Day 30 - got awesome sleep last night and feel really refreshed this morning. Going bday shopping and tan so I can keep pushing for my energy. Best wishes to all fighting those demons.
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Day 31 - got 8 hours of sleep doing really good and will continue to push myself everyday.
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Day 35 - Still doing really good with everything except the energy part. Have good days and bad days as far as the energy goes but trying to push myself everyday because I know it will come back in time. Just hopefully soon! Still getting 7-8 hours of sleep each night so that is really good. One day at a time with each day getting a little easier.
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Day 38 - had a bad 2 days energy was pretty bad and didn't feel well at all. Did some research and I'm guessing I'm stuck with some PAWS. But will hang in there and keep fighting until this is over with.
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Just wanted to let you know that i read all yur posts and congratulations on getting off opiates!...i used vicodins and percocets for 6 years...the last 3 heavy...50-60mgs a day...from may 15-july 5th..i was clean..didnt use any type of pain pill..unfortunately i relapsed..i thought i could just do a couple..bad idea!..that couple turned into 2 months of everyday use...well last monday(labor day)..i took my last 10 mgs of percocet...today is my day 7(yeah me!..:-))...the withdrawals 2nd time around were no picnic, but not as bad as first time i stopped...i also used the loperamide..started with 12 a day for 2 days..then 10 a day for 2 days, etc...im down to just 2 in the am..2 in the pm..also have been taking a daily vitamin,drinking lots of water..just trying to eat better generally..i think that the p.a.w.s. kinda took me off my guard in july which is why i relapsed..i have a beautiful wife and 2 boys which are the world to me..i owed it to myself first, and my family 2nd to try and better myself..1st off was getting off the pain meds..next up( in due time)..will be just getting back to a healthy me(physically,emotionally,spiritually)..this is one hell of a fight we are all facing..best of luck to you in your recovery..i will pray for you and only ask that you do the same for me..:-)
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Thank you so much for your reply. Today is Day 40 for me:-). It has definitely been a long hard road for me as I failed so many times before. I am a mom of 6 children (3 mine and 3 my husbands) and raised them mainly alone for the last ten years as my husband works in the oilfield. I also now have grand children that I worry about 24/7 which I know is a big reason why I never made it before. The stress and constant worrying while trying to go through this did not help at all but this time I have been doing my best to let it go and put it in God's hands and ask him to watch over my children and grand children. I have two children still at home in school and of course they don't understand so it still gets hard but I'm fitting this until the end. I know it gets better in time I just hope it comes sooner than later. It's never easy and it will always be a fight in one way or another but we CAN do it. Congrats on getting back off! That is the first step in having your life back and I will definitely keep you in my thoughts and prayers. And if you need to vent or just talk I will be here and i will check back daily just in case.
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Myjourney
Sorry to leave you hanging but I had to go help with a family emergency for three weeks. That postponed the quitting, but as soon as this prescription runs out, I'm going for it. I'm not expecting anything in my life out of the ordinary.
I did run out for a couple of days and the pooh pills did work! It's not 100% but close, so one does need commitment to quit, but I was able to function well instead of wallowing in agony as in the past. I have a huge supply and am ready. If you stop posting, I will read your journal over and over for moral support and reply to your daily entries with how mine is going if you don't mind.
Right now, I'm on 60 mg morphine and 20 mg hydro daily. Trying to taper to make it easier. Thanks for staying with your journal. Your story of success is very motivating.
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MyJ - Thinking of you today. Hope the PAWS aren't as bad as the beginning. When I complained how long w/d took when I tried to get off them before, my doctor told me that fat cells store the drug and after quitting, out of the blue it will release some. Hope it doesn't last long.
Let me know how you're doing. I will check daily and support you through it.
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Forgot, my doctor did mention that normally it's just the first 30 days, so hope this will be the only hump you go over.
You sound so focused on your goal and keep your reasons for quitting in the forefront. Keep going. I know people who got their life back completely and it is worth it.
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MyJ
Hope you are hanging in there. You have a great attitude. I'll check back daily to give you support. Your thread is the first one that has given me hope and I am going to give it all I've got this time to rid my life of these.
Thank you for keeping this journal.
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usblues
I'm praying for you and MyJ. We'll get through this. It helps me the most to hear success stories like this and know it can be done.
Take care
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Hi MyJ and usblues
Sorry about the multiple posts in one day - my mistake they don' show up right after posting and I kept thinking they weren't entered.
If you did a backslide with the PAWS, I'll be here for moral support and we'll do this together. Please let me know if you got through it or not. I'm cheering you on and praying for you either way.
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Unfortunately im back at day 2 of opiate free...took my last 2 viks on sat afternoon...its now monday afternoon...yeaterday i had not much energy..and i only had 4 loperimide...took 2 last night and the last 2 immodium pills this morning...i dont know why i repeatedly start taking them again..yes i do..im an addict..earlier this summer i went 53 days without..then in july. I thought i could just do "a couple"...well that went back to a daily habbit and i used almost eveyday from july 5th to the beginning of sept..now for the last few weeks..i do them for a couple days then take a few days off...i just NEED TO STOP for good...i know the negatives aspects of takin pain pills for fun..but i cant seem to stay away...i have read hundreds of posts on this site..i (unfortunately) know all the ups and downs of drug use(i have used many)..i was addicted to crack for about 6-7 months back in '94...i just one day realized that that was no life for me..i quit and dont really remember any w/d's...but these damn opiates..i know exactly what to expect from withdrawals..but still put myself through it...when will i learn?!...i honestly do want to quit the pain pills..just cant seem to find my absolute inner strength to help me battle this addiction everyday...
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Hi USB I wanted to give you some moral support as we both seem to be riding the same roller coaster. My inner strength doesn't exist after a certain point either. This is partly due to I get mine as a prescription and the temptation of a refill is too strong when the going gets tough. Wish there was a way to get past that. When I run out early, or make another attempt to quit ct, loperamide does help. All of the above info about loperamide is true, but I will admit I haven't tried it beyond a few days. I am wondering how long we can take the loperamide as a crutch without physical consequences. Even if it's addictive, the w/d's can't be as bad as the opiates. If possible, maybe stock up prior to quitting on the loperamide this time, or if you need to try again. I will check back if you post. The only advice I can give you is keep trying - this may be the time you conquer it!
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