All of my life I have labeled myself straight. I still think that I am, but then a thought of a gay sex act would pop in and I would eventually get off to it which is what has me freaked. There have been times where I have gotten so anxious to the thought of being gay that I would be masturbating to a girl as a way to relax. I find girls attractive and had a girlfriend. We had a great sex life, but I have currently been seeing a psychologist and he feels pretty confident that I’m not gay and just have "Gay OCD".
I believe that most of the men are not all gay or all straight. I read a study that 1 in 10 men (10%) who identify themselves as straight have also had sex with another man in the past year. I even know lot of men with such experience. This study supports the idea that male sexuality is fluid and that most men are somewhere in between straight and gay. Gay OCD is becoming increased occurrence. Don’t be so worried, you are at an age of self discovery.
i have the exact same obsession. For a while i would associate certain things to being gay and try to avoid them like the colour purple, and touching things more frequently with my left side. it went away for a long time when i started taking therapy and zoloft. But now that i stopped taking my pills i noticed the thoughts have started to come back. For me i think its really impotant to just remember why i have these thoughts. I know im straight and i know i have an ocd trait that makes me feel uncertain sometimes.