I feel like I'm not here

im 19 and ive been feeling exactly like this and its exhausting, im soo tired of feeling like this i feel as if im in a dream sometimes i get panic attacks and feel dizzy and my head hurts and i feel pressure in my head NOT on my head but IN my head i havent gone to the doc. but i have the exact symptoms i do have a problem seeing from my left eye. The doc. said i have heart palpatations but i think its anxiety i tried taken anti anxiety pills but it just made me sick. Can somebody give me advice please thank you.

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I was experiencing the same stuff, not really here, like you're constantly looking through a window into your life. I stopped taking my prescription (Junel - Birth control) and within a month I was back to my old self. I'm not sure if every one's symptoms is connected with medication, but mines was. I hope this helps!

It appears to me that you are experiencing Depersonalization and Derealization. I have the same thing, confirmed by a psychiatrist and have done my fair share of research. I believe that this is because your brain is trying to protect you/itself from stress/trauma, etc. It's also often only present along with Anxiety and/or Depression. In most cases, this mental disorder is 'caused by drugs. Not exactly sure why. I was quite the pot head before this day, about two years ago, I smoked pot with a friend, everything started flashing, was puking every where, and constantly blacking out. Next day, totally out of it. I thought I was still high. So I waited for a week. Didn't go away, then my anxiety (that I never knew existed) got me to believe I had liver failure! I convinced my completely out-of-it brain that I was dying, and that I had severe abdominal pain (as I read it in the symptoms list of liver failure) So I put myself in quite a lot of 'pain'. Probably just feeling things that never existed. Anyway, This disorder is made worse when accompanied by drugs&alcohol. Even anxiety/depression meds. ^ They may be a good thing if you have problems with anxiety, but your dreamy/foggy feelings will most likely increase. AGAIN, IF you have anxiety/depression issues, the best way is to get rid of those. You cannot get rid of depersonalization and keep the other two. Depersonalization is what happens AFTER. Try and accept this. I know it is almost impossible. Took me a year and a half. FORCE yourself to do things. Make yourself do the things you enjoyed before all of this bullsh*t. Because right about now, I bet you feel like you don't even know who you are, or if you're even alive or not. Try and get back in to life. Maybe once your brain realizes you are okay to go out there and do what you should be doing, it will no longer need to protect you. Also realize that you are stronger than a lot of people. DP is a very hard thing to go through. I hope I helped a little bit. and I hope things get better for you. ***edited by moderator*** web addresses not allowed

i feel like im not here but deep down i know i am. i question a lot of things. i ask myself am i here? why do i not feel like i'm presently here? i'll loook in a mirror and its hard to recognize myself. i got this way after my parents died. my mom died when I was barely 18 and 4 months later my dad. i guess it's anxiety and a way for your brain to protect itself from all of the trauma because if it didn't do this, it'd be way too much for me to handle. it's not fun, i hate it. i feel like a completely different person after experiencing this horrible thing. but i find ways to deal and i've learned to not let it bother me. i have to be stronger. i take buspirone 15mg and it helps. therapy helps. talking to someone helps. getting out and doing the things you always used to do helps. it used to scare the SHIT out of me but now i feel like i can handle it and i'm stronger then it. it still scares me but not as much. please listen to me if you feel this way: it sucks but it DOES GET BETTER. GOD is with you and will always be with you to protect you and hold you and be with you when you're scared.

The same thing happens to me, I've never saughted help for it I accually enjoy when it happens. It kinda feels like your on a very dim influance of marjuana, mine only happens for three reasons, When I fall in love, when I take to many tokes of a joint I feel it the day after, and when I stay up for a 24+ period. It dosen't bother me because Im obbsessed with Insanity, anything that is out of order of or currently disfuctional considering the brain, or mind. Which is one reason Im hopeing to become a mental health counslor when I get to the approprite age, as of now I am only 15 about to be 16. But I do not always enjoy the feeling, once before I smoked some very strong marjuana and when I woke the next day I had the feeling, Most of the time it only lasts for about a day, But this time it happen for an entire week. Now this was bad, the second day I had felt worse, I was feeling as though I could hear every ones voice except my own. And when it came to doing things I felt as if I wasn't doing them as If I was dreaming, But I knew it was real, I didn't pay much attention to this fact, I honestly didn't care, But it bothered me when I started Questioning If I had done something already, Even though I knew I had done it, By the end of the week I was laying in bed trying to sleep but the feeling was agitating, and there was three noises, and my mind and ears were focused only on these three noises, The dishwasher, The dryer, And the filter on my turtles tank. Trying to sleep, my brain was only focused on those noises, and there was one other irritation, this little lite that shines on our T.V. when its off. All these irritations, Formed to one big irritation. I got up and went outside to smoke, outside I cried yelling "Please God take this feeling away" Then I went back in laied down and looked at the clock, it said 1:36. Then it felt as if I only blinked and then looked at the clock, It said 11:52, I had missed school, But I was happy. The feeling had left me. But I will never forget the night that four irritations almost drove me insane. One other thing, just in case this happens to some of you, When I haven't had much sleep I hear voices, Other people, This doesn't bother me. I've named them all and I'll tell you who they are. Aron - Is the Dumb one, he gives me suggestions that sound Irrational and stupid, Like "Hey don't you think it would be fun to get bit by a snake?" So you see how hes dumb. Arbina - Is the know it all, he will awnser questions the other voices ask with a sarcastic and supieror tone. He also causes inner group conflict between the other voices, Hes a manipulator. Ozone - Is the jack-ass, he starts fights with the other voices for no reason at all. he also has a very volgure mouth. Rehab - Rehab is the drugie, all he talks about is how certain thing and stuff around me are related to drugs and expreiances while under the influance of drugs. Air - Is the only girl of the group, she dosen't talk, only to stop fights and when another voices are talking to her. She Is the peaceful one, her whole image is for Peace. Dark Kalum - Is the smart one, The total oppisit of Aron. He suggest smart disecions when some one asks a question, Like "Dang im really sleepy." "Then by all means go to sleep, Im tired aswell." All the other voices hate him. Aaron - Thats my voice, and yes my names Aaron With all that said I would really love some replys, you can reach me at . Hopefully I will get the plesure of telling you more storys. P.S. - Recently I have had panick attacks while on marijuana, I don't freak out and go out of control, I just retract myself and remeber its all an Illousion of the drug, My panick attacks are usually about me dieing, I wouldn't really care if I did, Its not that I want to die, Its just I don't care if I do. Please e-mail me, aaron :D - Peace ***this post is edited by moderator *** *** private e-mails not allowed ** Please read our Terms of Use

Hi my name is Amir. I am 17. I don't know if i have had this feeling, but at the same time I think I did. I had severely bad anxiety for 5 months. I went through voids of nothingness and I couldn't except it so I suffered greatly. Just learn to accept everything and it will go away. Sounds weird but it worked for me. I have a feeling it just has to do with the energy of your body and growing up. And I am also wondering if anyone who experiencing this is religious. Every person I know with depression anxiety doesn't believe in God. Once I found my God, I the anxiety subsided. But what also physically helps on a physical level is this thing I found called EFT. Emotional Freedom Techniques. It actually works. Type in on Google, and check it out, Seriously this is one of the most effective things for me, more effective than my meds. I was at this point where I thought just like everyone else. Will I ever get through this? Will this last Forever? And the answer is no. You have to tell yourself that it won't last forever. I kept saying to myself, I will change, I will get through this. You just need to go inward, and meditate and find yourself. There is so many programs out there, so please look for a way to end your suffering. You have the power to change right now. I have went through a long journey with anxiety, and I am willing to help anyone that needs help. Email me for further questions. ***this post is edited by moderator *** *** private e-mails not allowed ** Please read our Terms of Use

hi im new on here and i have had this everyday for the last 3 years and it never stops becoming scary for me. i looked it up on the net and all my symptoms for this was under someting called depersonalisation look it up on the net as i get very severe symptoms of not feeling as if i am here and everything seems so far away and not connected to me if that makes sense.

I can't even begin to tell everyone here how happy/sorry i am for this happening to other people. For months now i've felt like nothing is real, i'm completely out of reality. Nothing feels important anymore due to this fact. I thought i was just going through some sort of teenage mental breakdown type thing, but now that i have read other people's stories on this I no longer feel this way. If anyone knows anything about ways to lessen this whole "Non-reality" feeling please please please please please please tell me. Nobody but those who experience this, lets be honest here, torture can truly understand why it's so horrible. Passing through life feeling like nothings actually happening. It sucks and i want it to stop. Thanks in advance to anyone with helpful advice for me and everyone else. Thanks again, S.K.

I did a little research and i came upon this: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dissociative_Experiences_Scale Most of us probably have Depersonalization disorder (DPD) those of you who have these problems after doing drugs do not, your brain is just messed up from the drugs.

wow i cant believe im not the only one i have been feeling like this for the past month or so its pretty scary i hate the feeling. then i start thinking about way to hard and start freaking myself out. im 19 and male i have bad eyes but really good hearing i have never had a poblem with anxiety that i know of but maybe this is a result idk. i drink all the time i dont really smoke i only have a handful of times. glad to know im not the only one tho. any help would be great. thanks matt

These are just my thoughts on the whole thing, so feel free to disagree: I am 19 and have felt the same way that most of you have described so i don't think I need to go into details. Many of you seem to relate this to some sort of disability to connect with other people socially and saying that you are quiet people. This probably has nothing to do with it because I am quite the opposite; I'm a loud, happy, lively guy and I tend to make people laugh a lot (I'm not trying to act like I'm full of myself or anything, just trying to make a point.) I hardly ever get stressed about anything very much at all. I used to smoke the Marijuanos on occasion but haven't now for almost a year. I think that many of you may be digging too deeply into this feeling though. People tend to attach problems to feelings like this all of the time (even myself from time to time) you just have to tell yourself that it's not as big as you think. Although I am a lively person, I still find myself in a daze a separated from myself, even as I make silly motions and tell jokes around other people. I think that it may be some sort of chemical imbalance or maybe some health issues. I don't eat very well, but not horrible either (I eat meats and veggies as well fast food and Pizza.) I have pains in my neck and my shoulders on a day to day basis. I have decided (because of all of the people with this same problem and no solution) to adjust my posture, take vitamins, exercise, and eat well for the next month and I'll tell you how it goes. I came to this conclusion because I'm assuming that mostly everyone on this website is in at least the same sort of health and physical condition. Also, really healthy people seem to not act as if they're in a daze. Sorry for writing so much.

oh thank god.Since the day before valentines day five years ago, i have felt like im not here and i have always been lightheaded. i feel trapped and like it will never go away.i used to worry about if i was going to die or something because it feels like i am dreaming. the feeling never, ever goes away.I have dealt with it every moment of my life, since that day.I feel like my life is passing me by because i cannot live in the moment and i cant see rightwhenever i try to describe it to anyone, they think im crazy when i say i cannot concentrate, even though i do. it just feels like i cant.my sight and eyes feel weird. like im always dazing instead of studying the world around me.do you feel this way?

I've felt this way for while. It used to only occur when my family and I went camping, and I was away from where I normally was. However when I was about 12 or 13 we went camping and I had this feeling again. We got home, and it never seemed to go away. I also feel I'm hard of hearing most of the time, but I only have vision issues if I'm forced to look out of my right eye alone, other than that I have perfect vision. I'm 17 now, and I guess I've felt like this for so long, I've forgot what it feels like to feel the way I once did. I always wished I could get that feeling back I used to have. I sort of feel not mentally or physically where I am. I guess my brain realizes I'm where I am, but I still feel like I'm not there, like I'm far away from reality I guess you could say. I do believe my blood pressure is low though. I'm not sure what else could cause this issue, and I hope someone can find out, so I can stop wondering the awful question, "Why?".

I have had the same feelings for a long time now, first it was I was being a breathing observer and checking it all the time and it would make me get to where I couldn't breathe in. Now, I feel like I am not even here like in a state of dreamy. My body feels numb, I really need it to just go away. I am so glad to know I am not the only one who goes through this. For years I always thought I was the only one who felt this thing, I never knew what it was, I really thought I was going crazy or dying. Anxiety is one condition I wouldn't want anyone to have, not even my worst enemy.