Hi there! It is great you are looking for help. If I understood well you have minor depression but you don't take meds. And you think is bad because you don't believe in God anymore, your mum doesn't help... Well, the first think I would do if I were you is accept your feelings without judging yourself too much. Depression is also a chemical problem , sometimes genetically, and there are very good treatments available. you should definitely not wait to look for a psychiatrist who can give you all this help you need. You know, the brain is just an organ of our body like your lungs, heart, etc...If you had a heart problem you would not wait or question about taking meds, the same you should do with your brain. You need help, go for it, and don't feel guilty about it.
i dont know where or how to start.i am a young beautiful adult,as they say.i have been diagnosed in 2009 with minor depression but wasnt on medication.i am very bitter i have lost hope and i dont even see a reason to live its really pointless.now i dont even believe God does exist..and if he does maybe i am just not in his list of favourates...please assist me in anyway u can.my mother insults me because of my body,my brother is ashamed of me,life gets hectic by day.my cousins are getting married and i dont even have a partner.i feel very useless..u think its high time i accept and seek help!please help please