This is my first time on this site, and this post, I'm not sure who posted it, but it really made me think, my father also has paranoid schizophrenia, and on his side of the family, he lived in a trailer house until I was in 5th grade, because there was one night he had some type of delusion thinking that I was in danger, (I was just sleeping at my mom's and Step Dad's House), then he came and tried to force himself into the house, It honestly scared the c**p out of me, and that night, my grandparents on that side of the family took him to some type of assisted living place, and for a long time since that night, I was very very angry at him, because of that, and also his actions that my mom had told me that he did when I was a baby. Now and then I see him, but with supervised visits, and he's on some new medication, but it's still strange, because he still doesn't act completely normal it's like there is some type of time delay in his thinking, it's really hard to describe, and my worse fear is developing schizophrenia, but your post just made me think about how lucky I was to have a step dad, and also it changed my thinking about him, that it wasn't right to be angry at him all these years, but it's still really hard, because I never got to know him for who he is, because of this damn disease.
My dad is a paranoid schizophrenic and i found out when I was about 16 years old. Him and my mother were together until I was about 10 years old and up until then everything was perfect. He was a great father, no complaints at all. He taught me everything how to play pool, taught me how to ride a bicycle, and was always at my school for special occasions and birthdays. Even when my parents went they're separate ways he always came to visit me and take our family out to eat. As time progressed I always asked my mom, what happened to my dad and him being a paranoid schizophrenic was kept for me almost most of my life. I'm 22 years old now, and turning 23 years old next week and my dad is 64 and he lives alone. I still go to visit him as many times as I can because he's a great person overall and battling a mental illness. The other day I took him to the grocery store and brought him one of his favorite pies that he loves to eat. I have to make sure that he okay but he's been maintaining all of this time. People in the community snicker and turn their face up at him because they don't understand the situation and the type symptoms that my Dad has from the mental illness is that he has different personalities. One personality he's a boxer and the next minute he's an advocate for Jesus. He where's oddly dressed clothes, with a turban on his head whether its hot or cold. One winter evening I came home from school and I saw him walking down the street and he looked me directly in the face and didn't recognize me.When he comes out his phase a little, like he told me the other is just come upon him and he feels different and he got tired of being on medication, the body isn't meant to withhold medication and he was speaking on the medicines that the psychiatrist prescribed to him. I always had my doubts and worries if I was to be like my Dad what would I do. So after being away for 5 yrs while being in school I moved back home because of financial difficulties and I was depressed about the situation, especially to know that Christmas was approaching. On Christmas Eve I cried in public for the first time in my life I thought nothing of it, but mild depression because I had lost my job and me and my boyfriend had broke up, but it was way more than I would ever expect. On Christmas morning me and my family where going to travel and visit my aunt and during the time I was in my car I started having delusional thoughts and I tried to kill myself by walking out of a moving car. I was hospitalized for about 5 days and put on haldol medication to bring me back. I was so frightened that this was happening to me. I was soon released and I came back home. Its been about 2 months now and I haven't taken the medication I see a therapist about twice a month too evaluate my recovery and I keep a journal and try to write all my negative thoughts out on paper. I just started having shooting pains in my head which is something I have never experienced before my therapist advised me to go to the doctor because that can very severe to my health. The times that I feel different is when I get stressed out or overwhelmed about an issue. If I'm driving I get very nervous especially if it someone riding with me I'm not to fond of, but Ive always been like that since day 1. But now I have to rest before I get extremely stressed out and carried away with things. I graduated about 7 months ago and I'm just worried that life is going to get the best of me because to live a life without stress is impossible because stressful events occur in life whether a person wants them to or not. Since my psychotic I don't have the same kind of focus I had before the break and I feel more abnormal than usual and with these sharp shooting pains in my head I'm starting to lose my recent memory. Sometimes I get kind of down to even fathom living a life with a mental struggle and my life is just beginning. I pray everyday for my sanity and hope that I don't have to be medicated for the rest of my life so I'm two months into my recovery with 4 more to go.
My mother is a paranoid schizophrenic, and my father has bi-polar disorder. I am 21. I'm not quite sure how old I was when everything started to happen. Perhaps around the age of... 8. Its truly very difficult to live with to say the least. More and more studies are beginning to show that there is a higher incidence of mental disorders among children whom have parent(s) with a mental disorders.
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Wow..I'm 14. My dad has the ilness. He takes medicaton. But he is just a bum. He is well smart. But does ruin my mom and my life in a lot ways. There is so many times I cant explain.
maybe but i wouldnt be concerned till he talks about cARZY THINGS when he starts to talk about carzy stuff
My father has squizophrenia. He's been in jail for 7 years because he abused me and my brother physically and sexually. I haven't spoken to him in all that time, altough he recently found my facebook account and has tried to make contact. He's very aggressive and I feel sort of unsure of replying at all.
It was very hard for all of us because he used to claim that everybody conspired against him, even me and my brother. I can't imagine how hard it must be for him given he was proved guilty and has no psychological support of any kind.
It was very hard for all of us because he used to claim that everybody conspired against him, even me and my brother. I can't imagine how hard it must be for him given he was proved guilty and has no psychological support of any kind.
Hi clair
My father is also schizophrenic. I also questioned if I was going to be also. I am 32 now. I passed the age of getting schizophrenia, and I have 9 siblings. The ones who questioned if they would have it, did not get it. I study psychology, and I know that children of parents with this illness question themselves all the time. I am writing an essay on children of schizophrenic fathers and that is one of the outcomes of growing up with a parent with this illness. I'm sure you know the signs and symptoms of this illness and if you experience the voices and hallucinations, hopefully you will know to get help. It does get better though. Seeing a therapist would be a good thing to put you at ease and help you with the post traumatic stress. Just remember that it is not your fault, or his. It is the illness. Me and my siblings were severely abused by him...but not sexually. We were brain-washed and beaten. I have finally gone through the healing stage. My dad is now in a mental home and my older sister has guardianship over him so that he cannot get out. That is the best place for him. He cannot hurt anyone or himself anymore. He is obsessed with religion, used to preach, and made us read the bible to him. Now he is very sick and close to dying. I think that if he does pass away, he will not have to suffer anymore. I do love him and I would be sad, but at the same time, relived. I wish the best for you. I understand and I know it is very painful, but I really think that you will be okay. It just takes time. It actually made me stronger. Please reply back. I would like to know how you are doing...hang in there :)
Georgia
My father is also schizophrenic. I also questioned if I was going to be also. I am 32 now. I passed the age of getting schizophrenia, and I have 9 siblings. The ones who questioned if they would have it, did not get it. I study psychology, and I know that children of parents with this illness question themselves all the time. I am writing an essay on children of schizophrenic fathers and that is one of the outcomes of growing up with a parent with this illness. I'm sure you know the signs and symptoms of this illness and if you experience the voices and hallucinations, hopefully you will know to get help. It does get better though. Seeing a therapist would be a good thing to put you at ease and help you with the post traumatic stress. Just remember that it is not your fault, or his. It is the illness. Me and my siblings were severely abused by him...but not sexually. We were brain-washed and beaten. I have finally gone through the healing stage. My dad is now in a mental home and my older sister has guardianship over him so that he cannot get out. That is the best place for him. He cannot hurt anyone or himself anymore. He is obsessed with religion, used to preach, and made us read the bible to him. Now he is very sick and close to dying. I think that if he does pass away, he will not have to suffer anymore. I do love him and I would be sad, but at the same time, relived. I wish the best for you. I understand and I know it is very painful, but I really think that you will be okay. It just takes time. It actually made me stronger. Please reply back. I would like to know how you are doing...hang in there :)
Georgia
My dad told me the same things, that people were spying on us in the radios and stuff
hi my dad is schizophrenic its bloody hard i was scared too...but i survived...my heart goes out to you,...for me somehow it doesnt get any easier
Hi. I'm 17 years old and my dad is 60 and has paranoia schizophrenia. Hes had it since he was 18 but its now just coming back up but I lived with him for 15 years without knowing but as I tell people about my memories, they say hes had symptoms all along. It all seems normal to me but I was taken away from him when I was 15 and put into foster care because my mom died when I was 4 1/2. Its not easy being all this man has... Literally. Hes homeless. I hate seeing him like this and there's nothing I can do. He wont take his meds like hes supposed to so it gets worse. Now, I just want to let you know, that your dad is going to seem better if he consistently takes his medicines. But, there's gonna be a point when he dose stop... And he crashes. Every so often this happens, quicker with some more than other, and they get worse. And there is no cure. The on set age for schizo is 18 to 30 in the early but then 45 to something else in the later. I'm not saying you surely will get it but there honestly is a chance so please get checked out every now and again.
Thank you. And that person could end up with it cause its their father.
You're very lucky you had a great mother who protected you from his illness. My father was also a diagnosed paranoid schitzophrenic who when on and off of his meds as he chose. My mother stayed with him through all of it. I had some very tramatic experiences all through my childhood. I know everyone whines about their childhood, but honestly I don't know anyone who has been thru what I went through. I hear other people talk about their alcoholic or drug addicted parents and I'm think to myself... "shooot, i wish my dad was JUST an alcoholic, thats fixable" I never knew my dad as a sane person. I know he has very brief moments of clarity. I know he thinks about me. As much as I hurt I know the hurt is multipled for him.
My mon also has schizophrenia. I understand when you say it can be unbearable. I am natuarally a laid back person but when Im around her my nerves are on edge. I get so stressed out by her behavior. Its good your family is somewhat familiar with it. Mine isn't and after so much knowledge has went forth, they still are very ignorant at times and don't care to deal with her...it can be very depressing.
I'm 30 my mother has schizophrenia and extreme paranoia...I'v been dealing with this since I was 17. I would not want this on my worst enemy. It's so hard dealing with a mother who you remember as such an amazing person and was the strong one and now I have to be the strong one. Sometimes I feel like I'm her mother.. It's a struggle when your own mother starts accusing you of being apart of the people who she has created in her mind to hurt her.. I sometimes feel like giving up but I won't....
my mother is schizophrenic I am not but I do have unberable anxiety and panic attacksbecause it is all too much. I love her so much but too have her constantly running from her problems when in actuality she is running from her own self is so hard...She could be so great sometimes but she sometimes fears that I am apart of the people that are hurting her in her mind ... It breaks me apart ...Since I was 17 ....I have a lot of emotional problems but I am not schizophrenic ..I know shizophrenics do not themselves accept or acknowledge that they are but I have tried to do all I can to make sure that I will not let this happen to me. Just gotta be strong..