So my problem is depersonalization or however you spell it. I smoked heavily for about 4 years and did pretty much all the drugs i could get my hands on. I developed a severe panic/anxiety disorder and quit smoking weed. When i quit the anxiety didn't seem to subside so one day i snapped and just said f**k it. I started smoking and weirdly enough eventually cured my disorders through smoking and fighting it. Giving myself panic attacks and beating them. Everything was fine until i developed this depersonalization. So i just quit smoking weed again. I work out 6 days a week and i have a great diet. How long until it goes away? In my opinion weed doesn't cause any of these problems its an underlying issue that i need to solve. My biggest question is, is it ridiculous for me to want to smoke weed again or should i just quit for good? I just need someone to talk to who knows what i'm going through. Someone with some insight on the subject. To be honest I can't remember what it feels like to be normal. Now i can't f*****g sleep without smoking which is the SOOOO TERRIBLE!!!
Hey, i totally understand where you're coming from. i too was in the same boat..struggled with quitting mj for about a year..my case of anxiety and depersonalization was so severe that i had suicidal thoughts, but never the balls to do it. its been 3 months since i smoked my last j.and i experience no craving for mj.
dude im glad you know it's giving you these issues and you're deciding to do something about it. yes, you will have to quit smoking, for good..keep up the exercise and good diet. and with time you'll start to feel like normal.. in your case.i'll say it might take about a month for your head to clear out and also the depersonalization to go away..and then about 3 -6 months to start to feel totally normal, even really happy,with all the anxiety gone. but you have to be willing to endure. like i said keep exercising, eat healthy, and avoid negative thoughts (because that is how the dp and anxiety comes in place).
i would like to share with you how i did it, if you dont mind.maybe it'll work for you.
i basically said to myself im gonna try to go a only 3 days without smoking, and at the end of the 3rd day, i'll say another 3 days without smoking, and i kept repeating this. i did this because if i had said to myself im going to quit cold turkey i wouldn't be able to cope with that idea, and eventually end up smoking. so set small goals. i exercised, probably not as much as you lol but i did what i could do. now what really helped me was me changing my thoughts and beliefs about myself, and life in general. while i was still struggling, someone told me to watch The Secret by Rhonda Byrne.im telling you it opened my eyes. then i watched bruce lipton and wayne dyer videos. then i began to listen to audio books.like How to stop worrying and start living by dale carnigie, The Power by Rhonda Byrne, and The science of being great by wallace wattles. all these materials can be found on youtube. while watching or listening to each for the first time, i took notes basically quotes or sayings that i would like to embed in my subconscious so i can always read them to myself at any time. i cant count how many times i've listened to them. and i am still gonna be listening to them because i want a change, and i can see it already happening. right now im cured of dp, anxiety, and depression. and now people tell me i seem always happy and care-free. sometimes i laugh, if only they knew what i just had to deal with. you might be like what the hell is this guy talking about .but soon as you use listen to those videos and audio books you'll see what i mean.
you mentioned weed doesnt cause any of the problem. this is true. in fact it's all in your head. but weed act as a catalyst in bringing out those problems. ever wonder why some people can smoke 24/7 and they're fine, no anxiety. and they seem to be getting ahead just fine. i came to the conclusion that some people (people like you and i) are predisposed to anxiety and therefore shouldnt smoke because weed worsen's it. but you're in luck.those materials i just referred to you will help you overcome your predisposed problems and the underlying issue you mention (help is an understatement, these videos and audio books will get rid of your problems for you)
Best of luck to you ! and feel free to ask any questions if you need someone to talk to
Hello there Yawawa ....Let me introduce myself ....Im male 33 years old from Malta and this is my story... First of all welcome to the club , I too have depression symptoms . I was worse before around 5 years ago when it all started with an obsession on my health.... A few months before 2 persons which were close to me ( 2 friends of mine , died with cancer). I was starting to be afraid from this disease and always thinking about it. Then one day I noticed a freckle on my chest and thought that it was a melanoma cancer......and there started my obsession....checking ever corner/website on the internet. Having blood tests, which came back to normal ...but my mind was kept telling me that I was getting sick with cancer. Soon after i had started trouble sleeping, and getting panic attacks. My brain felt full of pressure , dull headaches, speaciness and the most one i hated depersonalazation .....like my vision wil become distorted and everything arounds me starts to feel unreal!!!.In 2010 I went to made MRI because my dizziness was so intense i couldn't walk straight . Again the doctors found nothing on the scan , It only show some sinus problem which was covering underneath my right eye ( i suffer from hayfever).Panic attacks were so intense . One day during driving on my way to work , my heart started to beat fast and pounding hard in my chest , i started to sweat a lot and was going to faint . Even my breath i was hyperventilating . I was so terrified in that situation , I started to pray to God ' Please God don't let me die here , im driving !!! ' Take me with you after I will arrive at work..Please please God!!. It was so intense and frightful..I couldnt concentrate at work , at home , everywhere....even during reading...I started having nightmares about death and funerals . Crying spells .......My mind was restless always thinking and repeating the same thing over and over again.....Soon I felt no motivation , no interested in nothing .....nothing gave me pleasure ....I was so down ....That all I wanted is staying in bed and do not go out. I was afraid of going out , thinking about that I will have another panic attack.Then It started to subsided slowly, and it disappeared ....I was taking medications Cipralex which kinda help me a bit .....When I started to feel better I stopped it cold turkey..... I didnt have any withdrawals.....I started to go out more and taking photos and I thought I forgot everything...Lately it came back to me....not so intense but still I can feel some symptoms .....Like feeling tense at times, problems with my vision, low moods ......but at least not so intense...I went back to my doctor and he told me It could be that u relapsed ure depression....so he put me back on cipralex and added Sedoxil with with . Its kind of a booster to boost up the cipralex.... Sometimes I take Ativan fast benzo which acts fast on panic attacks which seems to help a bit....I have lows and ups my dear friend, but at least I accepted my condition ....if u need to as questions just reply to me back and I try to answer if im online:)Hope you will get better, it is a slow process but you will get better,Best regards and Happy new Year,Gilbert