its called depersonalization disorder yes it goes away its all on you guys to make it go away and god helps alot so if belive in god start reading the bible and you will recover faster Thank me later god bless all of you
dude,
That was a hell of a story. I know it sounds like a bad idea but cut the sh*t out of your system for a while. for a long while. Look dude you're just growing up, your brain is still growing, and if you are freaking out about your thoughts then you need to chill. It seems like weed is becoming more than just a thing you do to chill from time to time. You're starting to find substitutes just because you can't currently smoke the budda, that could be considered a red flag. It seems like you and your dad have a good relationship since you can talk to him about this sh*t in a way. Use it man. He wouldn't research so much if he didn't care and if he didn't know more than you, its hard to believe but adults tend to be right a lot of the time about some sh*t. Take it from me man smoking is as great as how you feel during it, the truth is its hard to see anything wrong with it once you habitually start using it. Some people have problems with it, and I'm telling you two things.
1.) Don't let it get a hold of you.
2.) You dont type like you have a mental problem, at all.
I'm not an expert on anything, just a psych student in his fourth year, who has been learning about psychotropics first hand. Use it, and move on man. theres so much more to life than drugs, regardless of your life. Seriously. Like girls, just substitute more girls for weed. Sorry to sound like a dad, but if weed if keeping you going then talk to your parents. they obviously care and they seem like a better answer than marijuana brother.
I am now 53 and was just prescribed marijuana for migraines. I used to smoke as a teenager but gave it up because of the Depersonalization Disorder that so many of you are talking about. I just thought I was crazy (even ended up in the ER the first time it happened - but kept smoking because I was too scared to tell my friends what was happening to me). I never thought I'd try it again but because of my migraines I was desperate.
Sadly, the marijuana not only doesn't help my migraines, but the Depersonalization is back! I have since flushed it all. I am also a professional psychologist and have been thinking a lot about why this is happening.
It's as though my mind is in slow motion and I am aware of all the tiny little things that happen that are usually so insignificant that I don't pay attention. I used to drop acid as a kid and that's what I thought was happening - I used to call them "flashbacks". So it's a lot like that for me - hyper attuned to all the minute details and feelings and experiences. On top of that is the anxiety from looking at myself from outside myself. It's like the ultimate form of self-consciousness. This is the anxiety part for me.
Methamphetamine helps me beat these feelings. I snorted a line and WOW i was just normal as i was. and it was good few days. then i smoked indoor weed again and just felt like sh*t again. when i smoke outdor weed it has only positive effects and when i smoke strong indoor i get anxious and despersonalized. But it's dangerous to take Meth. You can become addictive. I just say what helps me. dont do drugs.
dont read if you think it might bore you. I have been suffering for 4 loooong years. So long that I don’t need to emphasize anymore to make myself believe what I have been through. No one in the world has gone through this ever and that’s not exaggerating when I say that way. No one can give me that time back. . The guilt regrets grudge that goes with it is not even measurable. Feelings that crawl up to the surface of my skin to kill me maul me emotionally and psychologically. All this googling on cannabis effects, forums, depression, suicide blogs, just gives me the validity for my thoughts. I haven’t LIVED last few years and that is saying a lot. I haven’t REGISTERED any moment of that past few years. Cognitively, psychologically, physically, emotionally, intellectually I haven’t gained anything. Do you even know what that means? I don’t even know what being happy feels like anymore. I consider myself not a part of the people on earth anymore cuz they are humans. I only physically exist. I have a brain but not a mind. And the thoughts that’s been running parallel to me all this while that points to me every f*****g single second literally that I am the one I am a living soul its suppose to been my hands to be ‘’happy’’. But hey ho guess what I am not. So I don’t know is it my fault that I have wasted all this time or what????? Initially it was just waiting for things to happen cuz I was in shock for months, ahhh!! Those days of unreality, detachment, separation of thoughts and actions, the floating of the mind. As if I was living outside my body. Yea yea I now sounds corny now on this thread but I didn’t even know at that time that something like this could exist. Brain scans were fine. Doctors gave anti depressants and laughed it off (not literally obviously). Honestly I didn’t even know what anxiety is since I never ever in my life faced it. Then it became an obsession, a habit, and a worry. And now the dichotomy of the experience, of what it is and what it could be, rather should be, that juggles me forcing me to live NORMALLY, but I cant. Then I think this is the natural ME that’s is suffering. How can I ever force myself to live? That’s not life. Life is lived by heart and mind is used as a tool. Not ruled by the brain with the heart suppressed. I have smiled in my mind for so long. I don’t know what it could be but hasn’t been same again. I think the best solutions just to get out of the mind. And live out into life. But. I can only say.
Weed has assisted in ruining everything in my life. The effects (anxiety, crave to smk, $$) but most importantly the long term speech impairment. I had a 3.6 GPA so I wasn't no fool.
My relationship has been effected, she now smks with me... 2 js a day everyday....
help me
is there some one that feels better after years? that has solved the problem?
I smoked three times in my life, the third time that joint ruined my life.
After one year i still have no deep pleasure from things around me and feel fear and anxiety.
I recomend so much sport, fruits and veggies.
But is like is medicate 5% of my desease caused from that damn joint that night!
Can we togheter please make an ULTIMATE GUIDE to solve the problem?.
Thank you
I Agree. Im four months in but i still so so far away from who I was .If anybody finds the answer please share what you did.
Listen, just because you haven't had a problem and others have doesn't mean its bad propaganda, weed effects the chemicals in your brain, and as you can see with substantial evidence it causes many people anxiety and panic, in most cases, they can become severe and become a disorder as has happened to me. I have smoked for quite some times, about 15 years, and i have always had the same kind of cannabis. After some time the chemicals that produce the fight or flight response in my brain got messed up, similarly when someone has PTSD after a bad experience. There are medications to help you regulate your chemicals, and as i opted, just to learn to tolerate and live with my new condition. Had i known this would have happened to me i would have never touched it....i'm now totally clean, and feeling better everyday. If you think Weed is totally harmless, tell that to the millions going through this horrible experience, and i promise you, its HORRIBLE, its like not being inside your own body, while watching the world revolve around you.
what medication did you take?
Kind of long but hey. Hey everyone I just wanted to say I got dp in the summer of 2012 around august. It was horrible and I would stress so much over it and etc, i dont wanna bore you with the badness of it because everyone who has had it knows what I mean. The thing is this.
I recovered quickly maybe within 5 months I was back to my old self fully. I told myself I wouldn't smoke again. But recently ive been considering giving weed another try.. I really miss the times I had with it and ive even been loooking up which strains are best to try to get one that won't cause much panic.. But after reading up a little more and coming back to this same thread I viewed constantly when I had DP Im deciding its really not worth it.
I feel as I have much more control of myself and have really grown as a person since then, I was 20, really overweight, no confidence. Since then I lost a ton of weight and have a good job. Being in such a good state is why I considered giving it another try but coming back and reading just how bad DP is and was for me really got to me. I definitely remember it being bad but try to wash it out my mind. I try to say it wasn't that bad until i really think about it.. I used to freak out all the time, My parents would even call me and ask how I was doing at school to make sure I wasn't freaking out.. Then I read some people who have had it for years and am just shocked and really makes me not want to try it again, what if it triggers and Instead of just a few months it lasts years.. Totally not worth it..
Now that you guys have heard what I delt with and my thinking as of late I will try to help those who view this thread like I did. You can't think about it is #1. I would play games and totally get my mind off it. My doctor prescribed me an anxiety/sleep aid, Let me just say this pill was NOT really made for anxiety it was an anthiesemine that needed a prescription. So don't think u need to get on real medication like anti depressants or benzos. I only used it at night for sleep, never in the day. I worked out ( hence weight loss) and took tons of vitamins and especially FISH OIL. I have no idea why but I swear fish oil is #1 for me.. When I didn't take it ( and still at times dont) I get small episodes (10-20 mins of DP). I would definitely emphasis vitamins, L-theanine ( used it for a while), and fish oil. Best of luck to everyone and my personal recommendation is to never go back to weed again. Look at me, completely recovered in a great place in my life, and got through this to such a point I was considering smoking again but it isn't worth it.