It appears those around me are not satisfied with my own answers, and so here I am. If this appears a bit scrambled, I must apologize, as the information is a mix of my own thoughts and opinions, and the possible perceptiveness of others.
I don't like humans.
Ok, this is not entirely accurate. I do not dislike them either. I simply do not care about them.
I live in a world built around a series of self-created masks. I smile when I believe I should smile, I frown when I am suppose to be upset, and yet, I do not feel any of the actual emotions, or at least, I feel very little of them. Guilt is beyond me. I do not understand it, but it seems to bother those around me. I suppose I have been this way for a long time, at least since I was 6 or 7.. I do not remember much before that time. I have no reason to believe that I witnessed anything too traumatic, my family life was a little distent, but never cruel.
They tell me I am constantly treating everything like a game, and I live in my own fantasy world. It's quite possibly true, at least to an extent.
My hobbies usually involve sneaking off into the woods, or mountains.. Just walking the trails with no goals in sight. Speaking of goals.. I really do not plan any beyond the days end. I could really care less what the future holds. Now, I have never been a physically violent person, I am seldom cruel. Do I lie? Yes, of course. If I did not, I would probably not have a job, nor any semblance of a life.
Sexual relations, romance, and things of that nature do not mean very much. I find I am attracted to people who are "Broken" more so than those who I pass on the streets.
If I had to feel anything, perhaps it would be aggitation, sometimes I do view the world with a small vendetta, depending on how I am crossed at that time. But, aside from this, little else.. Perhaps a small amount of fondness for a small group of people. I have never been depressed, at least not that I can remember. Nor have I ever had thoughts of suicide...
Though, I have always held a very strong morbid curiosity with life and death.
So, am I broken? Maybe in the view of others... But, I am mostly content. But, let us hear what you have to say.
Well, this is about all I am willing to put out there, perhaps I will expand if someone catches my interest. Otherwise. Have a good day.
I don't like humans.
Ok, this is not entirely accurate. I do not dislike them either. I simply do not care about them.
I live in a world built around a series of self-created masks. I smile when I believe I should smile, I frown when I am suppose to be upset, and yet, I do not feel any of the actual emotions, or at least, I feel very little of them. Guilt is beyond me. I do not understand it, but it seems to bother those around me. I suppose I have been this way for a long time, at least since I was 6 or 7.. I do not remember much before that time. I have no reason to believe that I witnessed anything too traumatic, my family life was a little distent, but never cruel.
They tell me I am constantly treating everything like a game, and I live in my own fantasy world. It's quite possibly true, at least to an extent.
My hobbies usually involve sneaking off into the woods, or mountains.. Just walking the trails with no goals in sight. Speaking of goals.. I really do not plan any beyond the days end. I could really care less what the future holds. Now, I have never been a physically violent person, I am seldom cruel. Do I lie? Yes, of course. If I did not, I would probably not have a job, nor any semblance of a life.
Sexual relations, romance, and things of that nature do not mean very much. I find I am attracted to people who are "Broken" more so than those who I pass on the streets.
If I had to feel anything, perhaps it would be aggitation, sometimes I do view the world with a small vendetta, depending on how I am crossed at that time. But, aside from this, little else.. Perhaps a small amount of fondness for a small group of people. I have never been depressed, at least not that I can remember. Nor have I ever had thoughts of suicide...
Though, I have always held a very strong morbid curiosity with life and death.
So, am I broken? Maybe in the view of others... But, I am mostly content. But, let us hear what you have to say.
Well, this is about all I am willing to put out there, perhaps I will expand if someone catches my interest. Otherwise. Have a good day.
TO be honest, I am a very anxious person, and I'd like to point out that you might be suffering from something similar. I have felt the way you feel a lot. Trust me, this is actually not an uncommon way to feel! The fact that you're posting this makes me think that you are concerned about your life and may not be entirely comfortable with the way you live. Have you considered seeing a therapist? I think it might be a good idea. What do you think?
hi rogue, the thought you are playing a game and hobbies include walking with no goal is very alike to my mind state at the moment i get very bad anxiety but have reached the point of no longer caring what tomorrow brings in fact i dont see tomorrow ever coming until it does then i usually panic before leaving the door especially if i have to go somewhere actually anywhere where i have to interact with a human and give me one task which doesnt consist of having to talk to someone. i am very depressed by this as usually i am a happy go lucky person who loves life and people although recently i just am not on anyones level gotta run hit me back be good 2 hear from ya
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Of course it might out of anxiety....i to agree