've always been the one to overanalyze and overthink and make things worse than they are. I've always been emotional. i stopped smoking for two weeks, felt not depressed, but down. (Not exactly DP/DR either) not even close. I felt so aware of everyone around me and question like why does the world care for petty drama? Why does it seem like there isn't a point to anything? Then I began criticizing movies, like why would they make the actors say that, no one says that in real life, no one has these weird looks and sayings they do. And it kinda set me off. I deicded to move back home, my mom didn't mind, so I spent the past four days (as of the other night) high. I'd wake up, let my day pass, do some online school work (High, or not, I refuse to go to college in person, I have always had social anxiety and didn't wanna deal with it) enjoy time w my siblings, we're really close. And then around 1 am, go smoke a whole blunt to myself. Then go to bed at maybe 5 am wake up around 1, do the same thing. My highs were just too philisophical it scared me, like whyyyyyyy to everything then TV seemed so fake, but so real! Like, why did you just kill someone and walk away? Lol I was like you should be emotionally messed up for killing somsone, but no the guy on the TV was like walking away and jus tliving life and I was like OMG so inhumane! So it made me more weird. Then I read up why I was still thinking these things even when I'm sober. Like now it's always in the back of my head. Then I really freaked myself out thinking I was convicing myself that I have some disorder, but really I just didn't give myself any time to get the THC out of my system, LOL. I just need to stop smoking, which is easy for me, like I wanna do it, but I'm not dying to so I know its upstairs in my dresser but I don't wanna smoke so I can leave it there. It freaked me out, like I was always thinking, omg my sister probably always thinks I look weird. Or what if I'm really a reatrded person and everyone is just being nice? Lol. I'm an awkward person, but not retarded, and my sisters know that. I'm laying of the weed for a while, going to get myself into excersicing and just do happy things, I know my mind will stop being so THERE lol like it's just tooo aware and I need to chill, but bcause I'm kinda depressed lately it just stays. I gotta find a balance & I will cause u guys gave me hope. I'm always going to be a naturally depressed person, that just comes out when things trigger it, like weed, or something happning that is emotional in my life.
AS FOR THE DP/DR - I was terrfied I had it. Until I read more posts and I'm like '...what?' I know I'm here, I don't feel weird, or like I'm in a fog, I feel fine. Just these freakin OCD thoughts. I know what DP/DR feels like. When I was little it started. I would think too much then I would scare myself and say 'what if I'm not here? what if we are really dreaming?' then I'd feel it for a moment and me and my sisters start freaking out then it goes away and anytime I stare in the mirror too long I can trigger it but I don't cause I hate the feeling. I'd get it A LOT. It wouldn't let me sleep at night at all. I'd beg my mom to let me sleep w her, but that was a no, lol. She thought I was just being a chicken but really I was just scared of life! And not feeling real lol but I was too scared to even talk about when my other sisters were sleeping. So even when I was little I'd distract it cause that feeling is NOT real. It's your mind just thinking too much and then you think it's true or you get wrapped in it. To this day, I get that feeling, it's not just because you smoked weed. It's something that's always been there that weed triggered. Like depression. Or schizophrena (sorry to scare you, but you are not schitzo) I say that because I had a best friend, who had a horrible trip (not even from weed) & went to a crazy home, probably like 3 times in the past year & now he's diagnosed bipolar. And again, sorry to scare you, you are not bipolar. I'm just saying, if you're living life everyday and knowing nothing is wrong with you and being aware of your problem even if you are scared, you're okay lol. This friend of mine thinks he's normal, but he isn't. I wish I could show you his FB page so you know you're not crazy so you have something to compare it to but I can't. Seriously though, take these posts and think positively. Don't think about it, but coming from an obsessive thinking person, I know that's hard, but when I get into the zone on my books (HUGE BOOK LOVER) I know I'm okay, cause I didn't think about my depression for a minute. (and depression does give u alot of the same feelings that dp/dr give). If someone on here says they had it for a month and got better, or a year and got better than take that and say you'll get better. No not say, do. I haven't smoked since last night and already 26 hours later, I'm just like telling myself to shut up. I know I still got things to work on but really this whole situation will only make you aware of yourself. I can already tell how this is going to make me ten times better. Don't go see a therapist. Talk to a friend, if you can't , like I acn't then post your own experience on here and remind someone that there are other people and you're trying and you kinow you will get there. Already this even makes me feel better, but I'm not doing it for just myself, I'm doing it cause I know that sounds good to hear. I mean, I know I gotta see a therapist, my depression and social anxiety go way beyong smoking weed. All this weed did was make me self aware and yes, a little depressed. I'm stopping cause I want that good high back though i probably won't ever get it and because I want happiness. I keep wondering, where is my emotion? It's there! It's just hard to get to right now. Lemme get this THC out of my system first lol. Idk, it's either the lingering THC or it's the depression, either way, I'm going to get better and so will you. I did something creepy, someone put an email on here in their story so I put it in the Facebook search and looked for them and the girl looked happy, had a boyfriend and all! She got over it! All you're doing is making things worse, just like I am , just like she did, and everyone else. CHILL. I don't recommend turning to God or prayer. I personally don't believe in it, but think about that happy life you want & GO FOR IT. THINK about how everything is real, you're not in a dream, or parallel world. Lol. I know it sucks to try but really, like if you do say it loud and you think someone thinks you're crazy, explain it like ALMOST a permanent deja vu but also tell them you know you'll get better then you say it loud to someone, then you start to really believe it, cause it's true! the only thing coming from this, is better you and s much more self aware which as a teenager, that's a lucky thing to be. Most people don't know themselves til they're twenties. I just became more self aware this year and I'm 21. What did you stirve for before? You wanted to be a teacher? Think about the feeling you had before, watch a movie that deals with teachers, not depressing though, and that feeling will come back to you. If you're over 21, (hyporcritcal of me, I know) go get drunk and see if that will bring you out of this fog your mind has put you in. I'm going out to get drinks this weekend with my friends, I'm a little nervous thinking that somsone is going to say I seem different, but it's in my head. Depression is something you can come out of without meds, you gotta be strong enough. A week ago, I wasn't excited about my new relationship. but everyday my feelings come back in spurts and it feels great. I'm rambling. Just know you're not alone, it gets better. Weed isn't for everyone, either quit al together or quit for a little, smoke a bowl with more than yourself and take a hit like every five minutes to level it out, not every time you exhale & do something FUN when you're sober. And take long enough breaks for no THC, be in a happy environment when you do smoke. It'll all get better! I hate when people say that, but it's cause it's not here yet, but it will be here. You know how you do something embarrassing and for a week it might be all you think about but in a month you will realize you weren't even thinking about it for three weeks? That's what it will feel like. I won't know what all of you are going through and this is too long to even read for most lol but if it helped you, then write something here for someone else to read, more stories they read, that are positive happier they will be and easier their recovery for this will be. Maybe I'm just a good listener and always genuinely wanna help out lol I did just spend an hour reading all 17 posts and an hour typing this lolol. Good luck, seriously. Things have to get worse, before they better. You'll be okaY & see you come out either how you were before or a better person :))
I smoked quite a lot of a weed two months ago and had a really strong panic attack, felt really weird and detatched for the next two days but then felt fine for the week after then suddenly on a bus with my boyfriend I had a really strong panic attack again and ever since ive had depersonalization and derealisation most days. It's been two months now and i'm having some good days and some bad but in the past two weeks ive felt depressed as well as panicky and my thoughts seem to be racing even more. i've been going to sleep and feeling as tired when i wake up as when i went to bed and also been having really weird vivid dreams and difficulty getting to sleep. Really want some advice on how long this lasts and apart from excersise what helps ?
All,
I'm a 26 year old male, and like you all I went through the same experiences you have all shared or read on this forum. In fact, I have written several posts on this thread sharing my crazy experiences.
Well today I want to give all of you all a gift. Its nutritional advice that will help jumpstart getting your life back. I'm going to keep this short and sweet, but first shout out to Jesus Christ, my Lord and Saviour!!!
All my personal 6 years of research and testing point to several nutrients that really aid in curing all the various adverse marijuana related symptoms described throughout these posts: Omega 3's (1,000 mg), Vitamin D3 (4,000IU's),Niacin (1000), Vitamin C (1000 mg), and Curcumin (200mg) daily. Also, doing a heavy metal detox with Zeolites goes a long way amongst other internal cleanses.
Think about the timing of the onset of these symptoms, do they line up with any vaccinations you recieved ? be it flu or other ? The true underlying cause could be immuinization/vaccinations shots, not marijuana (though possibly triggered by marijuana) think about it...
The vitamins and nutrients i suggested above will help, replinish your organism to produce the necessary immune system response to begin fighting any deficiencies that affect the production of nuerotrasmitters such as, neurophrene, dopamine and serotonin.
Look out for instructions, as well as other tips, suggestions, and advice on other vitamins/nutrients/minerals. Also if you have questions reply to this specific post.
July
I'm 15 years old, too and i have this same problem i;ve had it for about 3 months now, && i just want to feel myself again, I feel like i'm living a dream.
Hi I have been smoking weed since Freshmen year and now a senior my junior and senior year was the time I smoked the most basically every day and I loved being high before/during/after school with some friends I used to hang out with, well those people I am no longer friends because I believed they were only damaging (they weren't true friends) as I began to just smoke on off is when I got these symptoms LITERALLY OUT OF NO WHERE and now when I smoke I become very anxious/trembling/shaking/heart racing/ feelings of death all the symptoms you all have felt. I believe it is your mind getting stronger and realizing you no longer need it to be happy, we are all coming to a mass awakening and no longer need things like that to make us "feel" better it is time to realize you are what makes you happy nothing else & trust me if these symptoms do occur quit smoking it honestly only leads to other issues and problems trust me!!
yes, you are fine, cannabis is the least harmful of all drugs including prescription drugs and alcohol I can help you out email me,
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, basically my personal advice is this, if you really want to feel good again use that energy from that desire and change your life for the positive. Start meditating, exercising (yoga is amazing for anxiety), and positive thinking. It wouldnt hurt to clean up your diet a bit too, less processed foods, add some fruit and veggie smoothies(e-mail for recipes). The thing about weed is its psychoactive, it causes virtually no physical harm but if you believe its the cause of anxiety and fear, it will give you anxiety and fear. Weed goes to show you how powerful your mind is(look up the placebo effect, and effects of positive thinking aka the secret, visualization, light healing etc.) weed side effects are only temporary and you body mind and soul can ALWAYS heal, recover and you can ALWAYS turn life around. Don't give up, e-mail me, try what i've said b/c i've been down your path, meditation is especially important, i would advice using headphones and youtube meditation music, clear your mind and think of nothing, it is hard to do at first but after a few weeks you get better and the results on your stress, anxiety, depression , energy levels and happiness are remarkable, youll be fine
I can really help you out, wrote you a whole big thing but couldn't post it.