i've tried looking for information about this on the internet, but i can't seem to find anything.
i have had depression since i was about 13 years old (i'm 17 now) so that's nothing new. most days i can get by alright - but lately i've noticed that whenever someone tells me that they love me, or that they care for me, it sends me into depression. recently, i had a friend tell me that she really likes me, and thinks i'm an amazing person - and it made me suicidal for a few days afterwards. i don't know why this is. this is very destructive because it's not letting me get close to people who care about me.
any suggestions to what this is? is it just a side-effect of depression? what should i do?
i have had depression since i was about 13 years old (i'm 17 now) so that's nothing new. most days i can get by alright - but lately i've noticed that whenever someone tells me that they love me, or that they care for me, it sends me into depression. recently, i had a friend tell me that she really likes me, and thinks i'm an amazing person - and it made me suicidal for a few days afterwards. i don't know why this is. this is very destructive because it's not letting me get close to people who care about me.
any suggestions to what this is? is it just a side-effect of depression? what should i do?
Have you been officially diagnosed and treated for depression? Like medication or therapy… etc. When you say it made you suicidal – what thoughts exactly were going through your head? I really need more information, no matter how irrelevant they might seem, to fully understand what you are going through.
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i was officially diagnosed with adolescent depression when i was thirteen. for a year or so, i was in counselling and on antidepressants. but after awhile, i was deemed 'well' enough and taken off of both. if it's relevant, i've also been in and out of an eating disorder, and i used to self-harm.
mainly, the thought that was going through my head was the desire to disappear - i toyed with the idea of driving my car as far as i could and taking a lot of pills when i ran out of fuel. i just, basically, didn't want to be where i was. i just wanted to stop everything. i wanted to be as far away from everyone as possible. i even wrote out my suicide letter.
i'm just really concerned right now. another friend of mine just told me i was beautiful, and then today at work, all i could think about was going home and killing myself. let me know if you need any other details, i know this is sort of a weird case.
i was officially diagnosed with adolescent depression when i was thirteen. for a year or so, i was in counselling and on antidepressants. but after awhile, i was deemed 'well' enough and taken off of both. if it's relevant, i've also been in and out of an eating disorder, and i used to self-harm.
mainly, the thought that was going through my head was the desire to disappear - i toyed with the idea of driving my car as far as i could and taking a lot of pills when i ran out of fuel. i just, basically, didn't want to be where i was. i just wanted to stop everything. i wanted to be as far away from everyone as possible. i even wrote out my suicide letter.
i'm just really concerned right now. another friend of mine just told me i was beautiful, and then today at work, all i could think about was going home and killing myself. let me know if you need any other details, i know this is sort of a weird case.
Hi, this is called automatic negative thinking - it's an issue with perception thats very common with people who suffer depression -
me and my girlfriend both have since before we've known each other, and i do this but she doesn't -
where as i hold a constantly a self defeatist and antagonistic attitude whilst im down she holds quite an easily overwhelmed and the worlds against me kinda outlook - so i guess its not everybody -
But yeah i can relate to what you're saying better than i can write complex sentences, and can assure you with my A2 level in psychology that you're not weird, in fact i think 1 in 5 people suffer from depression at some point in their life,
hope this helps
JP
me and my girlfriend both have since before we've known each other, and i do this but she doesn't -
where as i hold a constantly a self defeatist and antagonistic attitude whilst im down she holds quite an easily overwhelmed and the worlds against me kinda outlook - so i guess its not everybody -
But yeah i can relate to what you're saying better than i can write complex sentences, and can assure you with my A2 level in psychology that you're not weird, in fact i think 1 in 5 people suffer from depression at some point in their life,
hope this helps
JP