Okay. Im not sure what to tell you. The only thing I can think of is that you need to have confidence in your self. You can do anything you set your mind to ( as I have so often been told). Don't belittle your self or undermine your efforts, because in the end it will be worth it. I guess I should take my own advice although my situation is not the same. Please try your hardest thats all that counts. I hope I have at least lifted your spirits. Have a blessed day
Message to everyone on this feed: As much as it is painted that way in youth culture the 15-18 part of your life isn't the best bit. It is where you learn about yourself, as a person, and begin to work out who you are.
Rest yourself in the knowledge that you are 100% better than anyone that you envy because you are self aware, you know that any flaw you have can be solved, focus, whilst you still have time on enjoying everything you can, before you have to work for a living.
There will always be someone. You will always be you.