Hello, I am a 22 year old male I used to be completely healthy during my teenage years physically and mentally. For the last few years however I have been suffering from multiple vague symptoms. I got a brain scan, neck scan and had my blood checked but nothing was found. I am now living on disability and even though I have the will to get better, i'm stuck since absolutely no one seems to understand what's wrong with me. I am just going to try and list my symptoms so hopefully someone could lead me in the right direction and I can finally at least know what the hell is wrong with me.
Sleep: I can only fall asleep when i'm completely tired and have to sleep till I wake up naturally. when I wake up too early (due to noise) my whole body aches everything feels tight, I feel dreamy and anxious and avoid social interaction because I can't seem to get my thoughts together. (I do get bad anxiety) And everything irritates me, light is too bright etc. (No doctor so far took this serious, and I think this might be the key to getting diagnosed). however I do get better days but often I have to sleep 9 + hours at least. Good sleep = more relaxed less pain but still generally feel too sick to do anything productive.
Now I will list how I feel on an average day (good nor bad)
Pressure in whole body especially in head neck area, it feels like my body is constantly heavy I get startled easy. I wish I could describe this more accurately. It's like normal people are light and just go with the flow and I'm heavy and I have to put effort in everything I do.
I've been a skateboarder since I was a kid and i still ride my skateboard (this is really the only exercise I get) I can get technical tricks right sometimes, but tricks that require fast reaction time at high speeds are extremely hard to pull off because my mind just seems to be slower. Also when i push my self really hard to do a certain physically intensive trick, after I'm done My heart starts beating rapidly, I get extremely short of breath and my mind starts to race. (Basically a very "physical" panic attack) after a day of intense exercise I usually wake up "hungover" and I get very tense in my body + cognitive problems are worsened.
Something I would like to add is after I first tried codeine recently I felt somewhat normal again, less heavy more focused less achy etc. So I ordered some 30 mg codeine phosphate pills online. my hopes of relief where crushed, the only thing I got was nerve pain and headache relief. (And that was awesome) but sadly the cognitive problems and fatigue remained.
I will try to add some more things later,and I will link to a diagnose me post on this site that I did when I was 17, so you can see the progress of my problems over the years.
I would also like to add that I am not depressed. I guess I am unlucky, but nothing I can do about it but stay positive. I do feel like I have some mental health problems due to no one understanding me and alot of built up frustration. (I don't look or act "sick" so it must be all in my head) i feel some bitterness toward old friends and ditched most of them, or they ditched me.) I lost alot of my natural confidence but I try to fake it and act like I am fine. I wish I could ask people in my life for help but my male ego, unsupportive family and fear of not getting understood get in the way.
I want honest opinions, don't hold back on giving advice, possible diseases or sharing similiar experiences. If someone can tell me what I have, and later I get the confirmed diagnosis. I promise I will send you some money, or anything as a thank you.
And lastly I'm european forgive me for my not so perfect english language skills. I hope this gets taken seriously.